What's Bothering You?

I usually stay off social media just because things tend to upset me really easily. I went on tiktok (bad idea) to watch some cat videos and ended up falling down the rabbit hole. I started looking at the pages of other girls in my town and instantly became jealous about what they were doing- parties, etc. even though theres a pandemic going on and they obviously shouldn’t be doing that sort of stuff, something inside me just wanted to join? idk. theyre very popular (we all know how that goes) and everyone likes them (can’t seem to think of a reason besides that they’re rich and attractive) so obviously me being a girl who kind doesnt have many friends wanted to join them?

being a virtual student has made me feel like i’m missing out on a lot; idec at this point who i hang out with i just want to have some sort of social interaction :c
i relate to this so muchhhh omg. i havent hung out w friends in over a year and it hurts soo bad to see my friends hanging out w their friends without a care in the world. especially seeing my best friend hanging out w her friends makes me sad because shes my best friend and ive been dying to hang out w her :c
 
Haven't seen you in a bit.
Ah hey! Long time no see :)
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sick and tired of my job. i have an interview tomorrow that HAS to go well. i can't keep working 55 hours a week where i'm at now. if i get this job that i'm interviewing for tomorrow, i'll try to work part time making coffee here. but nobody listens to or respects anything i have to say, my boss constantly rearranges my schedule with short notice, and i'm constantly asked to cover for other people knowing that they would never do the same for me. i've had enough.
How'd the interview go?? You deserve better than that.
 
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I thought I'd be okay moving to a city with no one I know. I'm pretty good in my own company. But I can't help but feel a bit...alone. it's part of the reason I want to move into a flat with other people, otherwise I'll probably never socialise with others and I don't think that's very healthy lol.

I get anxious walking around the main street and shops in fear that I might find someone from work and they'll question or judge me for being alone. It's a very small city so the chances of running into someone I know is fairly high. My workmates already think I'm incredibly quiet, and that kinda makes me weird.

I'm trying to fit in somewhere and I can't help but feel like an imposter.
 
My eyes feel so heavy today making me feel sleepy and I have no idea why considering I managed to have a lie in this morning. 😴
 
I wanted to sleep but couldn't because it started raining and I was the only one awake to look after the spot where it leaks from the ceiling. Ugh.
 
i gave my cat her medicine and she bit me and i guess she made me bleed since there was blood on her and on my thumb and my thumb hurts bad. I am mad at her...even though I know she wasn’t trying to bite me but she was fighting me to keep the pill from her mouth. no snuggles for her...okay, I lie. i’ll probably let her still snuggle with me 😅. I love her but ah that usually freaks me out when she bites me so hard that i bleed. luckily i stayed calm since my mom isn’t home to help me right now.
 
Hey Lumi, I had this EXACT same scenario play out with my mother. She is definitely high risk as she has COPD, but because she was constantly watching the news and hearing people having bad reactions to the vaccines, she told me she wasn't getting the vaccine.
This back and forth argument went on for about a month.

I was FINALLY able to get her to agree to the Pfizer vaccine, and (I know this part will sound unfair, but it's how things go) because I work in healthcare I was able to get her in promptly.

What I had to do to make this happen was point out A.) that she won't be able to go to family gatherings moving forward because even though all her children/grandchildren would be vaccinated they could still pass the virus on to her. This swayed her a little, but the game changer I brought up was that ALSO moving forward, people are going to have to present their vaccination certificate to go certain places and get into certain facilities. This sealed the deal. Knowing that she wouldn't be able to travel, or join her bowling league again is what sealed the deal.

So my advice to you is to find something your dad loves to do, and pretty much let him know if it involves traveling or visiting certain venues for hobbies/entertainment etc. we will eventually be at a point where he will have to provide proof that he's vaccinated to be admitted.

Best of luck to you...trying to look out for the best interests of a stubborn parent is literally one of the most exhausting things to do lol

I appreciate you reaching out! Thankfully the pharmacist called today and he convinced my dad that the vaccine is safe. I’m so grateful that he did because I know my dad never would’ve taken my word for it since I don’t have a medical background and such.

The pharmacist said he had gotten the same vaccine as did his wife and that it is safe, etc etc so my dad has an appointment booked for Monday! 🥰
 
Being laid off has made me (even more) moody so I’ll just put the rant in a spoiler tag.
Whelp I know the truth about what happened with my ex.

