What's Bothering You?

Whelp I’m switching over to community college. The classes at the four year university have just been too difficult. The mental health crisis and stomach flu I’ve had also made me considerably behind too. On top of that I gained 8 pounds from being too tired to exercise. I hate putting off my education for another 3 months, but this is just too much right now.
 
my sister is showing signs of covid, me thinks... i'm hoping it's just a cold bcus my entire family is double vaccinated but im still kinda anxious tbh.
 
still can’t believe my cat is gone. i miss her so much. i know if we let things go on, she would just suffer which I don’t want. I still can’t help thinking what if my parents had took her in sooner. 💔

I’m happy we’re looking at kittens this week; my mom already picked one out, but at the same time I am afraid this is being disrespectful to my late kitty. We aren’t replacing her, but yet I feel like this is not right even if my mom is thinking of me and how I need to be with cats (and in preparation in the event my remaining cat falls ill as fast as my late kitty did). I am torn.


minor: i’m sad i missed the only chance to pre order the new amiibo cards. really bothered they are already out of stock. i haven’t had any luck trading for the rest of the rv cards. I hope to find someone that will trade me the new series cards if I can’t manage to get any pack. i still want the rvs too :/
 
:( i’m so sorry, dun. i know how painful the “what ifs” are in situations like this as i have the same thoughts about my own kitty, but you truly did the best that you could. you gave that sweet lil angel a long, happy life, and you did good by not letting her suffer any longer. you’re an amazing cat mom, even though it doesn’t feel that way right now.

your feelings are completely normal and valid, but your kitty loved you so, so much and would want to see you happy. she knows that you still have so much love left in you to give, and i think she’d want you to give a home and a loving family to a kitten who needs it, just like you did for her. it is entirely up to you, though; do whatever will help you begin to heal at your own pace. if you’re not ready for a new cat, that’s perfectly okay. and if you are, then that’s perfectly okay, too. your kitty and everyone who loves you just wants you to be happy, and we’ll stand by you regardless of what decision you make. 💙

and as for the amiibo cards, if i happen to get any duplicates, consider them yours. <3
 
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been feeling (physically) god awful all day today. I'm really tired and constantly exhausted and I feel like someone punched me in my lower abdomen. I've basically been sleeping all day curled up in a heated blanket, that's pretty much all I can do.

also been falling behind in my Inktober drawing list cause I don't feel well, it sucks bc I really want to draw but I literally have no energy for it at all right now 😞
 
Sorry to hear your cat passed away Dun, I know how much she meant to you ❤

Thanks Oak. I appreciate it 💜.

:( i’m so sorry, dun. i know how painful the “what ifs” are in situations like this as i have the same thoughts about my own kitty, but you truly did the best that you could. you gave that sweet lil angel a long, happy life, and you did good by not letting her suffer any longer. you’re an amazing cat mom, even though it doesn’t feel that way right now.

your feelings are completely normal and valid, but your kitty loved you so, so much and would want to see you happy. she knows that you still have so much love left in you to give, and i think she’d want you to give a home and a loving family to a kitten who needs it, just like you did for her. it is entirely up to you, though; do whatever will help you begin to heal at your own pace. if you’re not ready for a new cat, that’s perfectly okay. and if you are, then that’s perfectly okay, too. your kitty and everyone who loves you just wants you to be happy, and we’ll stand by you regardless of what decision you make. 💙

and as for the amiibo cards, if i happen to get any duplicates, consider them yours. <3

Thanks so much Xara. 💜 You’re right; i just feel like I could’ve been way better.

As for the amiibo cards, those are yours for you to do with what you want. I am sorry; I did not mean to make you feel bad. But if you insist, at least allow me to trade you something in return in the event you get dupes. But again no pressure. Just venting here about it since it boggles me why Nintendo wouldn’t want more profit by having enough in stock for everyone.


