What's Bothering You?

I hate having to disclose my disabilities. It makes me feel weak and as if I'm an inconvenience.
definitely feeling this, I'm struggling w my internship bc of autism/anxiety and I still haven't told them. too scared that they'll start treating me different or drop me altogether.
 
my mom pointed out my crooked/pushed back tooth unprompted, knowing it's the thing i'm most insecure about, and when i said i'd prefer if she didn't mention it, she walked off like she was the one who deserved to be upset. now i never want to talk, laugh or smile ever again. fifteen minutes later, she buys herself and my sister lunch and leaves me to go hungry, basically. (i'm old enough to buy my own food, but so is my sister, and it's my (lack of) weight our mom is always commenting on, so it's more the double standard and lack of care i'm upset about.)
 
I'm like 98% positive that this house would descend into complete chaos if I wasn't here lol. my mom can't clean bc she's disabled and my dad couldn't care less abt cleaning cause he's breaking his back everyday trying to work enough to pay bills and spend money on stupid ****. if I'm out of commission for a few days because of burnout everything gets so cluttered/dirty/overrun it's ridiculous. if theyre gonna rely on me to clean idk what I'm gonna do about working, I get burned out so easily I have a very hard time juggling both work and cleaning a whole house 😞
 
definitely feeling this, I'm struggling w my internship bc of autism/anxiety and I still haven't told them. too scared that they'll start treating me different or drop me altogether.
As someone who has worked in different places, be open about it or people will have more expectations on you. At one place I even held a small speech about it because that place were rather uneducated about autism/asperger and stuff even though they work with those daily ironically lol.
 
As someone who has worked in different places, be open about it or people will have more expectations on you. At one place I even held a small speech about it because that place were rather uneducated about autism/asperger and stuff even though they work with those daily ironically lol.
yeah I kinda get the feel that the people whom I'm working with might need some explanations as well. luckily they understand my mom being physically disabled and me helping her out. idk maybe they'll be understanding of me. I just don't want it to hold me back, or better yet I don't want to feel helpless/worthless because of my disability.
 
Recently switched b.c. method to an IUD and I've never experienced any PMS symptoms in my life but now I get severe cramps & other symptoms and they suck. Bless all of y'all who have had to go through this your entire lives. Occasionally, I feel like my insides are being ripped from my body! I've been told they may even out in the next few months though, so I'm holding out. At least I have a great NP.

still worth it tho
 
yeah I kinda get the feel that the people whom I'm working with might need some explanations as well. luckily they understand my mom being physically disabled and me helping her out. idk maybe they'll be understanding of me. I just don't want it to hold me back, or better yet I don't want to feel helpless/worthless because of my disability.
Yeah, it could be a good thing. Sadly people tend to think unless you tell them everything you are expected to do everything even if you feel insecure/bad at stuff. I hope they will! :)

Nah if anything at least trying to tell people is good. I mean the general knowledge is bad unless said superior or stuff has kids/relation/family etc. with asd's
 
What a needy bunch of characters. I was giving away a rare item on Nookazon for free, a Brewstoid, and this character demanded me to come to his island and give it to him. I was busy, so I couldn't, so I asked him to come to my island instead, and he was like "Okay, jeez." I refused to give it to him because of his rudeness after that, canceling our trade, so he gave me a 1 star rating review for that.

Honestly, these people should be thankful I even bothered to give these items away at all, these parasitic worms should be kissing my feet. I'm so sick of people like them, so self-entitled, so needy like beggars, whining about this and that so rudely when I'm giving stuff away for free. Just stuff it for god's sake.
 
Me this morning: my knee feels fine I'm not going to wear the ace velcroe compression thing today at work

My knee later: Haha you thought

Like, I know it's bad to wear a velcroe brace compression thing everyday or even one of those compression sleeves (which was not helping) but my left knee has gotten worse. Slowly, but surely. I wear it only to work since there I do crouching, lifting, sitting and standing for random, inconsistent periods of time. But even in days when I'm just walking or even SITTING around the house, my knee will feel stiff. Today it feels a little weak, but so do my legs so maybe I just need some sugar.

