What's Bothering You?
- Thread starter Oblivia
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I’ve reflected a lot these past several days and I’ve realized some rather unsavory things about myself.
I have never felt empathy. By that I mean the ability to put myself in someone else’s shoes. Unless someone is going through something I’ve experienced I can’t comprehend how they feel. I can recognize people’s feelings on a technical level, but not on an emotional one. This is really distressing. I want to connect with others on an emotional level. It’s just that this one thing holds me back constantly. That leads me to my other realization.
I’ve never had a healthy romantic attachment with someone before. All I’ve ever felt were either crushes or unhealthy obsessions. The latter led me to an abusive relationship. I looked back at my past and realized I rarely witnessed a healthy relationship. As a result I fall into unhealthy infatuations. I can’t help but wonder if the lack of empathy, autism, and childhood trauma are why I struggle to maintain connections.
A therapist would help, but I can’t find any that support my insurance. I really need to hurry. These terrible five years need to end…
I’ve never had a healthy romantic attachment with someone before. All I’ve ever felt were either crushes or unhealthy obsessions. The latter led me to an abusive relationship. I looked back at my past and realized I rarely witnessed a healthy relationship. As a result I fall into unhealthy infatuations. I can’t help but wonder if the lack of empathy, autism, and childhood trauma are why I struggle to maintain connections.
A therapist would help, but I can’t find any that support my insurance. I really need to hurry. These terrible five years need to end…
ali.di.magix
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my friend's Halloween parties are posted all over social media and now I'm sad because I missed out on my best friend's party :c
Orius
The People's Champion
Yeah, that can feel awful depending on how close you are with your friend. I've had my share of feeling left out before, but I would usually pick myself up again by something fun that I would enjoy. I mean, so what if my parents (or anyone else for that matter) no longer celebrate my birthday every year anymore? So what if I don't get invited to cool parties? I actually like the solitude quite a bit, so if people want to leave me out, then all the better for it. I have my own fun activities to do like catching up with TV shows.
Honestly, people are not worth fretting about, especially people who don't care about your happiness.
Dawnpiplup
Kick ass.
Struggling to get outta bed. Sometimes it's the little things that are the hardest.
welp
Dunquixote
Mrrrroooooow! T-Treasure...
Have a dentist appoint coming up as well as a doctor’s. Dreading them both especially the dentist’s. I hate when they touch my face with their gloves after they touched the inside of my mouth. And I hate the polish so much. it makes me want to throw up..
Edit: kinda disappointed that my graveyard design didn’t get selected to vote on or any but at least the reward wasn’t something like a cat collectible. Most important thing is that I had fun and got some of the collectibles that I want. Honestly had some difficulty enjoying myself due to stuff going on with my cats and something else that has been depressing me.
The last few weeks have been really some of the worst weeks honestly even with the event which normally would have cheered me off. I’m feeling a bit frustrated and discouraged :/ my mom spent some money to help me put my creations together since we didn’t have enough to work with to make matters worse.
she needs a christmas list soon and honestly i don’t feel like christmas at all, one because i can’t get anyone’s gifts with my own money since i have none and two cuz one of my cats just died. hard to be happy.
Edit: kinda disappointed that my graveyard design didn’t get selected to vote on or any but at least the reward wasn’t something like a cat collectible. Most important thing is that I had fun and got some of the collectibles that I want. Honestly had some difficulty enjoying myself due to stuff going on with my cats and something else that has been depressing me.
The last few weeks have been really some of the worst weeks honestly even with the event which normally would have cheered me off. I’m feeling a bit frustrated and discouraged :/ my mom spent some money to help me put my creations together since we didn’t have enough to work with to make matters worse.
she needs a christmas list soon and honestly i don’t feel like christmas at all, one because i can’t get anyone’s gifts with my own money since i have none and two cuz one of my cats just died. hard to be happy.
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Bob Zombie
Brain food is the best food
Bummed that it seems that, regardless of which event I enter in on this site and how much time I spend on each design, nothing ever gets selected by staff to move to community vote. The short story contest, the egg decorating, and the plushie dress-ups were the worst - spent almost a week on some of these. Seriously depressed about Count von Count... I spent way too much time on that, got a lot of community likes, and still nothing.
Thinking about bidding this site adieu, which is a shame because I want to take part, but tired of the constant rejection. The ramification of spending so much time on each submission is toxic, and not good for mental health.
