What's Bothering You?
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Sick of pretending I’m happy and doing well. I’ve been emotionally drained for the past week+ and it’s really starting to wear on me. No one gives a **** about my feelings or what I’m going through. I DESERVE a better job based on my work ethic, degree, and everything else, yet I’m stuck working two crappy jobs all day long every day. Not to mention whenever I do get home then my family, or what’s left of it, is there to make my life even worse.
It’s funny and sad because my life wasn’t always like this. I used to be a positive person who enjoyed life. But as more and more negative things keep happening and people don’t seem to give a ****, I’m beginning to find out just how ugly the world is.
It’s funny and sad because my life wasn’t always like this. I used to be a positive person who enjoyed life. But as more and more negative things keep happening and people don’t seem to give a ****, I’m beginning to find out just how ugly the world is.
I cannot tell you how much I resonate with this; I've been very disgruntled and disappointed lately for much the same reasons as yours. Trying to find a good, fulfilling job that makes us feel valued is something that I think many if not most people struggle with (unfortunately...). At the very least, it seems our situation is quite similar in that regard. I was in a particularly bad headspace yesterday, too. Yet, I somehow managed to feel a little better after doing some self-reflection and taking some time to find my bearings.
I'm not sure how much this will help, but it's good that you know your own worth, because those who don't acknowledge that worth simply aren't worth it. I know it's incredibly difficult to carry on when it seems as though everything and everyone is against you (even though that isn't true). But at the end of the day, we just have to be willing to change the narrative within our minds, or else we will only continue to find proof that the world really is an ugly place. People seem like they may not care, but I think that deep down everyone thinks that way, especially during this whole period. People have certainly and noticeably become more hesitant and closed-off in one way or another, so it's easy to think that everyone is just for themselves.
So, for the sake of my own mental and emotional health, I've made the decision to not take these things personally, and to just see them as a byproduct of complex factors in people's lives––factors that I personally have no control over. All I can do is put my best foot/aim forward relative to what I want, instead of expecting things of people who just don't have the capacity to understand because of where they're at right now. On top of that, I'm choosing to be "the better person/the change I wish to see/the antidote" in all of this––not because I want to prove anything to anyone, but because I genuinely believe that's the best approach for me right now, as it makes me feel all the more empowered in my actions instead of defeated.
I'm really sorry if this got too long and preachy... I just felt like sharing some of what's personally helped me with my emotions and mindset. (And I deeply apologize if it just comes off as unsolicited advice...) By all means, do whatever works for you! Take all the time you need to process your feelings before deciding what you need to do. There is no right or wrong; there is only choice. (That is, what is right or wrong for you personally).
I sincerely wish you well, and hope that things take a turn for the better (whatever that may look like, even if it's not what you expect).
And know that I'm someone who does care, even if we barely ever talk. I'm always supporting people on here in spirit, even if I don't post/reply all the time. If not me, there are a lot more people who care than you think. You don't have to reach out if you don't want to, but I'm here to at least listen. Take care of yourself, Riley. ❤
I'm not sure how much this will help, but it's good that you know your own worth, because those who don't acknowledge that worth simply aren't worth it. I know it's incredibly difficult to carry on when it seems as though everything and everyone is against you (even though that isn't true). But at the end of the day, we just have to be willing to change the narrative within our minds, or else we will only continue to find proof that the world really is an ugly place. People seem like they may not care, but I think that deep down everyone thinks that way, especially during this whole period. People have certainly and noticeably become more hesitant and closed-off in one way or another, so it's easy to think that everyone is just for themselves.
So, for the sake of my own mental and emotional health, I've made the decision to not take these things personally, and to just see them as a byproduct of complex factors in people's lives––factors that I personally have no control over. All I can do is put my best foot/aim forward relative to what I want, instead of expecting things of people who just don't have the capacity to understand because of where they're at right now. On top of that, I'm choosing to be "the better person/the change I wish to see/the antidote" in all of this––not because I want to prove anything to anyone, but because I genuinely believe that's the best approach for me right now, as it makes me feel all the more empowered in my actions instead of defeated.
