What's Bothering You?

RIP bell hooks :(

also, rip literally my groovy pants i found in my wardrobe, got a large hole in the seams across the knee, well bye :F cba fixing them cause they're a bit tight and will probs rip again...
 
I passed out while I was with my mom this morning, and now I got a bruise on my leg, and scratches that hurt. Im still dazed. Concrete man, it hurts on impact (no surprise)

Im stuck at home, watching stuff because mom doesnt want me to walk around
I'm not sure whether to assume you know why it happened and that you're taking care if it, or if I should put my Mom hat on (let's be real, I never take it off) and tell you that you should go to the doctor and get evaluated. Randomly passing out is a sign of something much more significant going on. Anything from dehydration or lack of sleep, which is degenerative to the body on so many levels after lengths of time, or low blood sugar, to a form of epilepsy (which I have and am on medication for - it's no joke). Please take care of yourself!
 
I'm not sure whether to assume you know why it happened and that you're taking care if it, or if I should put my Mom hat on (let's be real, I never take it off) and tell you that you should go to the doctor and get evaluated. Randomly passing out is a sign of something much more significant going on. Anything from dehydration or lack of sleep, which is degenerative to the body on so many levels after lengths of time, or low blood sugar, to a form of epilepsy (which I have and am on medication for - it's no joke). Please take care of yourself!
Im epileptic too, so yeah its no joke. Its no joke in general either
my guess is lack of sleep, because i haven't been slerping well and stressing. but could also be dehydrating, because I didnt drink much yesterday. All I had was a big glass of water

Thanks, I'm taking it easy
 
Im epileptic too, so yeah its no joke. Its no joke in general either
my guess is lack of sleep, because i haven't been slerping well and stressing. but could also be dehydrating, because I didnt drink much yesterday. All I had was a big glass of water
*hugs* epilepsy is scary man, for real. I'm glad you at least seem to know what's causing it. Now, just need to take some steps towards health! 🥰
 
I was wondering why my boss was making me come in at 7am when I have annual leave booked, turns out he forgot that I had annual booked lol. I could've slept in and caught up on lost sleep from last night. Oh well, I got mean as free breakfast out of him 😂🤣
 
i don’t like the way i look, from the front i look fine but on the side im all messed up because of my stupid jaw. my dentist said that i should get surgery because my jaw is underdeveloped and my face bones have stopped growing but im too scared to get surgery. this could’ve all been fixed years ago without surgery but my dumbass old dentist didn’t realize that and never did anything. i’m mad and concerned that my chin will recede when i get older and i’ll look even worse. i can feel myself becoming jealous of people with normal faces.
 
I had to leave work early and the Mavs lost.

More than anything in this world I’m bothered by the fact that I’m weak and pathetic, and I always will be.

As Metal Face from Xenoblade Chronicles said, “Weak! Weak and pathetic!”
 
i don’t like the way i look, from the front i look fine but on the side im all messed up because of my stupid jaw. my dentist said that i should get surgery because my jaw is underdeveloped and my face bones have stopped growing but im too scared to get surgery. this could’ve all been fixed years ago without surgery but my dumbass old dentist didn’t realize that and never did anything. i’m mad and concerned that my chin will recede when i get older and i’ll look even worse. i can feel myself becoming jealous of people with normal faces.

if it makes you feel better, i'm similar !! i have thin jaw plates, or something, and my mouth is too small for all my teeth, so they're crooked at the front. if i'd had braces when i was younger, i'd probably be fine now, but my parents let 10 y/o me decide, and i obviously said no because i was terrified. now, having braces would require jaw surgery beforehand (so there's room for all the teeth) and surgery would require having my jaw (can't remember if it's just lower or both) moved forward. in the end, i decided against it because i have no pain tolerance and the surgery would've left my face bruised/swollen for weeks, and i'd have been on a liquid diet until it went down, then braces for god knows how many years. (i can't even have mouth injections for fillings lmao like-) i practically don't have a jawline, meaning i look super baby-faced instead, and my chin isn't particularly pronounced if at all, but i'm honestly more self-conscious about my teeth than that. i am working on it though. honestly, i don't really even notice until random bursts of "i'm ugly" hit or i appear in a photo lmao. i always thought i'd die alone because of it, but now i have a girlfriend who loves me and thinks i'm the prettiest person in the world even though she literally sees me from my worst angle aka below. anyway, this is just my long-winded way of saying try not to be too hard on yourself or the way you look, and try not to envy others' appearance. (easier said than done, i know.) sometimes i look at other people and momentarily feel like a goblin shark, but then i remember that those other girls are wearing a lot of makeup (nothing wrong with that, of course) while i'm wearing zero, and they probably have something they're self-conscious about too.
 
