Dwayne Johnson
Speaker | Change Maker | Visionary | Life Coach
im living in constant discomfort and i ****ing hate it
What's Bothering You?
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daringred_
✧ ghost lesbian ✧
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i swear i'm this close to just ending it. i feel like it's always bad thing after bad thing after bad thing with my life, especially regarding my relationship. i've been trying to meet up with my girlfriend since june. every time we set a date, something goes wrong right beforehand. someone gets sick. someone in her office tests positive. someone else gets sick. it's happened so many times -- maybe 10 -- that i don't even remember all the reasons. this time, she might have COVID. she took a lateral randomly, and it came back positive. normally, i'd just feel disappointed and move on. set another date. but tomorrow (sunday) we were supposed to go to a concert. we've been waiting a year, after it was moved from march due to the pandemic. it's the main reason i haven't offed myself up until this point, and now... we can't go. i know some people are going to call me selfish and say that i should be more concerned about her heath etc. etc. but i just. god, it's one thing after another, and there's other stuff going on, and. i've had enough. i don't know how much more i can take.
i swear i'm this close to just ending it. i feel like it's always bad thing after bad thing after bad thing with my life, especially regarding my relationship. i've been trying to meet up with my girlfriend since june. every time we set a date, something goes wrong right beforehand. someone gets sick. someone in her office tests positive. someone else gets sick. it's happened so many times -- maybe 10 -- that i don't even remember all the reasons. this time, she might have COVID. she took a lateral randomly, and it came back positive. normally, i'd just feel disappointed and move on. set another date. but tomorrow (sunday) we were supposed to go to a concert. we've been waiting a year, after it was moved from march due to the pandemic. it's the main reason i haven't offed myself up until this point, and now... we can't go. i know some people are going to call me selfish and say that i should be more concerned about her heath etc. etc. but i just. god, it's one thing after another, and there's other stuff going on, and. i've had enough. i don't know how much more i can take.
First of all, I’m sorry you’re going through that. Do you know if any of what she’s telling you is actually true? Not to sound close minded or anything but sometimes these are the excuses that come up to avoid having to meet up, and not because they don’t want to see you but because they aren’t who they say. If it’s one thing after another I would begin to question it. And you don’t sound selfish or anything, and that’s the impact these excuses can have. They’re set up to make you feel bad. Since the relationship seems to be online, have you ever video called with her? I don’t know, it doesn’t seem to be adding up with all these excuses… and these are convenient excuses considering the times right now. And not having time, I’m sorry that’s not an excuse. We all got time and we can make time for someone we supposedly care about.
daringred_
✧ ghost lesbian ✧
i've met her before, so i know she's real. we've been dating three years next month. i just don't know what to think anymore. she says she's not lying, but my whole family thinks she's stringing me along. i just don't know anymore. she sent me a picture of the test results, but i've never seen a lateral test before or had one, so i don't even know what a positive result looks like, and an hour ago she suddenly realized she couldn't smell which seemed convenient, so i just. i don't know anymore. i feel like i'm going insane. like i'm in a simulation or being pranked to see how much i'll endure before i break.
DinosaurDumpster
You're watching Disney Channel
somethings wrong with my mental health and i dont even know what it is anymore. had the worst day and worst and longest panic attack ive ever experienced yesterday and i cant shake this feeling off.
Dunquixote
No dms and discord messages
still dealing with depression and low energy. i should feel better later considering i did yesterday.
pulled some more on banner in a game and still didn’t get the unit I wanted :/.
pulled some more on banner in a game and still didn’t get the unit I wanted :/.
KittenNoir
🖤 Senior Member 🖤
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Foreverfox
✨💖glow & shine💖✨
I'm so sorry to hear this, that is always the worst.
I'm here if you need to talk to someone ❤
KittenNoir
🖤 Senior Member 🖤
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Foreverfox
✨💖glow & shine💖✨
At least they're back together ❤ (that's what the "love" is for)
Firesquids
☆ Roxie of Avalar ☆
My heart goes out to you. Lost my 16 year old kitty Keiko over two years ago and I still think about her every single day.