Thanks everyone. I really appreciate everything everyone has said so far. I don’t mean to make anyone feel bad. Just having difficulty accepting that she is gone and need to lament/grieve; no response is ever needed but tysm for thise who have responded. 💜 I appreciate it tremendously.
 
Some thoughts that I really shouldn’t be having because they’re just about impossible, yet my good ol’ brain is trying to convince me otherwise
 
Some feelings are crowding my mind again. Why does it always happen around this time? And the worst part is, they’re not bothering me… I feel amazing. I can’t explain it.
 
I've been contemplating life a lot lately and I just have no idea what I want anymore.

There's so much drama at work. People are pissed off at each other. Some people are just not doing their job. It just makes me wanna scream.

We broke someone's sewer connection on the project we're doing, just to add further to the complications of the project.

I can't get an appointment to see a clinical psychologist as they're all overwhelmed with patients. That's typical with our shocking access to healthcare where I live. I should've inquired about it when I was in my hometown, where I would've had much better access to healthcare.

It sucks because I'm pretty sure the symptoms of ASD are there and always have been. My mum had me convinced that I was "normal" as a child, and had probably convinced herself as well. But I always felt there was something off, and I still do feel like there's something else there other than anxiety.
 
Talking about my own infraction is fine in this thread, huh? Well, guess I'll still have to save those choice words for myself, amirite bucko? Because yeah, the infraction has certainly bothered me a lot. Talk about an infringement of the first amendment, but whatever.

Anyway, the whole thing has pretty much ruined my day. Everytime I look at my profile now (at least until it expires), I'll forever remember what I've done for the forum, and what the forum has done for me in return. Thanks a lot, guys.

Might just cancel the Halloween event if this gets bad enough. I'm not really in the mood anymore.
 

Sorry to hear that :/. Idk what happened, but I can sympathize. I would say not to dwell on it since it is so easy to get an infraction or warning, but, it stings too when I’ve got one. Was considering leaving a few times because I got so upset.One was a dumb mistake on my part; I didn’t pay attention to when I last bumped my thread. And the other I forgot there was a rule. I hope you have a better day tomorrow. My dms are open if you want to talk more about it; no pressure though.
 
Talking about my own infraction is fine in this thread, huh? Well, guess I'll still have to save those choice words for myself, amirite bucko? Because yeah, the infraction has certainly bothered me a lot. Talk about an infringement of the first amendment, but whatever.

Anyway, the whole thing has pretty much ruined my day. Everytime I look at my profile now (at least until it expires), I'll forever remember what I've done for the forum, and what the forum has done for me in return. Thanks a lot, guys.

Might just cancel the Halloween event if this gets bad enough. I'm not really in the mood anymore.
I can relate.. My last infraction was for informing someone they were posting in the wrong section, apparently that's not allowed 🥴 Anyway, try not to let it bother you too much; personally I try to see it as a positive in that at least the mods really care about the forums and try their best to make it a quality place, rather than a forum that goes completely unchecked, y'know? They can be strict but I think it's ultimately a good thing. If only they would make the infractions not appear after they've expired.
 
They can be strict but I think it's ultimately a good thing. If only they would make the infractions not appear after they've expired.
I think recent years have been better but they should still be more clear and proper on some stuff tbh. But yeah I think most people know what they did so I agree you shouldn't have to look at 10 pages every time you view your profile lo.
 
Not enough sleep at all

Last night our toilet got clogged and overflowed, at 12:30 at night 😑 my bf and I were getting ready for bed at the time.
We had to scramble to get towels to soak up all the water, then clean everything because it was gross obviously. Got everything done by 2am, but then I couldn't sleep from all the stress. Ultimately I think I got about 4 hours maybe? I feel awful and mildly traumatised by the whole incident.
 
Feeling sick and stressed which is hard to manage while at college and away from home. I miss my family and dog lots and I don't get to see them until Thanksgiving break. The only thing that has made me feel a bit better was watching the ACNH update so I am holding onto that feeling with all my strength
 
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