Sometimes I wonder if I’ll die alone. The marriage rate for people with autism is very low and I’ve never had any luck romantically. Either they aren’t interested, they change their mind on me (and treat me like dirt), or they take advantage of my kindness. It’s always one of those three situations.
I tried working on my appearance and confidence. It’s made people look at me more, but no one ever approaches. People on the street also make comments about how I supposedly look scary. I don’t know how to process body language, so I have no idea how to “fix” mine. It’s just something I put in the back of my mind.
Of course there is nothing wrong with being single. I know how damaging a toxic relationship can be. It’s always better to be alone than be stuck in something abusive. The thing is I see people enter relationships so easily and I don’t understand how they do it. A part of my mind just wonders if I’m doing something wrong.
