What's Bothering You?
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ali.di.magix
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I've just felt like pure crap today. At least my antidepressants finally let me bawl my eyes out over it. I haven't been this depressed or demotivated since my uni days, which was well over a year ago. If this is all side effects of this new medication, I really hope it goes away soon. If it doesn't, there's no way I'm staying on it. I've had enough of feeling like this over the past decade.
Having a rough day, I had so much to do today at work for Black Friday sale preparations. My manager somehow gets the day off and I get stuck with all the prep 
I stayed a little late (unpaid) to finish some things because that's how behind I was and I HATE that, I feel like if I would have stayed clocked in I would get in trouble for it, if I left without finishing I would be in trouble for that, so instead I pick the option where I won't get in trouble but instead work unpaid. I used to do that too much at my old job and I just hate it so much. Also **** Black Friday in general THIS IS CANADA why are we trying to do America things. Everyone still has school and work tomorrow but yet they are expected to find time to come to the mall for some sale we are expected to have because someone else had Thanksgiving today??
I stayed a little late (unpaid) to finish some things because that's how behind I was and I HATE that, I feel like if I would have stayed clocked in I would get in trouble for it, if I left without finishing I would be in trouble for that, so instead I pick the option where I won't get in trouble but instead work unpaid. I used to do that too much at my old job and I just hate it so much. Also **** Black Friday in general THIS IS CANADA why are we trying to do America things. Everyone still has school and work tomorrow but yet they are expected to find time to come to the mall for some sale we are expected to have because someone else had Thanksgiving today?? Anyone who works retail is perhaps familiar with bag checks, and I as part of the management have to check other people's bags before they go.. one of the guys who's trying to quit smoking had cigarettes today and it really just set me off. Lung cancer is how my dad died, I've spent more time than I would like to admit this week just ruminating about how much he would probably view my life as a complete failure... which I don't even want to get in to but just seeing that guy had cigs with him again broke my little heart tonight. I didn't say anything and made it through the rest of my day, but I cried on the train home. I don't even really know why it got to me so much but it did.
walked to the store in the dark and cold to buy something. got all the way back to my apartment when i realized it fell out of my pocket. darn layers didnt let me feel when it happened. walked back to buy it again in shame and took my hat off and put it in my pocket since i was feeling overheated from all the walking (these are really baggy sweatpants with the deepest pockets i own). got in line back and the store and realized i dropped my cute hat with ears :C said "nooo!" and everyone looked at me rip how embarrassing. found the hat on the way back at least but im bummed about the almost $10 i just dropped 
thats the price of being stupid i guess. ill never trust my pockets again. oh well lol could have been worse, really happy i found my hat bc i doubt i could replace it
thats the price of being stupid i guess. ill never trust my pockets again. oh well lol could have been worse, really happy i found my hat bc i doubt i could replace it
Rent is going up. I want to move to a warm climate but that’s pretty much on hold for now due to unforseen circumstances. Nothing major, just it’s crucial for me to be where I’m at right now. Things are going absolutely perfect. Yes, it’s cold. But I wouldn’t want to be warm somewhere else. At least right now.
Neurotiker
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Now that I’m approaching the first draft of my novel I’m concerned about how it’ll be received. I’m worried people will see it as a revenge piece or a 300 page vent. My goal is to write the queer autistic experience accurately. Some of the situations in the story will be based on my past, but many will come from other people’s stories too. I want to write a compelling autistic protagonist who feels alive. I also want to write layered antagonists that have motivations behind their terrible behavior. The problem is I’m not sure if I can write compelling enough backstories.
I could keep the novel to myself, but that feels like a waste. I have something I want to say about how many treat people on the spectrum. It’s not like many books have autistic protagonists. The only book I’ve found that portrays us accurately is “Marcelo in The Real World.” Even then, it’s not like many people have read that book. I guess I’ll have to just write the book and see what happens…
I could keep the novel to myself, but that feels like a waste. I have something I want to say about how many treat people on the spectrum. It’s not like many books have autistic protagonists. The only book I’ve found that portrays us accurately is “Marcelo in The Real World.” Even then, it’s not like many people have read that book. I guess I’ll have to just write the book and see what happens…
Hey, I'm sure it's gonna be good, if anything we need refreshing autism books cause most are basically only about stereotype low-functioning people. Also I wouldn't worry too much about backstories, I read a book that was like 75% backstories and I almost quit cause the author basically wrote only that and random quotes from the law book (this was a crime book but still the movie they made of it was so much better). So if anything avoid making them too detailed.
Hey ♡ I had similar side effects at first on my medication (not sure if its the same), weird highs that felt like I was floating and rough bottoms that felt like my worst nights. It should get better soon but your brain is having to get used to them,, so please try to stick with them. I understand its super tough but try to remember its just the medication and that it will pass. Also get enough sleep. ♡ you got this!!
Mr_Persona
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if only l can replace her. Thanks a lot MGA for never giving me a replacement a year ago when l first got her
Now the issue is more bad than ever. Now she is eyepatch diva
Hopeless Opus
diluc is my king
felt this one so, so hard. i feel it 24/7. i want to just take the information i gave to everyone and pull it back deep inside so that they never know, and so that i can then disappear. never be perceived again. never have to worry about someone using something they know about me against me.
Hopeless Opus
diluc is my king
god. i am such an idiot. i never learn from my mistakes, i just keep making them.
Millysaurusrexjr
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pretty bummed out about the Nu COVID variant. probably means I won't be able to see my mom for at least another year if it gets bad enough
I got 2 infractions for making responses like "lmaoo that's insane" etc. I know exactly what you mean. Doesn't make sense and I don't agree with it at all but at least it does serve some purpose by keeping things productive. Still tho, in my opinion it's a very ridiculous rule that like you said pretty much violates the first amendment lol. I would say this bothers me as well a little bit.
