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Need to book a time to renew my ID card, really sucks this day and age you still have to do it in person, why can't you just send in a photo and boom there it is anew lol.. I mean sure if you change/reassign name/sex/gender etc. you should fill out things but.. can I just get it it's not that I grew 6 feet in five years...

I mean with driver license you basically have to re-apply and you get it renewed unless they changed it lol

update: no free time until september 20th and i can't go 10 am when i work.. not a fan of working extra several hours just for that SIGH. and i need to be able to pick it up before 28th. i blame dumb people wanting to travel or stuff. :c
 
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I'm auditioning for my school play later and just thinking about it gives me a panic attack (its my first audition-)
 
I lost my mom.

The worst part about this is that she was doing so well and was going to go home, but thanks to the hospital, she's gone now.
I feel sick and don't know what to do.

I’m so sorry for your loss. My dms are open if you want to vent or talk; doesn’t have to be about this .
if it helps at all I've been drawing religiously since I was like 11, that's why my skill is as far along as it is. I started out just drawing pictures of pokemon/fakemon in 6th grade and worked my way up from there. you don't necessarily have to trace, just look at a picture and try to draw it, then do that 40+ more times. heck I still do that to this day, only now with more complicated stuff.

also I won't say don't compare yourself to others bc I know that's basically impossible to do, I still do it all the time. you just gotta push through it. maybe draw stuff you really like and then remind yourself of how cool it is and how much you like it. that'll give you the confidence you need to keep going. slow progress is better than giving up and making no progress.
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I'm so sorry, I'll absolutely be keeping you and your dad in my thoughts today 😔💕

Thanks so much for the tip; I appreciate it a lot :). Good points!
 
I lost my mom.

The worst part about this is that she was doing so well and was going to go home, but thanks to the hospital, she's gone now.
I feel sick and don't know what to do.

I was going to rant about how quarantine policy sucks so much where I am now, but that is so petty compared to this. Oh my god. I’m so, so sorry to hear about your loss. The pain.. must be unimaginable. Please take care during this tough time.
 
broke my partners giant tv on accident while packing the uhaul ;-; i fell over and my hand pushed in the screen
 
my whole room smells like rotten sewage and I can't do a damn thing about it, it's so disgusting 🤢🤢

edit: smell isn't gone yet and now I've got a horrible headache because of it so that's fun 🙃

edit 2: smell is like 98% gone now thank goodness, but my head still hurts really bad. I also accidentally took my sleeping med when I tried to take Excedrin so I might accidentally fall asleep soon rip
 
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Oh
My
*ing
God

Sometimes it is so hard to talk to my parents about stuff, I was tryin to ask a simple question and it turned into a whole discussion about BC and dirt & rocks and such, like jeez next time I'll just ask Google omg. Not only this but anythin politics related in the slightest (like the current situation in Afghanistan) becomes an argument. When I ask about why American troops have been in Afghanistan for 20 years (I was 1-3 when this happened) it becomes an argument cause I'm tryin to ask questions since I don't understand somethin. So sorry I asked a question to better understand somethin that I possibly could not have the comprehension at the time it happened (20 years ago) nor did public school ever really talk about it.

It isn't even a thing about our choice of political parties, it's just my parents being, idk, rude? Fighty? That I don't understand? Idk the word for this situation.

And literally my question was 'How old is the country of Afghanistan.' That was literally my question and it became a whole yelling thing omgggg.

They also get mad when I raise my voice. I raise my voice cause you did it first to me, and I after you continued to do it, then I raised my voice in a pitiful effort to stop you from cutting me off mid sentence.

I don't want to complain about my parents but omg they give me alot to complain about. I don't even post 80% on here.
 
Oh
My
*ing
God

Sometimes it is so hard to talk to my parents about stuff, I was tryin to ask a simple question and it turned into a whole discussion about BC and dirt & rocks and such, like jeez next time I'll just ask Google omg. Not only this but anythin politics related in the slightest (like the current situation in Afghanistan) becomes an argument. When I ask about why American troops have been in Afghanistan for 20 years (I was 1-3 when this happened) it becomes an argument cause I'm tryin to ask questions since I don't understand somethin. So sorry I asked a question to better understand somethin that I possibly could not have the comprehension at the time it happened (20 years ago) nor did public school ever really talk about it.