I try to wear it randomly so my knee doesn't build a dependency on it. Most days it helps, sometimes it doesn't. I don't want to wear it everyday but some mornings I'll get out of bed and it already feels stuff. Wtf.

If anyone has reccomendations for knee support things, even if it's somethin like KT tape or somethin not a typical sleeve thing I'd love to hear it. And no I don't have the luxury/money/time to go get it checked out by a professional.
 
What a needy bunch of characters. I was giving away a rare item on Nookazon for free, a Brewstoid, and this character demanded me to come to his island and give it to him. I was busy, so I couldn't, so I asked him to come to my island instead, and he was like "Okay, jeez." I refused to give it to him because of his rudeness after that, canceling our trade, so he gave me a 1 star rating review for that.

Honestly, these people should be thankful I even bothered to give these items away at all, these parasitic worms should be kissing my feet. I'm so sick of people like them, so self-entitled, so needy like beggars, whining about this and that so rudely when I'm giving stuff away for free. Just stuff it for god's sake.
I feel you. Though on my end with Nookazon iis people are high demanding. I just want to buy a shopping cart and I literally don’t have the requested wishlist items :/ why can’t I just pay in bells? Lol
 
currently having a battle for getting accepted on disability but also having trouble finding lawyers that will actually represent me
 
i wish i could have a relationship with my family but we have grown so apart and have fundamentally different values, perspectives, and behaviors, and i just feel like i cant even have a conversation. its really sad. i need to completely forgive them for things theyve done to hurt me and others and remember to appreciate everything theyve provided for me and not hold any grudge against them but its so hard. maybe more time and space will help me heal. i know they are just people with different views, but its so personal for me since theyre my family, i cant help but feel sad about it. i know its my problem that their differences can make me so upset, but i just cant do it anymore. they can live however they want ill just have to live how i want, but its sad. its not like we can have civil conversations either they just act either upset or worried or full of sadness and pity over the choices i make and perspectives i have and its just really belittling and makes me so frustrated. i guess its time to grow up and move on.
 
Turns out it was an anxiety attack. These past couple days have just been tough for me.
please take it easy friend, don't be hard on yourself 😔


three things are bothering me:
• My dad's mere presence makes me want to pull my hair out. every damn thing he says is about the stupidest or most annoying thing ever. he deliberately does stuff to p*** off me and my mom. he's very controlling and throws a fit when he doesn't get his way, literally making me feel completely worthless in the process. he still talks about Trump like he's a prophet, a ****ing YEAR later. I'm so tired of his ****.
• I want to get a job but I s2g I have no clue what I could do. the only job I've had which I could handle and enjoyed was working at the library at college, and the local library is not hiring part-time. idfk what to do.
• getting really damn tired of seeing ads for eharmony and hearing about my brother going out with his gf. it's always a reminder that no one cares enough to be my friend, much less my partner (and no I'm not referring to anyone on this forum). i honest to god cant imagine anyone wanting to date me, im too quirky/annoying.
 
Whoooo-ee my job is making it easier and easier for me to quit.

I actually like this job, but some of my coworkers are makin things harder and harder. That and some other bs things like not paying me the min wage for 2 weeks and not putting in my pay raise for 2 weeks till I had to say somethin. I do good work and I'm a good worker, I'm not gettin payed enough to deal with things like this.
 
so worried abt my mom right now, moreso than usual. she has terrible health issues and she doesn't seem to be getting much better. the doctors are really trying to help her out but I sometimes wonder if it's in vain. she's in constant pain and her issues with her stomach, neck/spine, post-concussion syndrome, vertigo, etc. just seem to get worse as time goes on.

she occasionslly mentions how her pain is so terrible she would rather... not live. I think she's only really holding on because of me and my brother. I can't stand the thought of losing my mom. if I lost her I would prob have to be put in a psych ward, not even joking.

I just want to cry for her. im in tears even writing this, my throat hurts and I can't breathe very well. my anxiety is absolutely through the roof.
 
My girlfriend is in the psych ward and my heart breaks for her. I’ve never been more worried in my life. Ugh, I love her and she doesn’t know that yet.
 
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