What's Bothering You?
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DarkDesertFox
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Going through a bad depression phase. The person I love might end up with someone else and even though I have hope things might work out between us, I feel like I may have waited too long figuring things out. I won't know for awhile if things will work out or not which is the hardest part. I have to drive to the building tomorrow and Wednesday which is going to be awful when I'm feeling this down. I just feel sick to my stomach about the whole thing and my heart is heavy. I have to pray every day that things will work out.
Sorry you've been having to deal with these guys. My work is 90% men also so I know the feeling. Unfortunately you're paving the way for the next generation of females to be more comfortable in male dominated jobs. I use the word "unfortunately" cause men really should learn to keep their sexist thoughts to themself. Some guys at my work still believe women/femmes shouldn't be a longshoreman. I guess we will just have to keep taking up space until we force them to accept us! Honestly don't be afraid to be rude back if someone else starts it. I'm wishing you the best in the future mate!
Dunquixote
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My phone did not charge at all again last night.
i have so much homework, most of it is from world history class. i have to finish an outline and then finish my 30 definitions, at least the outline and definitions aren’t technically due until thursday but i don’t want to wait until the last minute. my teacher is trying to drown me with homework and here i am procrastinating.
My throat hurts from allergies and the guy I look after for work is in a bad mood today snapping at his wife for asking questions saying she doesn’t listen. Dude could you start fights when I leave because I don’t want to listen to it. Also when I was doing laundry I found a few of her shirts in the laundry basket still folded up. I fold their laundry for them and all I ask is that they put them away and my guy does it, but she didn’t.
Orius
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God, I hate those. I always get tempted to bite my sores.
apparently the health department cant do anything about the pee odor even though its been negatively affecting our health. im confused why bc it should fall under substances, contaminants, materials, or environmental conditions harmful to human health. i have plenty of credible documentation to prove how inhaling ammonia is harmful to human health. i just feel hopeless. they arent even sure who to refer me to. we cant afford to go legal. they did find moisture in one of the water damaged areas and i showed the video of the small leak we found in the door frame when it rained, so thats going to be reported to the landlord and she will have to fix it, but shes already said shes not going to fix the pee problem so idk what to do. i feel so hopeless. my nose is stinging and i frequently find blood on the tissue when i use it, my eyes are irritated, and my skin is itchy. ive suffered extreme stress on top of all of it. all of this and i will likely have to go 5 more months in these conditions. how can there be no help. permanent lung damage is associated with long term ammonia inhalation so who knows how much worse off my body with be in 5 months. who knows maybe my immune system will be so compromised that i will contract and die of covid. all of this and not even the health department can help? it makes no sense. i feel so hopeless and am just trying my best not to keep crying. its all my fault too bc i wanted to find an apartment to move into and not into my partners moms house while we looked for one. its all my fault and i have no way to fix it and were suffering. even the dog has been sneezing some lately. i have no appetite due to the air inside and i feel so lightheaded from not eating and with all of the crying. im a mess. my partner is not happy with me and hes right everything ive done to try and fix this has made it all worse. its my fault were here and not at his moms house like he wanted. its my fault our landlord now doesnt like us because i didnt let the pee go. its all my fault and my nose stings. i cant handle all of this stress. i feel like dirt thats been rubbed into concrete and is now permanently stuck and spread out in tiny particles across said concrete. my head hurts. i know i need to eat something but im not hungry. even being outside in the beautiful weather doesnt help. maybe ill just go for another walk anyways. i dont do anything here but cause more problems anyway
Dunquixote
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Sorry friend. Just wanted to tell you I’m here for you if you need me. Please don’t say that about yourself. I don’t know what happened aside from what you put here but I believe you did nothing wrong and you did not cause more problems.
Hang in there 
. I hope things get better soon.Probably a stupid question, but can you get a drs note? Or see if you can get a free consultation with a lawyer for advice?
I’m going to need a bigger tote. Oh what have I done? Also going to be fun vacuuming this out of my car.
Orius
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Okay, so clearly, Nookazon has its problems. Not 30 minutes in, and I'm already having frustrations - not with the users though, but the interface. It's a bit awkward sometimes to ensure trades go smoothly when the opposite party don't respond for 10 mins, and you still have 5 more offers backing up the line, triggering my anxiety. lmao
Sigh. This site is stressful.
Sigh. This site is stressful.
unfortunately it is my fault. if i had agreed to stay at his moms then we could have inspected apartments in person and this probably wouldnt have happened. his mom has a beautiful ranch only 5 hours away, but i didnt want to waste time on finding a job and apartment while i could run out of money (she is a 30 min drive from town so online work would have been my only option) and i pushed for us to find our own place instead. if i had just agreed then everything would have been okay. now ive wasted a month of our time and stressed us both out and our health is at risk now too.Sorry friend. Just wanted to tell you I’m here for you if you need me. Please don’t say that about yourself. I don’t know what happened aside from what you put here but I believe you did nothing wrong and you did not cause more problems.
yeah im guessing a free consultation is my only next option, but im feeling hopeless. it seems like everything ive done has only made everything worse so im not super keen on doing anything anymore. i feel pretty beaten down and hopeless. if the lawyer took the case we wouldnt be able to afford it. if we lost, we would be ruined. weve already used up so much savings just getting here
Sick of pretending I’m happy and doing well. I’ve been emotionally drained for the past week+ and it’s really starting to wear on me. No one gives a **** about my feelings or what I’m going through. I DESERVE a better job based on my work ethic, degree, and everything else, yet I’m stuck working two crappy jobs all day long every day. Not to mention whenever I do get home then my family, or what’s left of it, is there to make my life even worse.
It’s funny and sad because my life wasn’t always like this. I used to be a positive person who enjoyed life. But as more and more negative things keep happening and people don’t seem to give a ****, I’m beginning to find out just how ugly the world is.