It isn't even a thing about our choice of political parties, it's just my parents being, idk, rude? Fighty? That I don't understand? Idk the word for this situation.

And literally my question was 'How old is the country of Afghanistan.' That was literally my question and it became a whole yelling thing omgggg.

They also get mad when I raise my voice. I raise my voice cause you did it first to me, and I after you continued to do it, then I raised my voice in a pitiful effort to stop you from cutting me off mid sentence.

I don't want to complain about my parents but omg they give me alot to complain about. I don't even post 80% on here.
The situation in Afghanistan brings up a lot of internal (maybe even external at times) conflict surrounding politics I think, from both ends of the political leaning spectrum. And some people are just not comfortable discussing politics, I don't know why that is beyond avoiding leading to a possible argument, but if any of that applies to them then it might explain the reaction you got.

The situation in Afghanistan is what's bothering me right now btw, hence why I felt compelled to reply to you. I don't think you did anything bad by asking that question either, it's always good to try to understand what's going on in the world. How would we expect young people to vote if they haven't been taught what's happening in the world? I'm sorry it got the reaction it did.

I am shocked at both sides tbh. The far-right are coming out to scream about closing the borders to the refugees and saying they don't want them here. Some even had the heartlessness to crow over the death of a refugee child, who fell out of a window in a hotel on British soil, acting as if it was somehow ok because it was "only one of them" and "would've died in Afghanistan anyway". Cruel people. Never had any time for them.

Though sadly the far left, who I previously thought I maybe aligned with have been strangely quiet on it all. Seemingly because they daren't criticise Biden's handling of the Afghanistan situation (which was appalling and dangerous and cost way too many lives), because it would be like admitting they were wrong to assume he was going to be better than Trump. And that's fine I guess, but I remember the same people either jeering at Trump for every mess he made or calling for his impeachment when he made a very serious mistake. Why so silent on Biden? Why can't we call out both sides if we're going to do that? It cheapens the lives of many many Afghans if we become too proud to admit to being wrong or admit to the fact that neither side is "good" or "bad", both have good and bad elements, but we'll never achieve peace or come to a solution if we don't discuss and listen to each other without becoming hateful or under threat of cancellation. Nobody wants fascism, let's live and let live and work on closing the gap through respect.

Deep thoughts mannnnnn.....
 
The effects of my meds have been inconsistent recently. I’ll go from perfectly fine to absolutely hopeless. Maybe I’m forgetting to take them as much?

Edit: I had a minor panic attack after a disturbing image of my ex resurfaced in my mind. The medication thankfully kept my heart rate down. I have an idea why my brain went there, but it’s not definitive.
 
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now that school has started in like 90x more stressed and my meds are causing my dreams to be insanely vivid again. That kind of exhausts me on its own. So I wake up super tired. I’ve also just been sleeping as soon as I get home. hopefully things even out after this week.
 
I really can't wait to get back to work so I have something to do. I have next to no hobbies, nothing interests me outside of work, no family nearby and no friends nearby (not that I could visit them anyway). Most days I just sleep in and stay in bed until midday because at least it wastes half the day away. Having the weekends off I can handle, but 2+ weeks at home is just driving me insane.
 
Today I have a phone call interview for the first time. I struggle with bad social anxiety so I haven’t been able to sleep for a while just due to the thought of this upcoming phone call. I know it will only be 10 min max but I cannot wait for it to be over and done with just so it’s over and done with! I keep telling myself it will be fine, it’s just a call but I’m sure anyone struggling with anxiety will relate that it doesn’t stop the thoughts and worry in their head.
 
I'm having issues w my self image again. just ate and now I feel disgusted w myself bc im so terrified of gaining weight and i get into fits where any amount of eating is enough to make me feel bad.

but I also don't really have the energy to work out so that's cool 🙃
 
Oh I don’t feel well. I might have to make a doctors appointment or something idk. I feel like this past month or so I’ve felt sick every day. I know it hasn’t actually been everyday but my tummy has been unsettled a lot, or I’ve had headaches, or a combo of the two, and sometimes I’m pretty dizzy. It doesn’t seem to matter what I do/don’t eat, there doesn’t really seem be any connection ?? I thought maybe it’s been the weather but it’s not been 30 degrees all the time.

Regardless tho it’s super lousy and I’m over it. 🙃 and it’s not even like ive lost weight or anything either
 
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