Oldcatlady
A young cat lady
I’m not a medical student, but I can totally emphasize with that. It really is a tough situation to be in No one warns you about what it really means to dedicate years of your life in a high stress course with so much memorization. About the comparing with others, money making, and insecurity, I definitely did that a lot as well.I'm feeling really lost in life right now. I'm dead exhausted in medicine and I'm not the stellar student I used to be in college; people say to "remember the reason why I entered" and honestly I have nothing good to say? I just thought medicine was interesting but there's just so much to memorize that the time clench is sucking all the enjoyment out of me studying. I don't know what I want to do in life and I don't want to quit medicine because that's like more than a hundred-thousand-dollars fine in my school and I know I can't afford that. I'm stuck here for 4 more years until I can learn to enjoy it at this fast pace I guess. I'm just trying to live every week dead tired and without energy and I feel insecure my classmates are doing way better than me and I can't keep up. I feel like trash compared to them.
Then there's the issue with me trying to earn money, like people tell me it's okay I'm not working yet because I'm a medical student, but I just feel so insecure some people my age are already earning a lot? I want to be independent too but I can't seem to find the time to practice hobbies I can try selling. I can't even enjoy doing hobbies without thinking of ways to earn money from it. I know it's not supposed to be this way but idk I can't get it out of my mind.
I should go see a therapist. Bottling this all up is too much sometimes.
Talking with a therapist definitely helped so I recommend that! It me build some confidence about myself, and becoming ok with the fact that even though I think others are miles ahead of me, it might not actually be true and not to beat myself over it. And being ok with the fact that I can go at my own pace without stressing about making money or having the perfect career that I think others are having if that helps with my mental health, there’s no set path that we need to follow.
Stay strong ❤ I’d give you a hug if I could