It’s funny and sad because my life wasn’t always like this. I used to be a positive person who enjoyed life. But as more and more negative things keep happening and people don’t seem to give a ****, I’m beginning to find out just how ugly the world is.
I cannot tell you how much I resonate with this; I've been very disgruntled and disappointed lately for much the same reasons as yours. Trying to find a good, fulfilling job that makes us feel valued is something that I think many if not most people struggle with (unfortunately...). At the very least, it seems our situation is quite similar in that regard. I was in a particularly bad headspace yesterday, too. Yet, I somehow managed to feel a little better after doing some self-reflection and taking some time to find my bearings.
I'm not sure how much this will help, but it's good that you know your own worth, because those who don't acknowledge that worth simply aren't worth it. I know it's incredibly difficult to carry on when it seems as though everything and everyone is against you (even though that isn't true). But at the end of the day, we just have to be willing to change the narrative within our minds, or else we will only continue to find proof that the world really is an ugly place. People seem like they may not care, but I think that deep down everyone thinks that way, especially during this whole period. People have certainly and noticeably become more hesitant and closed-off in one way or another, so it's easy to think that everyone is just for themselves.
So, for the sake of my own mental and emotional health, I've made the decision to not take these things personally, and to just see them as a byproduct of complex factors in people's lives––factors that I personally have no control over. All I can do is put my best foot/aim forward relative to what I want, instead of expecting things of people who just don't have the capacity to understand because of where they're at right now. On top of that, I'm choosing to be "the better person/the change I wish to see/the antidote" in all of this––not because I want to prove anything to anyone, but because I genuinely believe that's the best approach for me right now, as it makes me feel all the more empowered in my actions instead of defeated.
I'm really sorry if this got too long and preachy... I just felt like sharing some of what's personally helped me with my emotions and mindset. (And I deeply apologize if it just comes off as unsolicited advice...) By all means, do whatever works for you! Take all the time you need to process your feelings before deciding what you need to do. There is no right or wrong; there is only choice. (That is, what is right or wrong for you personally).
I sincerely wish you well, and hope that things take a turn for the better (whatever that may look like, even if it's not what you expect).
And know that I'm someone who does care, even if we barely ever talk. I'm always supporting people on here in spirit, even if I don't post/reply all the time. If not me, there are a lot more people who care than you think. You don't have to reach out if you don't want to, but I'm here to at least listen. Take care of yourself, Riley. ❤
I'm not sure how much this will help, but it's good that you know your own worth, because those who don't acknowledge that worth simply aren't worth it. I know it's incredibly difficult to carry on when it seems as though everything and everyone is against you (even though that isn't true). But at the end of the day, we just have to be willing to change the narrative within our minds, or else we will only continue to find proof that the world really is an ugly place. People seem like they may not care, but I think that deep down everyone thinks that way, especially during this whole period. People have certainly and noticeably become more hesitant and closed-off in one way or another, so it's easy to think that everyone is just for themselves.
So, for the sake of my own mental and emotional health, I've made the decision to not take these things personally, and to just see them as a byproduct of complex factors in people's lives––factors that I personally have no control over. All I can do is put my best foot/aim forward relative to what I want, instead of expecting things of people who just don't have the capacity to understand because of where they're at right now. On top of that, I'm choosing to be "the better person/the change I wish to see/the antidote" in all of this––not because I want to prove anything to anyone, but because I genuinely believe that's the best approach for me right now, as it makes me feel all the more empowered in my actions instead of defeated.
I'm really sorry if this got too long and preachy... I just felt like sharing some of what's personally helped me with my emotions and mindset. (And I deeply apologize if it just comes off as unsolicited advice...) By all means, do whatever works for you! Take all the time you need to process your feelings before deciding what you need to do. There is no right or wrong; there is only choice. (That is, what is right or wrong for you personally).
I sincerely wish you well, and hope that things take a turn for the better (whatever that may look like, even if it's not what you expect).
And know that I'm someone who does care, even if we barely ever talk. I'm always supporting people on here in spirit, even if I don't post/reply all the time. If not me, there are a lot more people who care than you think. You don't have to reach out if you don't want to, but I'm here to at least listen. Take care of yourself, Riley. ❤
VanitasFan26
I'm just a ghost.
I relate to this so much. I sometimes wonder if things will ever get better or when try so hard to ignore all the bad stuff around you it just doesn't seem to get any better and it just makes it worse. I also hate it how I have to be "forced" positive about everything when you know things is just not good right now. If I have to hear anyone ask me "How are you doing" Its going to make me lose my mind. I mean seriously what else is there left to say at this point?
I'm going through a mild crisis because my life is really becoming a joke. First my Treadmill that I use for my exercise breaks down, then the car got damaged, because my careless parents didn't even bother to look where they were going, and I had a new liver doctor telling me how "No matter how healthy you are, you're always going to have problems down the road even if it means eating well and exercising" so you mean to tell me all that hard daily exercise was all for nothing? Ugh.....I really feel like the world is against me no matter how hard I try to be "happy" or "positive".
I really do get how you feel and I do get your pain. Back in my day I used to be a positive person myself, but until when things got more negative around me its just something that is making me hate the world even more because how society lacks commons sense and how everything you try to do seems to not work all the time. Even the friends who I made suddenly left me or the ones who used to talk to me ghosted me as if I am not a much "better' friend to them. Sorry if I'm rambling or ranting, but I just need to express this because I've been going through a lot of mixed emotions lately.
Thank you both for your kind words. My anger was already starting to subside, and you helped get rid of the last of it. I’ll save your messages as notes in case I ever need to look back at them when I’m feeling this way again. I really appreciate it.