I'm really sorry if this got too long and preachy... I just felt like sharing some of what's personally helped me with my emotions and mindset. (And I deeply apologize if it just comes off as unsolicited advice...) By all means, do whatever works for you! Take all the time you need to process your feelings before deciding what you need to do. There is no right or wrong; there is only choice. (That is, what is right or wrong for you personally).
I sincerely wish you well, and hope that things take a turn for the better (whatever that may look like, even if it's not what you expect).
And know that I'm someone who does care, even if we barely ever talk. I'm always supporting people on here in spirit, even if I don't post/reply all the time. If not me, there are a lot more people who care than you think. You don't have to reach out if you don't want to, but I'm here to at least listen. Take care of yourself, Riley. ❤
VanitasFan26
I'm just a ghost.
I relate to this so much. I sometimes wonder if things will ever get better or when try so hard to ignore all the bad stuff around you it just doesn't seem to get any better and it just makes it worse. I also hate it how I have to be "forced" positive about everything when you know things is just not good right now. If I have to hear anyone ask me "How are you doing" Its going to make me lose my mind. I mean seriously what else is there left to say at this point?
I'm going through a mild crisis because my life is really becoming a joke. First my Treadmill that I use for my exercise breaks down, then the car got damaged, because my careless parents didn't even bother to look where they were going, and I had a new liver doctor telling me how "No matter how healthy you are, you're always going to have problems down the road even if it means eating well and exercising" so you mean to tell me all that hard daily exercise was all for nothing? Ugh.....I really feel like the world is against me no matter how hard I try to be "happy" or "positive".
I really do get how you feel and I do get your pain. Back in my day I used to be a positive person myself, but until when things got more negative around me its just something that is making me hate the world even more because how society lacks commons sense and how everything you try to do seems to not work all the time. Even the friends who I made suddenly left me or the ones who used to talk to me ghosted me as if I am not a much "better' friend to them. Sorry if I'm rambling or ranting, but I just need to express this because I've been going through a lot of mixed emotions lately.
Thank you both for your kind words. My anger was already starting to subside, and you helped get rid of the last of it. I’ll save your messages as notes in case I ever need to look back at them when I’m feeling this way again. I really appreciate it.
VanitasFan26
I'm just a ghost.
No problem, if you ever need someone to talk too, I'm always here to talk in DMs. I too feel comfortable that I am not the only one that feels this way.Thank you both for your kind words. My anger was already starting to subside, and you helped get rid of the last of it. I’ll save your messages as notes in case I ever need to look back at them when I’m feeling this way again. I really appreciate it.
my right hand hurts so bad
StarlitGlitch
Sweets Lover
Minor annoyance but why doesn't Netflix warn when something on your watch list is about to be taken off? When I happen to catch it I make sure to watch it right away but I've had soo many shows/movies be taken off without me knowing...
Orius
The People's Champion
Also, I have trouble opening up the "list of episodes" menu on each series that displays the episode summaries. Whenever I tried to click on that little arrow that displays such a menu, I ended up just playing the next episode of the show instead. It's hard to describe, but you'll know what I mean if you go to your Netflix watchlist and try to do the same. The interface is annoying.
Disney+ has a better interface; it just displays the episode summary of the next episode you haven't watched when you click on a show. Very convenient.
xSuperMario64x
call me Bug 🇨🇦💜🐛
my appetite has been really crappy the last few days. I can't eat very much in one sitting and the only things I can stomach without feeling sick after a few bites is Cheez-its and Kool-Aid/water.
made myself a bowl of soup and I could only eat half before my head started to feel bad, now I'm really tired and bleh feeling. idk what my problem is :/
made myself a bowl of soup and I could only eat half before my head started to feel bad, now I'm really tired and bleh feeling. idk what my problem is :/
Princess Mipha
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Family was here and well.. my step mother decided to go out in our garden and pick up some apples, no problem as we have tons of them.. and then she decided to pick up something she had no clue what it is.. without asking, as she thinks the world is hers. So.. what was it that could make me so mad, you may wonder. Oh, just a watermelon that slowly started to grow.. about the size of a tennisball at this point. I tried only over 2 years to grow watermelons and was so proud that one finally grew. Thank you step mother for breaking my nerves once again and thinking you can do whatever you want.