They'll live on in your memories forever. ❤
i’m so, so sorry to hear this. may they rest in peace.
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KittenNoir
🖤 Senior Member 🖤
Thank you. I am so sorry for your loss as well ❤ They become your best friend they see you grow up
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Thank you @xara ❤i’m so, so sorry to hear this. may they rest in peace.
Reginald Fairfield
Senior Member
Why do they think we need the exp share on all the time?
Today I Learned that I am getting paid under minimum wage at my job, but there are some legal BS loopholes that can prevent me from gettin min wage.
However that won't hold up till next year. Next year when min wage goes up, tips will not be able to cover what they 'owe' me, and they prob won't have enough money to pay 11$/hr. So I gotta look for a new job. Which really sucks cause I actually like this job. The pay is Not Great and not livable but my mental health is not in the bottom of the barrel and O actually get consistent hours, 32-40 every week. It was the opposite for my old job. But I have been thinking of getting a new job since my current job won't give me opportunities to expand, despite me saying I want to learn more. Opportunities to learn new things are constantly being given to others. In fact! Even today one coworker was teaching a NEWBIE, her first day, finishing stuff, like, hello I'm right here?? It took me months before I was taught that stuff.
I keep being told I need to get better even thou I have in some aspects. I'll have a brief chat with the one coworker but I'm sure she'll say the same thing, putting me back at square one. I've worked here for almost a year now, I consider Halloween to be my anniversary, and I'm still blow drying dogs and cleaning up poop. We're short staffed and I get the feeling they aren't looking hard enough for a new back worker since it isn't directly affecting them.
I did talk to my boss about raising my pay to min wage, ans she said she would, but I got the impression she wasn't happy that she had to. She didn't tell me tips are compensating for what I'm not gettin in min wage. Also, I'm not a tipped worker. The tips I get come from a pool, I never get directly tipped, no one does at work. My tips also get taxed since they go into my paycheck.
This isn't the first time they've messed with my pay. In the beginning of September I was supposed to get a raise. For two weeks it wasn't put in. When I talked to the person who does payroll, she said she forgot to put it in and it would be in next week. It was, but I was never compensated for those 2 weeks of not having my raise.
So yeah, I gotta look for a new job so I can actually get paid what I'm supposed to.
However that won't hold up till next year. Next year when min wage goes up, tips will not be able to cover what they 'owe' me, and they prob won't have enough money to pay 11$/hr. So I gotta look for a new job. Which really sucks cause I actually like this job. The pay is Not Great and not livable but my mental health is not in the bottom of the barrel and O actually get consistent hours, 32-40 every week. It was the opposite for my old job. But I have been thinking of getting a new job since my current job won't give me opportunities to expand, despite me saying I want to learn more. Opportunities to learn new things are constantly being given to others. In fact! Even today one coworker was teaching a NEWBIE, her first day, finishing stuff, like, hello I'm right here?? It took me months before I was taught that stuff.
I keep being told I need to get better even thou I have in some aspects. I'll have a brief chat with the one coworker but I'm sure she'll say the same thing, putting me back at square one. I've worked here for almost a year now, I consider Halloween to be my anniversary, and I'm still blow drying dogs and cleaning up poop. We're short staffed and I get the feeling they aren't looking hard enough for a new back worker since it isn't directly affecting them.
I did talk to my boss about raising my pay to min wage, ans she said she would, but I got the impression she wasn't happy that she had to. She didn't tell me tips are compensating for what I'm not gettin in min wage. Also, I'm not a tipped worker. The tips I get come from a pool, I never get directly tipped, no one does at work. My tips also get taxed since they go into my paycheck.
This isn't the first time they've messed with my pay. In the beginning of September I was supposed to get a raise. For two weeks it wasn't put in. When I talked to the person who does payroll, she said she forgot to put it in and it would be in next week. It was, but I was never compensated for those 2 weeks of not having my raise.
So yeah, I gotta look for a new job so I can actually get paid what I'm supposed to.
Our place only has one parking space and some lady who visits a house like three doors down from us keeps taking it even though there's plenty of space at the house she's actually visiting to park her car ***** I swear to god
