What's Bothering You?

I biked this morning for a couple of hours. While I usually feel happy getting some exercise, I don't really feel this today. It turns out the air quality is still poor from the forest fires in my province. I thought things would clear up, but it obviously hasn't. Something tells me that biking today to get some exercise did more harm than good to my health. I'm having minimal struggles of breathing (nothing unbearable, though) and still am after a few hours.
 
Forgive me for asking, but does your country, state etc. have a special program for people ASD and related conditions? If they do and you won't be able to get disability money it might be worth checking out.

Unfortunately no, not where I am. I don’t think my city has a disability office, and the state one would be too far from here. I’m basically trapped here and I’m running out of places to apply to and interview at. Eventually I’m going to have to just move to a different city or state and start a career somewhere else, but I don’t have the money for that right now.

I am working with a job/life coach in trying to get hired, but it has been a long time now and I don’t know if it’s going to bear fruit or not. All I know is I run the risk of becoming homeless once my dad passes.
 
I hate the hot weather. I hate doing physical labor in the hot weather. I hate doing physical labor in the hot weather for hours upon end. I’m ready to just pass out for the night.

The best part is I get to do this all over again every day this week.
 

And just to be clear, it’s not like it’s impossible for me to do. I’m receiving job offers still even now on online places. I’ve overcome every obstacle that was presented to me in my life before, so there’s no reason why I can’t get a good job too. It’s just that it’s probably the biggest obstacle I’m facing before I can move forward again. My Aspergers is so minimal that it probably doesn’t even affect me as bad as others who have it worse or full blown autism. But it is enough to make me think and process things differently. Basically it’s not a matter of skill or intelligence, it’s a matter of opportunity.

Anyway, I’ll end my spiel there. Sorry for posting about this so much recently.
 
I’m so mentally and physically exhausted right now that I just can’t think straight. I just want quiet please.
 
lol reminds me when I bought pumpkin pie that was reduced. I don't know how they managed to do it, but they captured the flavor of after vomit. I couldn't even finish a slice. Sometimes it's cheap for a reason. Hopefully your next batch of chips tastes better!
Yeah it was a reduced low-budget brand but I wanted something salt to snack on and they were the cheapest lol! I'll definitely take some better brand next time. And yeah they left a vomit aftertaste as well ew.
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Unfortunately no, not where I am. I don’t think my city has a disability office, and the state one would be too far from here. I’m basically trapped here and I’m running out of places to apply to and interview at. Eventually I’m going to have to just move to a different city or state and start a career somewhere else, but I don’t have the money for that right now.

I am working with a job/life coach in trying to get hired, but it has been a long time now and I don’t know if it’s going to bear fruit or not. All I know is I run the risk of becoming homeless once my dad passes.
Okay, yeah that's rather stinky and definitely understand your frustration.

Hope they can help you but yeah that's a rather ****ty situation indeed especially if it's been sometime if they haven't helped you with any contacts or help with money etc.
 
boss who doesnt believe in covid and also attended a large out of state gathering last week came to our small office super sick. i wont get my second shot for another two weeks soooo hoping its not covid ;-;
 
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I feel like I'm holding onto my last thread of sanity at work.

To top it off, my S/O and his mother have some mild covid symptoms as of yesterday. They had family friends over the past weekend, who are fully vaccinated but have been out and about since provincial restrictions loosened. Maybe I'm being too salty about this and I'm speaking from the perspective of being more of a homebody myself, but I wish people were more attuned to the fact that risk reduction isn't equivalent to risk elimination. My S/O got tested this morning and should have results within the next 24-48 hours... fingers crossed. 🙏
 
I feel like I'm holding onto my last thread of sanity at work.

To top it off, my S/O and his mother have some mild covid symptoms as of yesterday. They had family friends over the past weekend, who are fully vaccinated but have been out and about since provincial restrictions loosened. Maybe I'm being too salty about this and I'm speaking from the perspective of being more of a homebody myself, but I wish people were more attuned to the fact that risk reduction isn't equivalent to risk elimination. My S/O got tested this morning and should have results within the next 24-48 hours... fingers crossed. 🙏

I’ll keep my fingers crossed for them as well! That’s so scary, I hope the tests are negative and that they’re okay 💕💕 I also hope that things at work get easier soon, too!
 