TillyGoesMeow
sleepy bunny
I havent been on a lot lately bc I'm super busy. I just wish I were more excited about my hobbies or just anything in general. My severe anhedonia takes a bad turn in the colder months, ugh. I swear when I graduate I'm gonna get a therapist and look for a job working on my QMHP-C. I just gotta get through three more months of this.
Orius
The People's Champion
Honestly, people shouldn't be that upset on Nookazon just because of late replies or honest mistakes made during trade; it's just a game, people. Sometimes real life interferes and people get late; sometimes people are clumsy like me and accidentally makes mistakes. Giving a 1 star rating just because of these reasons isn't a good attitude. It's. Just. A. Game.
Beanz
Sophisticated Hi-C drinker
im so mad because my history class can’t ever shut up. today the teacher (same one i ranted about yesterday) decided to do a group white board outline where everyone is split into groups and we have to take little snippets from the text book opposed to making everyone do the whole outline themselves. i was doing my part until the teacher yells at the class and says that we aren’t doing this anymore because nobody can be quiet. she wiped everything away, now i need to do the entire outline myself plus I have to finish the other outline from yesterday. my class keeps complaining about how our teacher is mean and how gives too much homework. to be fair, she does give a lot of homework but maybe if you guys can SHUT THE F UP then maybe we can get less homework because we completed it in class. apparently, this is only a problem with my class, but i also think the teacher’s a little bit too hard on everyone because instead of wiping everything away, she could just have given the misbehaving people detention or send them to the office because just wiping information away makes other people’s lives much harder. why did i have to be put into a class with a bunch of ****ing idiots. majority of the people who go to my whole school are idiots, i say this because there’s always some sort of incident involving students every week.
im not even that mad that i have to the outline myself, what makes it 10x worse for me is that she always requires that we write it on PAPER in our notebooks. i have no idea why because we have computers and i feel cramped and irritated when writing in a notebook.
im not even that mad that i have to the outline myself, what makes it 10x worse for me is that she always requires that we write it on PAPER in our notebooks. i have no idea why because we have computers and i feel cramped and irritated when writing in a notebook.
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ForeverALoan
Memelord ❕
Remember that one time i mentioned my undiagnosed heart condition? Well today I woke up with a dark pink face, short of breath, dizzy, and with a tightness in my chest. Like the idiot I am I ignored it and tried to go for a run and almost immediately began gasping for breath and my chest pain intensified by 10x. I spent an hour curled in a ball, gasping for air, and it felt like an elephant had just stomped on my heart. I was very nauseous, my head was pounding, and every time I tried to stand the room started spinning and I almost immediately fell back down onto the bench I was on. That happened several times before I gave up and decided to stay curled up into a ball. I couldn't stop crying and I'm not usually one to worry about myself, but I was terrified and I think this is the most scared I have ever been for myself (health-wise. I have dealt with abuse so not really the most scared I've been). I almost called 911 but I was worried about an ambulances ability to get to me and I didn't want to inconvenience anyone. Now I feel like I probably should have called.
Ever since, my chest has had a light tightness on and off, my head still hurts, I'm slightly nauseous still, and I am EXTREMELY tired. I took a nap a bit ago he rubbed my hair and my back for me while I went to sleep <3 But of course I am back to being extremely tired. Several people have asked me if I'm alright because my face is still dark pink on my nose and cheeks. It hasn't gone away and I have no idea why.
After research, I realized that both the situation itself and the way I am still feeling afterwards is all consistent with a mild to severe heart attack. I don't know if it was a silent one or not but I'm pretty sure it was a heart attack nonetheless.
