xSuperMario64x
call me Bug 🇨🇦💜🐛
just found out that apparently my brother's gf broke up w him, idk how he's taking it but I hope he's okay. she don't deserve him anyways, such an awesome dude 
What's Bothering You?
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Dunquixote
Mrrrroooooow! T-Treasure...
Hey Dun, your feelings are valid and I've definitely had this thought numerous times throughout Camp. It's not the best feeling, but as long as you're doing your best, that's all you can really expect from yourself at the end of the day. Any effort is appreciated.It's also really hard to fall into the cycle of burnout when you feel like you're not working hard enough and sacrifice sleep to push through work, even though your brain could really use the rest.
Trying to uphold my personal values when it comes to work is so hard sometimes. I feel like I'm trying to live to be the best version of myself, but then within the span of one week, I get the impression from two different male counterparts (one is a uni acquaintance, the other was an Internet stranger who is a member of a Discord server I'm a part of--so his opinion shouldn't matter to me but I have an ego, LOL) that I'm on my career path sub-optimally.
Situation #1 with Internet rando: I was on a tech career panel last weekend, and someone asked all the panelists how to choose between working at a small versus large company. I was the only person currently working in a small company, and the other three panelists are working at one of the FAANG companies. While responding to this question, one of them said "Only big companies solve big problems." Excuse me? My tolerance for people making generalized, blanket statements with absolutely no degree of nuance has gotten so low.
Situation #2 with a uni acquaintance, in a group chat we're both in: The impression he gave me is that he was subtly flexing that 1) he was given more responsibilities in another one of the big tech companies, despite saying himself he's being carried by his team, and 2) his job is something that he "glows about to family and friends." He mentioned before that he sometimes had to work weekends and said yesterday that he only had to do that because he wasn't fully paying attention to working during the weekdays. He also clearly doesn't understand the different nature of working in a small company and wearing multiple hats versus working in a large company of nearly 200k employees and comparatively having unlimited resources for not dropping any balls. Like great for you, I actually want to learn and better myself, not to mention have the opportunity to pave some roads within an organization. Why does someone need to share their pride in their work with others???
For a culture that claims to value individualism, I feel like there are still a decent number of hypocrites who will try to impose their version of reality onto others and it's just like... no, I don't want that. You live your life your way, and I will live mine how I want to.
i won’t tell you to not beat yourself up as i know that’s easier said than done, but i completely understand how you feel and your feelings are perfectly valid! my cabin mates did a great job at coming up with guesses and working together, but all i could do was search around the forums since i had no guesses myself lol. it’s a rough feeling, but we both did our best and i’m sure your cabin mates appreciate you a lot! and like @Croconaw said, you’ve earned 140 points to help your cabin and that’s awesome and something worth being proud of! i hope you feel better after you’ve gotten some sleep. you deserve rest.
i just found out about technoblade’s cancer myself; i don’t watch him, but i wish him a speedy recovery and will keep him in my thoughts. i’m also so sorry to hear about your rat passing away - may they rest in peace.
i hope you don’t mind me replying to this. >>
Thanks so much everyone! I did make sure to do everything else and I put a lot of time and thought in them even though I wasn’t confident about my drawing skills.
I can’t help but feel a bit like I don’t belong and negative thoughts. Doesn’t help I’m in an awkward situation but am doing my best not to let it stop me from having a good time and helping my team out. Sorry koopa about the inactive members. I would be incredibly frustrated with that.Sorry SillyPuppy about your frustrations
. if you want to vent more, my dms are always open .
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Sorry to hear about that. sending you my condolences and positive vibes. Hang in there.
Hopeless Opus
diluc is my king
just wanna punch some besties in the face rn ❤
peachmilke
sproutling
I can not decide for the life of me decide what race I want to be on XIV, I've spent an obnoxious amount of money on fantasias and I have multiple characters that I love, but I'd really love to be able to just settle on one. It makes me so annoyed and I know at the end of the day it is just a game and it does not matter that much, but jeez
I tend to skip the those types of things because I’m not good at them and I rarely finish everything in tbt events if I participate, but since I’m on a team; I’ve been having to push myself to get through it all so I don’t let everyone down. I try to help with the bird watching and the Homework, but I’m really just no help at all. I can definitely relate to this
TheSillyPuppy
⚔️ Dedicate your heart and set it ablaze 🔥
Sending you lots of good vibes. It must be so hard losing a pet and finding out someone you look up to is going through such a serious health diagnosis.I hope your brother will be okay, too. You sound pretty close to him, so I think he will reach out to you if/when he needs further support.just found out that apparently my brother's gf broke up w him, idk how he's taking it but I hope he's okay. she don't deserve him anyways, such an awesome dude
@Dunquixote, thank you for being such an empathetic friend.
I'll definitely reach out to you if it continues bothering me. Thankfully, I already felt a lot better after writing down my thoughts in the post. I wonder if this is a sign to me to start journaling. 
Just not having a good night. My anxiety is being the absolute worst and making me feel awful and I still have to do my shadow entry but I’m really struggling with that which makes me feel dumb because other people are doing there’s without any issue.
I’ve also been not helpful at all with our group tasks like the scavenger hunt and the homework assignment which makes me feel like a bad teammate. Idk. Just a bad night.