I’ll keep my fingers crossed for them as well! That’s so scary, I hope the tests are negative and that they’re okay 💕💕 I also hope that things at work get easier soon, too!
Thank you so much -- really appreciate the positive vibes! 🥺 That means so much. Thankfully, he mentioned that his symptoms are almost all gone, so at the very least, they're not bothering him as much as they were yesterday.

boss who doesnt believe in covid and also attended a large out of state gathering last week came to our small office super sick. i wont get my second shot for another two weeks soooo hoping its not covid ;-;
Channeling some good vibes to you! Fingers and toes crossed that you're all clear. 🙏💜
 
Thank you so much -- really appreciate the positive vibes! 🥺 That means so much. Thankfully, he mentioned that his symptoms are almost all gone, so at the very least, they're not bothering him as much as they were yesterday.


Channeling some good vibes to you! Fingers and toes crossed that you're all clear. 🙏💜
thank you! i hope you and your s/o hear good news back soon on your test results 🙏🖤
 
I had to go out in the heat (80-90F weather) again, which is fine beside the fact that I didn’t rub in my sunscreen. All day my eyes have been bothering me from me sweating the sunscreen into my eyes. I’ve had to leave my what I was doing multiple times to wash out my eyes, but it isn’t helping. Luckily I’m at home now, but my eyes are still burning.

I also heavily embarrassed myself today. I wish I could just turn back time.
 
I really don’t want to go to work tomorrow because they’re getting their home ready to be sprayed for bugs and a lot of yelling and hitting happens as well as name calling from the wife. I don’t understand how people can be so self involved that they can’t see the damage they’re doing to others and have no empathy. Could really go without the constant nit picking and the hitting as well as when she tells him he deserves it for being so lazy triggers my past trauma.
 
irks me when you do kind gestures for someone and they take advantage of it by expecting it every time. on top of that, they call you impolite names to push your buttons and proceed to get upset when you explode in front of them.
honestly reallllllllly tired of feeling like this these days and just want to escape to a new place.
 
I feel like I've caused a bunch of miscommunications at work and I feel pretty crappy about it. I'm just forcing myself not to think about it otherwise I'll just end up overthinking it.

also with the thing for applying for jobs with autism, do you guys have to declare that in an application/interview? I didn't think that would be necessary, or there would be a law somewhere where you wouldn't have to state anything like that
 
I feel like I've caused a bunch of miscommunications at work and I feel pretty crappy about it. I'm just forcing myself not to think about it otherwise I'll just end up overthinking it.

also with the thing for applying for jobs with autism, do you guys have to declare that in an application/interview? I didn't think that would be necessary, or there would be a law somewhere where you wouldn't have to state anything like that
you're not required to but if you're like me and autism causes you to function a lot differently than most people, then not telling your employer would be miscommunication and would put both of you at a disadvantage.

also I wouldn't worry too much about what you're saying regarding miscommunication, that's something that I personally deal with all the time when communicating with people. it's because we just process things differently than others do, there's no need to be ashamed of that. if it causes a problem then just let them know that you didn't realize what they were trying to say and maybe ask for clarification.
 
irks me when you do kind gestures for someone and they take advantage of it by expecting it every time. on top of that, they call you impolite names to push your buttons and proceed to get upset when you explode in front of them.
honestly reallllllllly tired of feeling like this these days and just want to escape to a new place.
I get that. I hate that a lot of people take kindness and generosity as a weakness. I have no idea who started that, but it's so stupid. It takes more energy to be polite/kind and helpful/generous, especially to those who don't deserve it.

boss who doesnt believe in covid and also attended a large out of state gathering last week came to our small office super sick. i wont get my second shot for another two weeks soooo hoping its not covid ;-;
Dang sorry to hear that. Even if covid weren't happening, going somewhere sick is a jerk-move. Just do your best to keep clean and limit your presence with them if possible. Easier said than done. Hope you're able to get your last shot without any issues!

@TheSillyPuppy I hope that everything is alright with your family and that all the tests come out negative!
 
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