What's Bothering You?

my gray kitty was brought to the vet and she has anywhere from 2 weeks to 6 months to live. she had double kidney failure 💔. my poor baby. i am so sad. I don’t want to lose her. no infection this time and her heart is fine; she did lose some weight though
Sorry about your kitty! I wasn’t online at all yesterday so I must have missed this. My very first dog (a beagle) actually died of what I believed to be cancer. I was really young at the time and my dog didn’t get the medical treatment, but she did have a tumor on her tail. She only lived about 7 years which is very short for a lifespan of a beagle, I imagine you’re hurting and I’m sorry you’re going through this. Enjoy as much of your time with her as you can. Animals are wonderful being.
 
My stupid chest pains havent gotten any better. Every day theres always a mildly intense one. Nothing like the life-threatening one where I should have gone to the ER but they ****ing hurt so bad. I need my cardiologist appointment to come sooner please I need them to fix me before something more serious happens.. Again..
 
I got bit pretty hard because I wouldn’t share my applesauce with Sora. I’ve never shared my applesauce with her idk why she assumes she can have it. Also I had a hard time waking up today, I don’t think I slept well at all last night.
 
I just want this day to be over with uuuuuuaaaagh. Work sucked today and I had to wait an hour before I could even get home. It's almost 5 o'clock and I'm just now able to relax.

I have like no mental energy to make myself be productive. I just to eat a tasty dinner (which I doubt will happen today), eat some cookie cake I got (which I atleast have that to look forward to) and take a 12 hour nap.

I am very happy about what we got in the Direct today but I am just kinda tired today. I'm also hungry, I barely had lunch and I think I need some sugar my hands are shaking a bit and my legs feel weak.
 

thanks so much 💜. i’m so sorry about your first dog 🥺💜; sorry seriously isn’t enough :/. That breaks my heart hearing that 💔. i definitely will try to enjoy the time i have left with her.

Extremely depressed.

I just watched the nintendo direct for AC and I liked what i saw but my heart still feels heavy. Also, extreme anxiety about the scalpers and the amiibo cards. Also hate not having money or a job. Been unemployed for more than three years I think and no one still wants to hire me :/. Also so scared about so much including leaving the house. I’m trying not to give up hope things are ever going to be better and that I won’t be dependent on my family but it is so tough…

my mom wants me to start working on my christmas list soon but again, just can’t think about it. christmas depressed me since i can’t get anyone gifts myself :/.

still need to get frames for my prints but again i put it off because just can’t think of anything but my cat right now.

Haven’t been able to draw since I drew for Goomy’s contest and haven’t been able to play any games for quite some time aside from my gacha games. I want to be excited and play ac when the update comes (preferably before so i can get the new halloween recipes), but i just have no energy/motivation still and now depression :/. No need to reply. not posting for pity. just need to clear my head and mood somehow.
 
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i swear i'm this close to just ending it. i feel like it's always bad thing after bad thing after bad thing with my life, especially regarding my relationship. i've been trying to meet up with my girlfriend since june. every time we set a date, something goes wrong right beforehand. someone gets sick. someone in her office tests positive. someone else gets sick. it's happened so many times -- maybe 10 -- that i don't even remember all the reasons. this time, she might have COVID. she took a lateral randomly, and it came back positive. normally, i'd just feel disappointed and move on. set another date. but tomorrow (sunday) we were supposed to go to a concert. we've been waiting a year, after it was moved from march due to the pandemic. it's the main reason i haven't offed myself up until this point, and now... we can't go. i know some people are going to call me selfish and say that i should be more concerned about her heath etc. etc. but i just. god, it's one thing after another, and there's other stuff going on, and. i've had enough. i don't know how much more i can take.
 
First of all, I’m sorry you’re going through that. Do you know if any of what she’s telling you is actually true? Not to sound close minded or anything but sometimes these are the excuses that come up to avoid having to meet up, and not because they don’t want to see you but because they aren’t who they say. If it’s one thing after another I would begin to question it. And you don’t sound selfish or anything, and that’s the impact these excuses can have. They’re set up to make you feel bad. Since the relationship seems to be online, have you ever video called with her? I don’t know, it doesn’t seem to be adding up with all these excuses… and these are convenient excuses considering the times right now. And not having time, I’m sorry that’s not an excuse. We all got time and we can make time for someone we supposedly care about.
 
First of all, I’m sorry you’re going through that. Do you know if any of what she’s telling you is actually true? Not to sound close minded or anything but sometimes these are the excuses that come up to avoid having to meet up, and not because they don’t want to see you but because they aren’t who they say. If it’s one thing after another I would begin to question it. And you don’t sound selfish or anything, and that’s the impact these excuses can have. They’re set up to make you feel bad. Since the relationship seems to be online, have you ever video called with her? I don’t know, it doesn’t seem to be adding up with all these excuses… and these are convenient excuses considering the times right now. And not having time, I’m sorry that’s not an excuse. We all got time and we can make time for someone we supposedly care about.

i've met her before, so i know she's real. we've been dating three years next month. i just don't know what to think anymore. she says she's not lying, but my whole family thinks she's stringing me along. i just don't know anymore. she sent me a picture of the test results, but i've never seen a lateral test before or had one, so i don't even know what a positive result looks like, and an hour ago she suddenly realized she couldn't smell which seemed convenient, so i just. i don't know anymore. i feel like i'm going insane. like i'm in a simulation or being pranked to see how much i'll endure before i break.
 
Just feeling a little heartbroken, I guess… I keep clenching my chest, but the feeling won’t go away. :[
 
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somethings wrong with my mental health and i dont even know what it is anymore. had the worst day and worst and longest panic attack ive ever experienced yesterday and i cant shake this feeling off.
 
i think panera took my favorite item, the modern caprese, off their menu. I AM LIVID.
 
still dealing with depression and low energy. i should feel better later considering i did yesterday.

pulled some more on banner in a game and still didn’t get the unit I wanted :/.
 
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