Edit: I have to make it official. I'm not going to put myself through this each and every event. Not sure who I ticked off upstairs to hate everything I make, but it's enough. I'm full. Some friends are going to get some nice collectibles though!
Thinking about bidding this site adieu, which is a shame because I want to take part, but tired of the constant rejection. The ramification of spending so much time on each submission is toxic, and not good for mental health.
Edit: I have to make it official. I'm not going to put myself through this each and every event. Not sure who I ticked off upstairs to hate everything I make, but it's enough. I'm full. Some friends are going to get some nice collectibles though!
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i hope you don’t mind me responding, but your feelings are totally valid, and i honestly feel the same way. the short story contest especially hurt me as well, because while i actually was a runner up, my story didn’t win — but you know which story did? one that was partially inspired by mine. their story was great, and i really don’t want to sound like a sore loser, but the fact that a story that took inspiration from mine won while mine didn’t deadass stung a lot.
i didn’t participate in this event for the most part, but i’m sure your entries were amazing, and your feelings of disappointment are valid. it sucks when you spend so much time working on something, only to feel like it was all for nothing afterwards. i totally understand if you choose not to participate in future events, but i hope you don’t leave entirely. i know we haven’t really talked, but i enjoy seeing you around and i know you’d be missed. it’s of course entirely up to you, though — do what’s best for you.
i didn’t participate in this event for the most part, but i’m sure your entries were amazing, and your feelings of disappointment are valid. it sucks when you spend so much time working on something, only to feel like it was all for nothing afterwards. i totally understand if you choose not to participate in future events, but i hope you don’t leave entirely. i know we haven’t really talked, but i enjoy seeing you around and i know you’d be missed. it’s of course entirely up to you, though — do what’s best for you.
Bob Zombie
Brain food is the best food
I'm just so tired of seeing the "usual suspects" get selected for all the awards... anyone who watched Sesame Street knows who Count von Count is, and you can't even tell it's Bob-omb under there! (check my profile pic for my plushie entry, and then compare to who go through to voting...). I used a plastic spoon for the monocle!
I spent a week writing/tweaking my story for the short story contest, a week with my diorama for the egg decorating, and used all of those lesson's learned for the plushie drawing.... and nada. So disappointed, I just gave all my collectibles away except for those I can't, and seriously wish I could just have my account deleted but of course, that's a non-starter...
Done for the future... it's pointless to try when you'll never get selected, right?
BTW - I loved your entry for the writing contest!
i feel this. your plush entry is definitely really cool and super creative — i’m honestly bummed for you that it didn’t make it into the poll. using a plastic spoon for the monocle was a genius idea as well.
i completely understand and respect your decision — i’m sad to see you go, but like i said, you gotta do what’s best for you and your mental health. please take care of yourself, and i wish you luck with wherever life takes you next.
and thank you! it’s honestly still one of my favourite stories i’ve ever written. :’)
Bob Zombie
Brain food is the best food
Thank you! I'll be okay... I have enough to keep me occupied away from this board!i feel this. your plush entry is definitely really cool and super creative — i’m honestly bummed for you that it didn’t make it into the poll. using a plastic spoon for the monocle was a genius idea as well.
i completely understand and respect your decision — i’m sad to see you go, but like i said, you gotta do what’s best for you and your mental health. please take care of yourself, and i wish you luck with wherever life takes you next.
and thank you! it’s honestly still one of my favourite stories i’ve ever written. :’)
You take care of yourself too!!! If you ever need to reach me, send me a PM and it will get to me via email!
And keep writing... you definitely have talent, consider publishing someday?
Dunquixote
Mrrrroooooow! T-Treasure...
I feel the same way. I spent hours on some of my projects and even spent money and like last halloween event, didn’t get nominated. I do think there were a lot of good entries, but I honestly felt like I did a really good job with my graveyard prompt and it doesn’t look like i spent only a few minutes doing. I used up a lot of materials too. I know I shouldn’t let myself get discouraged and keep trying and just remember this is for fun, but I agree with some points you made even though I think a lot of times the nominees and winners deserved it. Just can’t help but wonder what I am doing wrong.
xSuperMario64x
call me Bug 🇨🇦💜🐛
the worst part about owning a dog is letting them out at 7am in the middle of autumn when it's literally only a few degrees above freezing 
I feel worse each day as the effects of this poor sleep adds up
