What's Bothering You?

[King koopa]

These people next door are blasting music very loudly and my dad is trying to do a zoom meeting for his job and he has to yell really loudly for his coworkers to hear him.

Spoiler: Spoiler

And my new friend got beat up by a senior and I'm not sure what I should do since I didn't witness the fight but I want to do something

 

[Xara]

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[Midoriya]

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Hey there, Xara. Sorry that you have to deal with this. It sounds kind of like me with my dad and stepmom, only worse. Hopefully you can get to a point where you don't have to hear it anymore. I hope you're doing okay, friend.

 

[Snek]

I found out today that Netflix is making a One Piece live-action series that nobody asked for. This will once again be another Netflix series that I will pretend that never existed.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

my dad just got his weekly subscription of extreme transphobia in the mail today

 

[Neb]

I’ve put off my math entrance exam for weeks. My math skills were so rusty that I failed my first attempt. I don’t even know what I need to study…

 

[Beanz]

a fish from my pond (well technically my dad’s) died today. we had 6 but now we only have 5, my dad discovered this when he was cleaning the pond and we can’t find its body so something probably swooped in and ate it. im not sad about it but still rip fishe

 

[Dunquixote]

Spoiler: personal

Saw the cat that my parents saw. I’m so scared for it since we have neighbors who let their dogs run loose and hawks . I hope we can ”tame” it so we can approach it eventually and find it a better home since we believe it was from the household whose son let their cats out back when I was in high school so he didn’t have to take care of it.

My anxiety is super bad right now; I’m fretting over a request I made on my print that I ordered

 

[ali.di.magix]

it’s been so long since i’ve last vented in here, but i... am going to fistfight my grandmother lol.

yesterday, she cracked yet another one of her ‘jokes’ about how i’m crazy and how there’s something wrong with my head. she’s been doing this **** my whole life, from telling me that i’m crazier than my mother (i wasn’t even 10 when she said this to me) to when she turned to me when a segment on psychosis was on tv and said, “look, this one’s for you!”

and now today, i left my room to go and get a drink, only to find her *****ing about me to my mother. i of course interrupted her, and this woman’s response was literally “so, you wanna know everything?” like??????????? ma’am.

she *****ed about the state of my hair, which is genuinely none of her business at all. she *****ed about me having clothes on my floor, which i literally,, do not?? but even if i did, that wouldn’t have anything to do with her? like, it’s my room lol. and of course, she had to ***** about my eating habits as well.

i tried to be as polite as humanly possible, but i am so ****ing tired of this. i’m tired of having to tiptoe around my own house whenever i get something to eat or drink out of fear that she’ll hear me and have something to say about it. i’m tired of her thinking that she knows everything about everything. i’m tired of her badmouthing my parents to me. i’m tired of her petting my cat when she knows damn well that she doesn’t like it and will bite. i’m tired of her manipulation. i’m tired of her.


she claims to love and care about me, but it’s all bull****. you don’t say the **** that she’s said to me to people you love. you don’t make people you love feel this awful. i’ve been telling her for years that her words and actions are hurtful. my mother has been telling her for years that her words and actions are hurtful. but she still keeps it up. that isn’t love. it can’t be.

i should be used to this by now. i’m trying to be used to this, to act like it doesn’t hurt when this happens, to not care. but it does hurt. i was this close to being out of my depressive episode, but now i’m back to fighting it off with a stick.

i’m so tired lol.

hey Xara, I'm so sorry to hear that you have to put up with all those horrific things! Thats so effed up with all that gaslighting. There's nothing wrong with you, you're perfectly normal I'm sure I hope you can find a way to cope and things get better for you!
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minor complaints from me, but my flatmates and family aren't following lockdown rules. My flatmates have been visiting their families even though they're not supposed to. My cousin is going around to my grandparents place to give my grandma a haircut?? Like I know the risk is really low since there's no cases in their city, but still something like that could literally wait?? My grandparents are in their 80s, it isn't worth the risk.

Returning to work has made me excessively tired this week :// literally slept for 14 hours the other night lol. Hopefully I can get back to normal soon.

these random pains in my abdomen are getting really annoying, but I'm sure an in-person appointment is needed/easier and idk when that can happen

 

[.: Meri :.]

Spoiler: I know this is a silly thing but I almost died of embarassment ok

...I think Youtube is trying to kill me. For the record, I don't watch anything otome-related on the family's Youtube account, and yet it still decided to throw a thumbnail of a pretty risqué otome CG right in the middle of our recommended section while my parents were scrolling through. Bonus don't-want-my-parents-to-see-that points: it was from an otome I play and of one of my favorite characters. Thank god they didn't see it and I was able to mark it as "Not interested" when they weren't around shortly thereafter, but I swear I nearly choked. orz

 

[Dunquixote]

Spoiler

I hate how my mom is more concerned about getting stupid garage sale **** away than the cat that is outside. :/

 

[-Lumi-]

My neighbours are so. damn. loud. This is the third night?? Maybe the fourth??? That they’ve been partying and blasting music.

It’s still a pandemic
And even if it wasn’t nobody wants to hear your awful music we want to sleep!!!

 

[.: Meri :.]

My neighbours are so. damn. loud. This is the third night?? Maybe the fourth??? That they’ve been partying and blasting music.

It’s still a pandemic
And even if it wasn’t nobody wants to hear your awful music we want to sleep!!!

I feel you—one of my neighbors throws a ton of noisy parties and likes to play the tuba, of all things, at late hours.

 

[a potato]

Something that really shouldn’t, lol. Like there’s an almost negligible percent chance of it being true so I have no clue why it’s even bothering me!

 

[-Lumi-]

I feel you—one of my neighbors throws a ton of noisy parties and likes to play the tuba, of all things, at late hours.

Oh my gosh not a tuba not what I think of when I think of party instruments, lol. My neighbours been loving that really thumpy music, bass or whatever? All. Night. Long. I woke up at 5 am and it was still playing despite starting up at like 7:30 the night before it’s awful!!

 

[VanitasFan26]

I know they always say "things will get better" but I sometimes wonder if they are just saying that because it seems nothing in this world feels any better. This is a time of uncertainty. I want to feel like everything is okay but its not really. Even ignoring it, almost seems impossible no matter how hard you try to escape it.

 

[DinosaurDumpster]

why do bullies have to exist
just leave me alone, everybody knows im short you dont gotta announce it to the whole world 24 7

 

[VanitasFan26]

why do bullies have to exist
just leave me alone, everybody knows im short you dont gotta announce it to the whole world 24 7

Its because they had a rough childhood and they were treated poorly by their parents so they feel the need to be mean to everyone just to make them feel better.

 

[DinosaurDumpster]

Its because they had a rough childhood and they were treated poorly by their parents so they feel the need to be mean to everyone just to make them feel better.

well yes, but hes also friends with my friends. i'm the only one being picked on in our group and it irks me. he annoys me on purpose and its just old at this point, like its funny or something?

 

[VanitasFan26]

well yes, but hes also friends with my friends. i'm the only one being picked on in our group and it irks me. he annoys me on purpose and its just old at this point, like its funny or something?

They only do that because they want to fit in and its something called "Peer Pressure" where they would try to act all cool which explains why they have friends. The reality is when they grow up those same friends would ditch them telling them that they are "not good enough for them" which can lead them feeling more messed up. I know from experience because I used to be friend with someone who used to be kind, but turned really mean when he hanged out with those meaner folks just because they looked cool and he wanted to join in.