What's Bothering You?

i hope ur ok xara, i know i probably cant provide much comfort but i know u would have done all u could for her and im sure with all that love u obviously have for her that she must have had a happy life, im so sorry for ur loss tho and if u ever need to talk or vent pls feel free to message me anytime. im so sorry that u have to go through all that alone but pls dont blame urself, u were placed in an awful situation thats not ur fault, im sorry u were failed by those around u and i hope they realise how devastated u are and try to help u in this horrible time : ( 💗 thinking of u both

thank you so much, mog. i really would have done absolutely anything for her, and i really did try my best... it never feels like enough, though lol. i just hope she knows how much i love her.

thank you for taking the time to respond; i really appreciate it. 💗
 
Not doing well for multiple reasons. Have cavities that keep getting worse and no clue when I can go back to the dentist. Found out something unrelated that just adds on to my anxiety. Also, my laptop charger is breaking and I'm going to be very upset if I can't be online during December...
 
I am slightly concerned about my GameStop order. I got locked out of my main account so I did a guest checkout, but didn't take a picture of the confirmation page because it said I was going to get an email. No email or phone text with my order, but I was charged for it... I'm just hoping it shows up at my door in the next week or so or I get some sort of update.
 
Mail "forgetting" to scan packages. I'll assume it will arrive in the letterbox since it's only a shirt and hair clip but would be nice if they could actually give me updates.
 
There is no reason for me to be here today at all. I really don’t like that everyone is sleeping while I’m here, I have no idea what to do, I don’t want to make noise because they’re sleeping. Im sitting down because this house feels oppressive due to it being silent and I can’t breath not sure if im having an anxiety attack or what’s going on 😞.
 
need to take my hamster to the vet tomorrow which meant i had to cancel a flat viewing i had, my parents made it quite clear they thought i was being dumb for doing that
 
can't wait for the day when I finally snap and have a mental breakdown bc I can't deal with anything anymore and then people say "oh yeah maybe we pushed them a bit too far"
 
I just helped a friend whose car was out of gas and now the smell of the gasoline is stuck in my nose. I am having a big headache.
 
My dog just threw up on me, on 3 different peices of clothing

She was sitting in my lap and I didn't realize what she was doin till I finally looked

Now I'm kinda mad at her cause I thought she would have known better than to throw up on me rather than gettin off and doing in on the floor
 
my country doing dumb restrictions and keeping them while revoking money support and stuff.. like okay how does that rhyme? lol ofc it will spread since people can afford being at home.....
 
i have my therapy assessment tomorrow, and i'm bricking it. my mom says (based on the address) that it's the same place i attended group therapy pre-pandemic, and i'm hoping they don't send me to that again. it was useless, and arguably made my anxiety worse. not to mention that i still have all the materials they gave us, so i don't exactly need to go again. i'd rather go on a waitlist for 1x1, even if it is 6-8 months long and also probably won't help ><
 
i got told my hamster will die pretty soon unless he has surgery which has a high chance of killing him anyway, so feeling pretty crap today, i hate even looking at him now because i feel so helpless and he looks so small and fragile and i just want to protect him and i know he's just a hamster but i've rly grown attached to my little babies especially during lockdown when i had no friends
 
can't believe evening is almost here 😞
today's been kinda rough, been super tired since I woke up (I actually went back to sleep for like 4 hours) and I'm stressing about the state of our house bc I'm expected to keep it clean by myself.

idk I guess I'm just pretty unhappy w my life rn
 
I've had the worst thanksgiving ever, nobody in my family bothered to cook, all the places were closed so we couldn't go out for dinner, and to add insult to injury I was forced to eat leftover foods for Thanksgiving! Ugh....I am so upset.....
 
I regret oversharing. I finally found a place I could belong and I already made myself seem weird, eccentric and anmoying. Almost like becoming a charicature of myself. I kinda want to just leave and not see them again.
 
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