What's Bothering You?

Man, I just don't give a crap about anything right now; everything feels like such a chore. I have so much inertia, and I'm not sure what is dragging me down, but I'm not excited or finding joy in anything at the moment. I've been skirting by with just applying the bare minimum for the past week. Even my art and creative endeavors have been kinda lackluster and at a standstill.
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so much going wrong at the moment, i just want to curl up in a ball and go to sleep.

had an argument with my family because i pointed out their double standards with my brother and his girlfriend vs. me and mine. my headphones have randomly started crackling when plugged into my laptop, even when i'm in the tab playing the audio. my phone suddenly stopped charging via the cable after repeatedly trying to open vr mode for no reason? now it'll only usb charge through my laptop or wirelessly, but both methods take an age, and i'm a fidgeter so i need my phone in my hand to stop myself from getting antsy. i'm kind of overdue a new one, but i hate that they've removed physical home buttons from newer phones, so i'm reluctant to get one.
(and also because my current phone is under my granddad's name, so there's this whole needlessly convoluted process to go through to even get me a new one that i just don't have the energy for.)
 
Alright, I gotta admit, I was pretty upset initially about my latest infractions and how my giveaways were shut down, so much so that I just wanted to leave this forum altogether. But I calmed down and then realized that it's my own dumb mistake, and I only have myself to blame in spite of my misguided attempt at charity. At least I don't have to pay for that treasure island anymore.

But more than that, I realized that there were a lot of nice folks out there whom I had fun with, whom supported me, gave me kind words, and I got really depressed at the thought of leaving them behind. I literally felt like crying yesterday for leaving these people I had formed a close bond with over the past few weeks through our dumb, illegitimate shenanigans. Yeah, we did something we weren't supposed to do, and we were wrong for that, but it feels like one of those dumb things you do with your friends and still had fun doing them without really hurting anybody.

So, to @mintycream, to @Mimi Cheems, to the @windloft and the @moonshi out there who shared such kind words with me, your patience and company were much appreciated. In spite of all that happened, I'm glad I got to meet you all in the short time I'm here. I'm sorry all this happened and the Halloween event couldn't happen anymore, and I've certainly felt bad for letting people down after such a huge promise. In spite of what mistakes I've made, please know that all I ever wanted to do was just to have fun with people and share that fun with others. But you know what they say about good intentions.

I'm pretty sure I've missed mentioning some of the names who were literal godsent to me as well during trying times like @kiwi-strawberry and @Spookyrus for all her detailed and satisfying posts that made me feel glad I gave her those villagers.

Oh, and for what it's worth... villagers summoned using my Amiibo cards? They're technically legit since they didn't come from treasure islands. I mean, if you want to really get into it, yeah, they're unofficial cards, so I guess that isn't legit after all. I don't know. Now that I've already bought official cards from eBay, I might open up another thread again in the future using these 100% legitimate villager cards. Hopefully, I won't get into trouble that way. I've already bought Series 1-5, so all the villagers should technically be available. Probably. But I digress.

Anyway, I'm just kinda exhausted now from what's happening. I really appreciate you guys, but man, maybe now's a good time to really take a break for myself.
 
Alright, I gotta admit, I was pretty upset initially about my latest infractions and how my giveaways were shut down, so much so that I just wanted to leave this forum altogether. But I calmed down and then realized that it's my own dumb mistake, and I only have myself to blame in spite of my misguided attempt at charity. At least I don't have to pay for that treasure island anymore.

But more than that, I realized that there were a lot of nice folks out there whom I had fun with, whom supported me, gave me kind words, and I got really depressed at the thought of leaving them behind. I literally felt like crying yesterday for leaving these people I had formed a close bond with over the past few weeks through our dumb, illegitimate shenanigans. Yeah, we did something we weren't supposed to do, and we were wrong for that, but it feels like one of those dumb things you do with your friends and still had fun doing them without really hurting anybody.

So, to @mintycream, to @Mimi Cheems, to the @windloft and the @moonshi out there who shared such kind words with me, your patience and company were much appreciated. In spite of all that happened, I'm glad I got to meet you all in the short time I'm here. I'm sorry all this happened and the Halloween event couldn't happen anymore, and I've certainly felt bad for letting people down after such a huge promise. In spite of what mistakes I've made, please know that all I ever wanted to do was just to have fun with people and share that fun with others. But you know what they say about good intentions.

