What's Bothering You?

It's just, one of those days

Everythin is ****ed, everybody sucks



Also I'm still sick a week later. Atleast I have orange juice now.
 
I’m not looking forward to doing online classes next semester. Back in middle and high school I did them and I found them so stressful. The only class that worked better online was Japanese. Otherwise, I forgot everything I learnt. In fact, I took a gap year during the start of the pandemic just to avoid doing online classes. Now that I’m attending an All-Remote community college I have no choice.
 
You've got to love it when someone says to you directly "You still exist!" no **** Sherlock of course I exist. If you or your family actually bothered to make more of an effort with me in the first then those kind of comments wouldn't exist in your vocabulary.

Honestly I'm just done with everyone at the moment, I try to be nice, think of others and put thoughtful effort towards Christmas presents and I'm just met with constant walls of silence or comments that make me feel worthless. There's nothing worse than being stepped on when you're already feeling down at this time of year.
 
I need to eat something but we don't have much to eat here that's relatively easy to make and I keep craving instant noodles that have no nutritional value lol
 
I only have three days of work next week because of the holidays and our store being closed for Christmas Eve and Christmas. I want the money, so I’m not exactly thrilled about it, but I’ll try to enjoy my extra time off. I know it’ll be back to normal after the holidays.
 
You've got to love it when someone says to you directly "You still exist!" no **** Sherlock of course I exist. If you or your family actually bothered to make more of an effort with me in the first then those kind of comments wouldn't exist in your vocabulary.

Honestly I'm just done with everyone at the moment, I try to be nice, think of others and put thoughtful effort towards Christmas presents and I'm just met with constant walls of silence or comments that make me feel worthless. There's nothing worse than being stepped on when you're already feeling down at this time of year.
Don't feel too bad. The Pandemic is the whole reason why most people feel really down and how they just don't have that "Joy" in them like they used to. I am feeling the effects because its hard to be happy about anything these days. My Aunt once told me that you have to learn to appreciate what you have and don't worry about others. Your Happiness is important to you and you should not let those rude people bring you down. Yes everyone has their problems and its complicated because you want to fix them but the truth is they can only fix themselves.

It sounds like you're falling into the whole "people pleasing" situation and I know thats not good for your mental health. You have intentions and thats understandable but sometimes you're always going to encounter mean people no matter now nice you are. Its best to not bother with them since they are not worth your time. Trust me I know what that feels like because I used to be the same way myself when I was younger. Stay strong.
 
my idiot doctor didn't put my current antidepressants on repeat prescription and also didn't bother to tell me that so now i've been off my meds for 3-ish days and am sick with withdrawal symptoms. the practice is like yOu HaVe To BoOk A mEdiCaTiOn ReViEw and there are no appointments until at least early january, by which point going back on the same meds will be worthless. i can't call and fast track it because of the anxiety they're literally treating me for, and my mom couldn't give a flying crap about me.

i'm done trying to get help and treated for this. it's a total joke.
 
dad: *shows me a video of someone playing a song on an instrument* "see why can't you do amazing stuff like this? you couldn't care less."

me: idk maybe bc I've been depressed for like 5 years and at this point I'm using what little energy and motivation I have to actually survive and get by without going totally insane? what a wild concept.

also school sucked most of the passion out of me so that's cool :)
 
wish i kept all those kaftans and long sleeved dresses now lol :/

also i hate that neopets can't accept png, jpg is hell trying to finish aaaahdsjgdsf
 
only reason i got to eat yesterday was because my girlfriend was kind enough to buy me a mcdonalds. i explained to my dad that i had no choice because he and my mom can't seen to remember i exist when they go food shopping and explicitly told him i wanted pasta. (they're literally 50p a packet.) today, my mom went out shopping. right before leaving, i told her and my sister the exact same thing. my dad was also with them. they come home. no pasta. not even one packet. but they could manage to buy themselves all a subway. so guess who hasn't eaten again lmao. and yet they want to nitpick my weight constantly and respond to me saying i don't feel well with "iTs BeCaUsE yOu NeEd To EaT mOrE". actually hate it here.
 
just found out my favorite instant noodles has MSG in it, and I've been eating it a lot over the last week. lol whoops 🙃
 
just found out my favorite instant noodles has MSG in it, and I've been eating it a lot over the last week. lol whoops 🙃
MSG is fine for you as long as you haven't been getting unexplained headaches (it's in all sorts of brand name snack foods, you probably consume it all the time) ;)
 
MSG is fine for you as long as you haven't been getting unexplained headaches (it's in all sorts of brand name snack foods, you probably consume it all the time) ;)
I'm usually pretty aware of the ingredients in the foods I eat, and I try to avoid things like trans fats, saturated fats, MSG, etc as much as possible. after posting that I figured it's prob a very small amount anyways because it was lower on the ingredient list.
 
I had to uninvite my partners mom for Christmas dinner cause she didn't get vaccinated in time. I've been telling her since the start of November that she needs both doses to come and she's just been ignoring me or brushing me off. At least I got her a TV for Christmas cause hers has been broken for over a month now, hopefully the nice gift will make her less salty.
 
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