What's Bothering You?

So I know you said this is personal, and I guess this is personal as well…birth control can help a lot with these situations. I don’t know if you meant that when you said medicine. I hope you feel better soon! Nothing is worse. Hopefully your Dr. has assessed you for cysts, endometriosis, etc.
Thanks! I don’t mind the advice at all. I did actually get an ultrasound for endo and nada, which I find really hard to believe, no idea about cysts. Unfortunately BC made me less than happy about life the one time I tried, so I’m pretty afraid to go on it, it’s almost been two years since then but it was some of the worst I’ve ever felt. My medicine for it is not OTC, it’s pretty good stuff, though honestly without it I don’t think I would be walking during that time of the month. It’s just not right to me I just get medicine slapped on when this is going to be almost lifelong. I STILL have times like this and there has to be a better option than just medicating when it starts… I know there are some other BC options but I’m scared of them all as they’re generally hormonally based. In an ideal world I would just want to not have a uterus in the first place. Man young me had absolutely no pain from periods and it’s just continuously gotten worse, I have the feeling it is still getting worse but the medicine is hiding that.
 
The new cable for my ipad did not solve my apple pencil problem so I think I’m going to have to take it to an apple store and see if someone can help me. I’m so annoyed about this.
That really is annoying. It might make you feel better if i tell you my story….about 9 months ago I purchased the new IPad Pro. I decided to splurge and get the Apple Pencil pro as well even though I don’t do art cuz I can’t draw. Anyway during the TBT seasonal event I was seeing so many awesome digital drawings I decided I should get it out and try it. Well…..I can’t find it…anywhere. I have spent days and hours looking everywhere I could have possibly put it. First, I am really OCD about clutter and everything has to be put away. But I also am an organize freak. So I KNOW I would have put it someplace logical and not just “tossed” it in a drawer. I do have a really huge house with lots of storage space and closets, etc. I unfortunately use it all too. 🙄 But it is nowhere to be found! I only have one dreaded concern….back in August when my husband was in hospital, I purged a lot of stuff to donate. I guess It’s possible I accidentally donated it. Makes me sick to think about it!
 
I'm pretty sure I have some kind of eating disorder. I don't know how I've never been diagnosed with one in the past. I really should bring it up to a doctor because I tend to have an unhealthy relationship with food and an internalized hatred of my body and weight. it really got to me yesterday evening, and especially today 😞 but I don't even know who to bring this up to, my PCP or my psychiatrist?

also started thinking about a few of my loved ones on my drive to work today, those whom I was really close to and I've lost in recent years. honestly wanted to cry.
 
I'm pretty sure I have some kind of eating disorder. I don't know how I've never been diagnosed with one in the past. I really should bring it up to a doctor because I tend to have an unhealthy relationship with food and an internalized hatred of my body and weight. it really got to me yesterday evening, and especially today 😞 but I don't even know who to bring this up to, my PCP or my psychiatrist?

also started thinking about a few of my loved ones on my drive to work today, those whom I was really close to and I've lost in recent years. honestly wanted to cry.
Both. Because you need both medical and mental advice/treatment. ❤️
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I have a health practitioner background so I’m not just blathering…;)
 
I think it's because both your and their comments were based on Apple products?

Lategamer's comment made me think about how I can't find this really old reel labeled wedding. I know it's got to be somewhere in my house because it was in a box full of old pictures of my grandmother. And now I can't find it. The only thing I can think is family came by to look through the pictures for the funeral and somehow lost/tossed the reel. I wish I could've made a digital copy and now I might not be able to. Even so I'm not sure how I would even go about making a copy since as far as I can tell I'd only be able to project it onto a wall if I found a projector that could play it. 😅
 
i actually just have anxiety 24/7 these days. so much to do with work 😭 and other little things that probably shouldn't get under my skin but they just somehow do anyway!! i started playing on my anti-stress apps again which has been helping but i have so many thoughts going through my head all the time. 2024 was just not it. hoping 2025 will not be as bad.
 