I'm pretty sure I've missed mentioning some of the names who were literal godsent to me as well during trying times like @kiwi-strawberry and @Spookyrus for all her detailed and satisfying posts that made me feel glad I gave her those villagers.

Oh, and for what it's worth... villagers summoned using my Amiibo cards? They're technically legit since they didn't come from treasure islands. I mean, if you want to really get into it, yeah, they're unofficial cards, so I guess that isn't legit after all. I don't know. Now that I've already bought official cards from eBay, I might open up another thread again in the future using these 100% legitimate villager cards. Hopefully, I won't get into trouble that way. I've already bought Series 1-5, so all the villagers should technically be available. Probably. But I digress.

Anyway, I'm just kinda exhausted now from what's happening. I really appreciate you guys, but man, maybe now's a good time to really take a break for myself.
Hey man. You don't have to apologize at all. You were trying to do a good thing for the community, and I'm sure we all appreciate the thought regardless. You're so generous and kind! I really admire having a good pal like you in my life! Do whatever you need to do to overcome this wave of sadness and anguish (idk if I'm using the correct words LOL), we as your friends are here for you whenever you're ready to return ^^ Mistakes happen, y'know? It's 100% okay that you didn't know. We all make mistakes and accidents will happen to us in our lives! But we can't let that get us down forever! c: You didn't let me down at all! And I'm sure all of us understand. Therefore no apology is needed (for me, anyway)!

Thanks for everything ! I hope to see you around the forums soon c:
 
i'm kind of overdue a new one, but i hate that they've removed physical home buttons from newer phones, so i'm reluctant to get one. (and also because my current phone is under my granddad's name, so there's this whole needlessly convoluted process to go through to even get me a new one that i just don't have the energy for.)
I’m not sure if you prefer Android Vs. Apple, but the new-ish SE 2.0. is like an iPhone 11 but in the shell of an iPhone 8, and it still has a home button. It’s probably 1 1/2 years old now, but I bet you could find a deal on one.

Alright, I gotta admit, I was pretty upset initially about my latest infractions and how my giveaways were shut down, so much so that I just wanted to leave this forum altogether. But I calmed down and then realized that it's my own dumb mistake, and I only have myself to blame in spite of my misguided attempt at charity. At least I don't have to pay for that treasure island anymore.

But more than that, I realized that there were a lot of nice folks out there whom I had fun with, whom supported me, gave me kind words, and I got really depressed at the thought of leaving them behind. I literally felt like crying yesterday for leaving these people I had formed a close bond with over the past few weeks through our dumb, illegitimate shenanigans. Yeah, we did something we weren't supposed to do, and we were wrong for that, but it feels like one of those dumb things you do with your friends and still had fun doing them without really hurting anybody.

So, to @mintycream, to @Mimi Cheems, to the @windloft and the @moonshi out there who shared such kind words with me, your patience and company were much appreciated. In spite of all that happened, I'm glad I got to meet you all in the short time I'm here. I'm sorry all this happened and the Halloween event couldn't happen anymore, and I've certainly felt bad for letting people down after such a huge promise. In spite of what mistakes I've made, please know that all I ever wanted to do was just to have fun with people and share that fun with others. But you know what they say about good intentions.

I'm pretty sure I've missed mentioning some of the names who were literal godsent to me as well during trying times like @kiwi-strawberry and @Spookyrus for all her detailed and satisfying posts that made me feel glad I gave her those villagers.

Oh, and for what it's worth... villagers summoned using my Amiibo cards? They're technically legit since they didn't come from treasure islands. I mean, if you want to really get into it, yeah, they're unofficial cards, so I guess that isn't legit after all. I don't know. Now that I've already bought official cards from eBay, I might open up another thread again in the future using these 100% legitimate villager cards. Hopefully, I won't get into trouble that way. I've already bought Series 1-5, so all the villagers should technically be available. Probably. But I digress.