I am now giving in because this is really severe and I am going to go see a cardiologist. They can take scans that will show any past heart attacks, so I guess I'll finally be diagnosed. Idk. After this morning I'm just surprised I'm still here.
Ever since, my chest has had a light tightness on and off, my head still hurts, I'm slightly nauseous still, and I am EXTREMELY tired. I took a nap a bit ago he rubbed my hair and my back for me while I went to sleep <3 But of course I am back to being extremely tired. Several people have asked me if I'm alright because my face is still dark pink on my nose and cheeks. It hasn't gone away and I have no idea why.
After research, I realized that both the situation itself and the way I am still feeling afterwards is all consistent with a mild to severe heart attack. I don't know if it was a silent one or not but I'm pretty sure it was a heart attack nonetheless.
I am now giving in because this is really severe and I am going to go see a cardiologist. They can take scans that will show any past heart attacks, so I guess I'll finally be diagnosed. Idk. After this morning I'm just surprised I'm still here.
Not much is really bothering me today. It is hard to be patient though. I have to wait to work on other parts of this project of mine when the epoxy is setting and drying. Usually can only do one spot a day and do the next the following day. But dang I just want to do it all right now lol. I don't like all this waiting.
I used to get someone stealing from my side business. Don't want to get into too much detail but they would leave a dollar and a F-you note all the time. So I set up cameras to catch them since it happened so much and scared them straight. Jerk had a corvette and everything. Hate people like that. Acted all mighty until she was on the spot and almost peed herself. I got the $500 she stole from me though and never saw her again.
@moo_nieu Sorry about what you are going through. I think it's taking a lot of time to resolve things with the different businesses due to covid and most places being understaffed now. I had to help one of my family members get things settled for when they retired and some stuff still isn't processed despite numerous meetings and phonecalls. I legit had someone on the phone who I spent an hour an half to get things settled and they still screwed up their address and everything. How it managed to get to them via mail is beyond me. So that hour and half is wasted. I have to call them again just to get that all settled. It's literally because they can't find the people to do that job anymore and probably are just throwing whoever in to fill the vacant spot.
Still what you are going through sucks. I don't really know the entire situation, but could like maybe some kind of dehumidifier/fan combo help out in anyway? Or keeping some of the windows open to help get some fresh air in? You probably already tried that. But I figured I would suggest it regardless. It really is annoying when things just seem to be taking two steps back and not forward. I feel that with helping this family member retire lol. They're going to be without any means of income for months after retirement because they're so understaffed and so far behind.
I do hope things lessen! If you need someone to listen, you can always PM me.
Not that it is much consolation, but I am sure what they stole is not going to break the store. Thieves suck though. Like I get it if you need to steal food or something essential, but most people just do it because they think they can get away with it.
I used to get someone stealing from my side business. Don't want to get into too much detail but they would leave a dollar and a F-you note all the time. So I set up cameras to catch them since it happened so much and scared them straight. Jerk had a corvette and everything. Hate people like that. Acted all mighty until she was on the spot and almost peed herself. I got the $500 she stole from me though and never saw her again.
@moo_nieu Sorry about what you are going through. I think it's taking a lot of time to resolve things with the different businesses due to covid and most places being understaffed now. I had to help one of my family members get things settled for when they retired and some stuff still isn't processed despite numerous meetings and phonecalls. I legit had someone on the phone who I spent an hour an half to get things settled and they still screwed up their address and everything. How it managed to get to them via mail is beyond me. So that hour and half is wasted. I have to call them again just to get that all settled. It's literally because they can't find the people to do that job anymore and probably are just throwing whoever in to fill the vacant spot.
Still what you are going through sucks. I don't really know the entire situation, but could like maybe some kind of dehumidifier/fan combo help out in anyway? Or keeping some of the windows open to help get some fresh air in? You probably already tried that. But I figured I would suggest it regardless. It really is annoying when things just seem to be taking two steps back and not forward. I feel that with helping this family member retire lol. They're going to be without any means of income for months after retirement because they're so understaffed and so far behind.
I do hope things lessen! If you need someone to listen, you can always PM me.