People have been calling off left and right lately from work because of sickness or personal stuff, which is totally valid but there are days I feel like I wanna call off but I can't because then we'd be too short staffed. We don't have enough people working the shifts to attend the registers, stock the product and help the needy and often times, ungrateful customers.

I just need a break, but I can't ask for multiple days off in a row because some random lady in another state makes our schedules, and I have these long as heck days back to back 5 days in a row with only 1 day off in between each!
 
You have OCD too or you mean clutter makes you anxious? Just want to clarify since I have OCD and I see the term misused a lot. I’m sorry that happened; not sure what that has to do with what happened with me, though. It’s just a minor problem; at least it charges when I stick it in the bottom of my ipad.
Well historically OCD in the DSM-4 was diagnosed under the anxiety disorder classification. With the updated version DSM-5 (2013) OCD was grouped in its own classification. But to answer your question, no I did not misuse the term and yes I do suffer from anxiety which is a common comorbidity of OCD. There are common misconceptions about the OCD diagnosis with people often thinking it is only identified with repetitive actions, etc. All of that being said, I do not have an official diagnosis of OCD since many behaviors associated with the disorder overlap with several others. However, I do suffer and exhibit behaviors that fall within that spectrum.
Sorry, I did not mean to offend you or to minimize your frustration with your current Apple situation. I was only attempting to connect with you by sharing my own experience with my Apple Pencil.
I hope you can get your pencil working flawlessly with the aid of Apple Customer care.
 
Well historically OCD in the DSM-4 was diagnosed under the anxiety disorder classification. With the updated version DSM-5 (2013) OCD was grouped in its own classification. But to answer your question, no I did not misuse the term and yes I do suffer from anxiety which is a common comorbidity of OCD. There are common misconceptions about the OCD diagnosis with people often thinking it is only identified with repetitive actions, etc. All of that being said, I do not have an official diagnosis of OCD since many behaviors associated with the disorder overlap with several others. However, I do suffer and exhibit behaviors that fall within that spectrum.
Sorry, I did not mean to offend you or to minimize your frustration with your current Apple situation. I was only attempting to connect with you by sharing my own experience with my Apple Pencil.
I hope you can get your pencil working flawlessly with the aid of Apple Customer care.

You didn’t offend me. I’m sorry if it seemed like I was and if it came out the wrong way. I was just curious about the ocd; I’ve seen way too many people use the term to describe something that isn’t, so I wasn’t sure how you meant it. I also was confused since your experience didn’t sound like anything like mine.
 
Dad and I had an argument over how to feed the fish and he hid my Switch again because he thinks I'm being childish. (We had a brief shouting match.)

I feel so ashamed because I was planning on participating in an MK8 session tomorrow so I can get a new collectible for a friend. Now I have to cancel my plans. I hate myself so much. Good enough is never enough, I wish I can be perfect for my family. Why is it so hard for me to change?
 
I don't wanna be in this house anymore. My family doesn't give a **** about my feelings. I've been sleeping and crying all day, as well as arguing with my family. I'm scared I messed up, and I don't know what to do.

Everything is going to ****, and I don't know if I can keep living like this anymore. I can't.
 
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I am so sorry to hear that. I feel the same way with my family sometimes, and it got worse recently. 🫂

That said...
I can't go into detail as I might get a warning for this, but my partner texted me and now I'm so worried about them. It's not going to be easy approaching this situation, but I'll have to do my best because I love them so very much.
 
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Saying goodbye to family is never easy and I probably won't see my brother again until the birth of his child at the end of next year.

Truthfully, I'm in the basket of people who like having my family around. I'm mentally preparing for the emptiness of going on my long walks and returning to an empty living room. The feeling of waking up to solitude and having nobody to speak with again.

I should probably open myself socially to others.

I am sad though. Loneliness can shatter mental health and for me it's a long, slow, painful drain on the heart. I always handle myself well during the actual 'departure' but I cry when back on my own.
 
I was excited to have my family over this past weekend for a belated Christmas. However, my sisters being at each other's throats made me wish that they hadn't visited. It's been hours since they have left and I still feel bum about it.
 
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