Anyway, I'm just kinda exhausted now from what's happening. I really appreciate you guys, but man, maybe now's a good time to really take a break for myself.
When I got my first infraction on the forum, I felt exactly like you. I did something without thinking and I felt so guilty that I needed to take a break. Just remember that you were trying to be nice. So many people were touched with your kindness, even if it went against a rule (and no I’m not trying to promote rule breaking). I hope to see you around after your break, you’re a really nice person. 😃
 
I have to make a decision and I’m really not sure what to do. It’s like I’ll be happy and sad or sad and happy. Like idk. This of all things shouldn’t be bothering me but it is.
 
minor worry: worried about the entry that i’m working on for this event.

so impatient to have my kittens in the same room as my other cat; two weeks is going to take forever to come.

still bummed about not being able to go to the convention.
 
I’m bothered that I can’t do all the things I want to do at once. I need a robot army or something lol.
 
how can something be so joyful and upsetting at the same time?

this trip back home has been...a mix of emotions. I'm glad to see family. I'm glad to see friends.

But what I'm not glad about is the trauma it brings back (if you could call it that). My dad's attitude and panic attacks are still there, possibly worse than ever. He can be so childish, so loud, and so unchangeable. He won't listen to anyone to better himself and will never change, yet wonder why people can despise him so much.

Just seeing the shouting and yelling has just brought back so many bad memories, that it finally brought me to tears. Yet if I had shown my dad that I was that upset about it, it would have just thrown him in turmoil even more. He would've screamed and cried about how I have wronged him, how everything has gone wrong for him lately etc.

It wasn't worth telling the truth. So I lied. I came out of my room and told my parents that I was so sad about leaving tomorrow. But it wasn't that at all. I had just realized how much better my life has been not living in fear every time my dad screams about something. It has been so much better not having that stress in my life. Not worrying about the things I say, acting even the tiniest bit different or out of line, things going wrong and having to hide it from him...So so much better.

Yet no matter how much better it has been, I still care about my family. And that's what hurts the most, caring about someone who hasn't always cared about you in the past.
 
not me literally about to cry in this damn store. this is so ****ing embarrassing.
 
Man, I just don't give a crap about anything right now; everything feels like such a chore. I have so much inertia, and I'm not sure what is dragging me down, but I'm not excited or finding joy in anything at the moment. I've been skirting by with just applying the bare minimum for the past week. Even my art and creative endeavors have been kinda lackluster and at a standstill.
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I feel this so much. I want to draw but I’ve been dealing with lack of energy and depression. Sending you good vibes 🍀💜! I’m sorry you’re experiencing this and burn out. Please don’t hesitate to dm me if you need to vent more. Hang in there.💜
 
Just saying, you should _never_ feel obliged or forced to feel good for your family if they're been treating you that bad. Not all families get along and that's one norm society still needs working on getting rid of. Sure it's one thing if someone has to live with them and makes it work, but if it obviously makes you feel bad that way you shouldn't have to think "but i love them" every time.
 
i was looking forward to making grilled cheese w/ gouda on the grill today until i opened up the grill top and i saw a RAT sitting under the grates. these damn rats keep getting into my family’s yard because our backyard faces the back of a restaurant.
 
I’m worried I accidentally messed up on my background check and that my onboarding won’t work out. I really don’t have a reason to think I messed up, though.
 
minor bother: i’m a bit anxious about this next prompt. my mom is not home and idk where some of the required materials for my next event prompt, so I have to wait until she comes home on Thursday to do it.

I’m worried there will be some prompts that i won’t be able to do at all.

Also a little bummed i won’t have enough coins to get the full lineup i want since we only get so many coins. Not a big deal since I understand why; I should’ve figured that out first before trying to come up with some lineups. 😅

Annoyed about the series 5 amiibo cards’ preorders. i think once i’m done with series 5 and the rvs, i’m done buying these even if they release more for the next animal crossing m. Annoyed about something else.

Depressed. started thinking about when two of my cats were put to sleep and when I had to say good bye to the one living with my sister. I wish we could introduce the kittens to my cat soon, though i think she is still mourning my gray one so it is best to give her time. i just really want to kittens to be with me when I go to sleep . :/ I miss my late cats so much.

Also sad because I think I was ghosted and I have no idea what I did wrong. :/
 
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