What's Bothering You?

I'm having trouble sleeping but I really need to because there's a chance of tornadoes tomorrow and I shouldn't deal with that sleep deprived.
 
So over being sick. My head feels like it is stuffed with cotton wool. Just cancelled on lunch with a friend. Luckily she was understanding but I still feel guilty.
 
bahaha i complained so much about how stressed i was yesterday and then when the stress was all over and i was omw home i witnessed a stabbing :lemon: now i just have to do uni work, i dont really have timeto process what happened lol but i will freely admit that i was very scared and cried like a baby
 
Ordered tickets to go to a vintage sale in an area that's far from us, and only until we got there did we find out they cancelled it for next week, which my mum would be away :mad:

Also just feel so depressed that I have been paid yet so I can't treat my mum out. She's the one with the money today, and need to make uer card when we get back DX argh just if I had more time I would've had it done already but the end of march snuck uo real quick.
 
Update on the tickets for the vintage sale, I definitely double checked and got no email or nofication - but i certainly got an email about the tickets and nothing else. Since I ordered them without logging in, I had to contact the organiser with a 'question about the event'
It also said no refunds, but like what can you do if you can;t go to the event?
They didnt tell us it was cancelled, so they're just gonna take our money and we dont get vintage clothing that my mum desperatly needed for her mod event?
 
I'm worried that when I go send friend requests to people on my switch to people from TBT, they won't recognize me. My name isn't Cetoddle769. It's my first name irl.
 
I'm really not feeling much better today.. : [

I miss him. He went out of town for a few days with his family and it sucks. I just wish he could be here to comfort me.. but I know that can't happen right now. This is not fair.. ugh.. I haven't cried much today probably because I've been trying to distract myself from feelings instead of just feeling them normally. Or maybe it's because I still have hope he'll come back and things will go back to normal.. I have always depended on others for my happiness, instead of trying to figure out who *I* am. And I guess that's something I gotta learn the hard way again.. T^T
 
It’s just been a long day. Something minor happened I don’t want to talk about. I just wish people weren’t so passive aggressive… I wish that people would keep those comments to themselves. It’s sucks that they talk about me even when I’m in listening range. I can hear what’s said. It makes me wonder what they’re thinking, but I know it doesn’t matter.
 
I haven't gotten any sleep because of the weather and a thunderstorm is about to come which I definitely can't sleep through... I'm sooo tired.
 
Last week, I had to see a traumatizing video for one of my college classes. When I was watching it, tears were threatening to form in my eyes. I was also shaking. After finishing the 30 minute long video, I couldn’t speak. I felt stuck. Over the weekend, I could not stop thinking about it. I saw it on Thursday. Last night, I had a nightmare about it. When I woke up this morning, it was still on my mind, and I feel so angry and sad about it.

I saw the video for my college History class. We were learning about World War 2.

Please don’t report me for this. I need to get this off my chest.

If you do want to get me in trouble, please reconsider. Thank you.

WARNING, BEFORE YOU READ THE SPOILER: If you’re a very sensitive person who doesn’t like scary and violent things, DO NOT READ IT. There are plenty of other things you can do instead that are much happier. Like video games. Or you could go watch funny Level Up Mario bloopers.

For those of you who are curious about what the video was about:
It was a very realistic reenactment of what the concentration camps were like in Germany. I know it’s all fake, but it seemed VERY real. Those prisoners looked so helpless. There were also tons of dead bodies. The whole experience was traumatizing. I WISH I COULD UNSEE IT. IT CONTINUES TO BOTHER ME ALMOST A WEEK LATER. I also couldn’t help but not cover my eyes. I was too intrigued. BUT I WISH I HAD ASKED TO LEAVE THE ROOM. I AM FOREVER TRAUMATIZED BY THIS. IT WAS THE MOST EVIL AND HEARTLESS ACT OF HUMANITY. I FEEL SO SAD AND ANGRY.
 
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