i don’t like the way i look, from the front i look fine but on the side im all messed up because of my stupid jaw. my dentist said that i should get surgery because my jaw is underdeveloped and my face bones have stopped growing but im too scared to get surgery. this could’ve all been fixed years ago without surgery but my dumbass old dentist didn’t realize that and never did anything. i’m mad and concerned that my chin will recede when i get older and i’ll look even worse. i can feel myself becoming jealous of people with normal faces.
As someone that’s gotten implant surgery (I know it’s not the same, but it has very similar bruising effects), I can say that it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The three weeks of bruising and no energy was nothing compared to the confidence it gave me afterwards. Obviously mine had to be done, but you have to think if the confidence you’ll gain afterwards is worth the few weeks of suffering.

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Taking that two year break from books has really messed up my reading speed. I used to be able to finish entire books in a day. Now it takes me 2 hours just to read 50 pages. A part of that comes from my need to vocalize every word in my head. When I force myself to just scan the words I’m around my old speed, but that makes me bored. If only there was a way to find some midway point between those two extremes…
 
Working retail during Christmas is just too much to handle and I feel like I have no support at all 😔 Also I need to get my Christmas presents mailed out but I am always working during post office hours.
 
Man I hate being sickkkk

My nose is stuffy but when it's not it's so dry it hurts to breathe through it. Like ???? Pick a struggle nose it's rude to have both. 😒
 
a while ago I posted here about how my sister in law acquired a betta fish in a bowl from a friend.
My husband and I gave her tons of information the day I found out she was keeping the betta in a bowl, and offered her a 10 gallon fish tank that we already had. She never claimed it. That was maybe a couple weeks ago?

Anyway TODAY I was asked to go over to her place to set up her new tank and transfer the fish from the fish bowl to the tank, because my SIL is in the hospital.
I go over to her place and the fish bowl is... disgusting. It smelled so bad. Here's a picture
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awful. just awful. can't even see all the way through. so much fish flake crap.
the tank that she got was clearly secondhand, not from me, and not a 10 gallon. Maybe a 5 gallon, which is alright, but there was a bag full of random secondhand, dirty aquarium stuff.. like filters and heaters and stuff. I got out the sponge filter, and it would have been too big imo for the 5 gal, and I didn't have any tubing to connect it to the powersource, so I went out and bought tubing + a thermometer + betta food pellets + a gravel vac. I couldn't afford substrate or silk plants or a bigger heater so that was annoying.
Went back. Set up my 10 gallon tank after spending like 20 minutes trying to figure out where the tank would even go (SIL is almost a hoarder and has a very upsettingly dirty house with barely any free power outlets). Decided on the kitchen counter even though direct sunlight is not great for fish tanks.
Set up the tank to the best of my ability. Plastic plants aren't great, neither is the "substrate" (just a bunch of loose rocks my husband bought years ago from a pet store). But it's way better than the bowl 🤷‍♀️

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it was just a nightmare. I spent like a half hour just writing a bunch of info on sticky notes for her. Hope she heeds my advice. I just want the betta to be okay. But man I hate her house so much omg
 
was having a nice dream when i rolled over and full on smacked my head/eye on the edge of the stool next to my bed. hurt so bad i actually cried lmao, and now (thanks anxiety) i'm worried i'm going to die of a brain aneurysm in a few days and am too scared to go back to sleep despite being exhausted in case i never wake up again. also it's probably gonna bruise like crazy rip.
 
I’m overthinking a ton of things that I probably shouldn’t be. I’m looking too much into things that I shouldn’t be. I’m concerned about things I shouldn’t be. Basically I’m letting someone take over my life… 🙃
 
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