They were developing feelings for one of their friends and dumped me for them. Since I believed the lie about “taking a break for a few days” I sent messages to someone who had already ghosted me. The block was used to indicate it was actually over. At the same time they changed their Discord status to “when I’m not with you I lose my mind.” At the time I thought it was a gaslit message directed towards me. Of course it was for their new partner. They did something similar a few days after we met.

As for why they continued to follow me elsewhere, I think it was to paint me as the bad guy. A few days after I unfollowed them they made that breakup playlist with songs about being abandoned and cheated on. If they forced me to unfollow first then it’d be easier to make people believe I left them. They used to tell me their exes all abandoned them, so I wouldn’t be surprised if I was made to look that way too.

My former classmates are still gossiping about it when I’m at the store. Not that I’m surprised. My discord has been hacked for years and they stalk my forum accounts regularly. Apparently they think this is my fault and that “they don’t care.” I believe the ladder. People with their disorder rarely show empathy towards those they abandon. If they actually cared about me they wouldn’t have lied or cut all contact. It’s ironic since they claimed to be taking the “break“ since they didn’t want to “hurt you or make you worried.”

I hate what they’ve done to me. My personality has been completely changed. I’m not nearly as trusting or relaxed as I used to be. Most of the time I’m either annoyed or filled with disdain. My best mood recently has been neutral. I know I’ll reach the point where I can happy eventually. It’s just hard to imagine ever being completely over this.

I have developed a crush on one of my friends, but I’m afraid to say anything. Facing more rejection would make things even worse and I don’t even know if I’m ready for another relationship. I know which boundaries to set, but I just feel so damaged right now.
 
my bsf always says she can’t wait to hang out w me and that “i was the only one she wanted to hang out with” but shes hanging out w her friends getting high rn and i feel like she has way more fun with them rather than me so now i’m worried abt whenever we do hang out 🙃
 
been so exhausted lately (lots of autistic burnouts yeet) I've got my sleep schedule all outta wack, I was doing so well for so long too :,,,,(
 
Just wishing I had more time in the week to both work, play video games/watch anime, and do research for a better job I’m going for. It always seems like as an adult that time is going by too fast. Especially because of this pandemic. Well, I suppose the third thing won’t be part of my time for too long.

Also, why did I read my post in Professor Ozpin’s voice from RWBY as I was typing it out? LMAO
 
I'm so pissed at my dad, I've told him so many damn times before to cut his dog's nails and file them down so they aren't an inch and a half long (she's a small lapdog size mutt so you can imagine how extremely long they are for her). But nope, never listened to me once, always said that he does but they grow right back. Instead of investing in some kind of dog nail filer, he just lets it be.
Proceed to this morning where he woke up to one of her nails gone and her blood everywhere, she got her nail stuck in one of the afghan blankets. She was struggling so much that she kept getting it even more tangled to her claw and ripped it out. He didn't even take her to the vet just to make sure it doesn't get infected or anything. No just slapped some vasaline on to stop the bleeding. I don't know, it might not get infected, but it still f-ing upsets me that she essentially mutilated herself by no fault of her own, can't imagine how much pain she was in. Damn it.
 
this is late but i got a warning for bumping another user’s thread in march but i don’t remember that being a rule before so i did a quick search to see if anyone else had done it recently as in 2020 and i saw ppl bumping other people’s threads like “good luck bump” (most recent one i had seen was from oct 2020) but i got a warning for it and the post got deleted ?? 🙁
 
Mom, I highly doubt your friends actually like your smacking and wheezing sound effects you pull literally every time. Is it that hard to ask me to hand your glasses from the table, no need for you to stretch out like a rubber ball making noises.
 
this is late but i got a warning for bumping another user’s thread in march but i don’t remember that being a rule before so i did a quick search to see if anyone else had done it recently as in 2020 and i saw ppl bumping other people’s threads like “good luck bump” (most recent one i had seen was from oct 2020) but i got a warning for it and the post got deleted ?? 🙁
they made it a rule relatively recently that you can't bump others' threads in the TBT Marketplace. used to be a thing we did a lot but it's against the rules now.


today is like the 3rd day in a row that I wake up super tired and the entire day I have zero energy and my executive dysfunction is at an all time high 🙃🙃🙃
 
this is late but i got a warning for bumping another user’s thread in march but i don’t remember that being a rule before so i did a quick search to see if anyone else had done it recently as in 2020 and i saw ppl bumping other people’s threads like “good luck bump” (most recent one i had seen was from oct 2020) but i got a warning for it and the post got deleted ?? 🙁
This rule change was announced in a Bell Tree Direct on July 22nd, 2020. All rule changes are announced via The Bulletin Board so it's good to keep an eye on it.
 
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