I’ve also been not helpful at all with our group tasks like the scavenger hunt and the homework assignment which makes me feel like a bad teammate. Idk. Just a bad night.
Millysaurusrexjr
yeah
annoyed that when I wanna do some productive real life stuff like sewing or drawing I suddenly get tired lmao. Pretty sure I have ADHD or something. So many times I wanna do stuff but just...can't
Dunquixote
Mrrrroooooow! T-Treasure...
I am really sorry you’re feeling this way. I think quite a few of us have been feeling this way. Even though we aren’t on the same team, I can tell you right now that I believe you are a wonderful teammate and very well liked and I am sure no one feels like you let them down. I know this is probably hypocritical of me to say when I was just posting about this last night too and still feel like not very welcome or helpful. :/ I saw your other entries and I really can tell you are trying your best and putting the time in. To me the fact you are trying to help out and putting a lot of effort in is what matters (but if you had no time because of work, I understand stuff happens).
I’m also sorry about your anxiety. Anxiety is just the worst. If you need to vent more my dms are open
. hang in there. i hope you feel better soon.
TheSillyPuppy
⚔️ Dedicate your heart and set it ablaze 🔥
The important thing is that you're aware it's your anxiety telling you that you're not good enough and there's nothing intrinsically wrong with you.
You've also gotten 140 points, which I believe means you participated in every event, except for Stories in the Shadows, which is objectively great!
It can be really hard to practice self-compassion and patience with yourself, especially as someone living with anxiety, so I hope this message at least reminds you that you are doing your best and it's okay to cut yourself some slack.
If you need someone to talk with, feel free to PM me.
King koopa
🎈 Balloons 🎈
Late reply, but don't worry, it's not all your fault. You have 120 points, so you're definitely helping! It's just that I feel like it's just not enough for us to catch up. I mean, there are some really hardworking people like @Valzed, @DaCoSim, @digimon, and @Venn, but I just wish that everyone did all of the tasks and they got accepted, because it's not fair if we have inactive people but everyone else doesn't.
Sorry about the rant, it's just that I wish it was easier for us to catch up
The members got placed into Cabins randomly. It’s just unfortunate that certain cabins did get some inactive members. There will be more events in the future to participate in. This event is coming to an end. The most important thing is to have fun. There’s no use in worrying about something you have no control over. I think you’re doing a great job!
aw love
. struggling with your shadow entry doesn’t make you dumb at all; i struggled with it a lot myself, hence why i only submitted it tonight and am unsure that it’ll even be accepted. coming up with an idea, gathering items for it and then having to try and take a decent picture is tricky, but that’s of no fault of your own. you’re a very kind, bright individual.also, as one of your fellow teammates, i can confidently say that you are not a bad teammate. group activities can be intimidating, especially when it comes to stuff like the scavenger hunt. i didn’t participate much either, but we’re both doing the best we can and have been able to help in other ways! you’ve racked up 140 points for us, which is absolutely incredible, and all of the submissions of yours that i’ve seen have been amazing!
you even offered some of your acnh flowers to a fellow teammate so that they could craft something they needed for one of their entries. a bad teammate wouldn’t do that. anxiety is absolutely brutal, but it’s also a liar, and i’m so sorry that it’s making you feel like things that you aren’t.
you’re wonderful, lumi, no matter what.
I know we’ve never spoken before, but I hope you don’t mind me replying. It’s okay to feel this way; your feelings are valid. Coming up with my shadow entry was a struggle, and I was also having trouble with the Cryptid creature thing or whatever it’s called. I felt that my entries in those tasks were somewhat lame, but my main goal was to help my cabin. I had the access to the game, so I thought, why not participate? Some people are good at different things. Lyrics for the Campfire song were coming to me naturally, but that’s because I used to write parodies in my free time. I know a lot of people were struggling with that activity. The main thing is that you try, and please don’t feel overwhelmed. You don’t have to participate in a task if it’s causing anxiety. Your cabin won’t be disappointed in you. There is a great group of people here that support everyone. I also came in late to the homework task and I didn’t feel much of a help finding the answers, but the event is supposed to be fun and bring people together. I joined this event to have fun and hopefully make friends with some people. Please don’t let it cause you anxiety. I think you’re doing a great job.
Dunquixote
Mrrrroooooow! T-Treasure...
Edited: I think everything is okay though I think I could have said things better >< and I still suck at socializing.
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perhaps a more pet peeves but people who unironically have a "it is what it is" mindset when they obviously are able to get help for it it's like... ??? you know there are actually poor people in the world lol.
Thank you guys for reply
It was really really sweet of you and none of you had to so I really appreciate it. Last night just wasn’t the best and all the team stuff added to it I guess, but you’re all super sweet for replying I hope that you’re all having a lovely day today 
.: Meri :.
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@-Lumi- I'm sorry I didn't see this last night, but I also want to say that you've been a great teammate! And Stories in the Shadows is tough, so please don't beat yourself up over struggling with it. I'd say that, maybe aside from Wildlife #2, it was definitely the task I had the most difficulty with. I had two failed sculptures and my final setup took several tries to get to work— I had to try three different light sources to find one that worked with taking the picture, and by the end of it, after finally getting the right angle and everything, my back was sore and my hand was cramping.
Bad anxiety nights suck, and I really hope you're feeling better today.
Bad anxiety nights suck, and I really hope you're feeling better today.
