No, she's not dead, though if anything, I'm dead to her.
I've been kind of crying for like 10 minutes because I realized she's finally completely over me.
Let me start of by giving a slight history on our friendship:
Okay, for the sake of storytelling I'll give her a fake name
Like...
Donna. Yeah
Because I hate her as much as I hate Donna Noble (but she does make me cry occasionally)
Anyways, way back about 8 years ago in Kindergarden she forced me to become her friend. Which, I didn't mind since we ended up getting along pretty well. For the first few years she was kind of physically/verbaly abusive. Donna would push me when she got angry and call me fat and stuff, but I stayed her friend. She outgrew that stuff eventually, and even through all of that we were always best friends. We sat together every day at lunch, we hung out on the weekends, after school, over the summer, and we almost never fought (we would have small disagreements, but we'd get over them pretty fast).
Around 5th grade we actually had a whole group of friends, and things were nice. She wasn't always too keen on me having other friends, so when I was hanging out with other people she'd get jealous. But, these weren't exactly what I'd call 'weekend friends' and we only really hung out at school. In 6th grade she was pretty much done with half of the friend group and wanted me to just stop hanging with them. I didn't, and there was a bit of 'drama', but Donna and I's friendship lasted the rest of the 6th grade school year and the summer.
Over the summer I went to this camp and made a whole group of new friends. We ended up getting pretty close before the school year started, but me and Donna were still hanging out.(Note: All 3 of my new friends are in 8th, while I'm in 7th, and 2 of them don't go to my school, so I don't get to see them as much as I'd like to) On the first day of school, I made a brand new friend, who I'll call Noel. Me, Noel, and Donna were pretty good friends for about a week. After that Donna started getting annoyed with Noel and I since we had pretty similar interests and would talk about things she didn't really like. Even then, some of our old friends would sit with us at lunch when Noel and I talked, so it didn't seem like a huge deal.
One day, Donna brought a new friend to sit with us. (I'll call her Martha since I don't actually know her name) Over the course or just a few days, Donna and I started to drift quite a bit, and one day she didn't sit with Noel and I. She went to a separate table full of Martha's friends.
I was honestly pissed. We had sat together almost every day for 8 years, why was she leaving? After a week or so of this, both Noel and I were fed up. She just kind of up and left.
I had never really liked texting, but it had sort of grown on me because the friends I didn't get to see very much made a group chat, and we talked in there. I gave Noel my number and we also started to text. Donna never texted me unless she wanted information about school.
Anyways, to sum up the next month or two, Donna went to someone who she barely knew's birthday sleepover and made a new friend and I think she ditched Martha (I stopped paying attention to Martha) and made friends with a bunch of girls, who conveniently were some of Noel's group from her elementary school, who started ignoring her. I'll name a few of them, (they don't deserve fake names) Halle, who started all of this and is kind of a *****, Ingrid, who's bland as all hell, Zoe, who was Noel's really really close friend, Avery, who's picture of Donna and her hanging out last night at Donna's house (which was kind of a second home to me) set me off, made me cry, (seeing someone else in my old spot) and inspired me to write this, Chloe and some other girl who used to be on my soccer team, but only acknowledge the fact that Donna was on the team, and I think there's more but they're igsignificant.
So, to really sum up the story, I guess I'm now a no one to Donna and her new best friends, (who are the *****y clique) and it makes me sad because I put up with all of her **** for all these years.
I've always been in her shadow because she's better at EVERYTHING I wanted to call myself good at. She's prettier, smarter, a better actress, more likable, better at singing and playing instruments, and a whole lot more.
As you can see I'm bitter, kind of depressed, and crying.
I know, I probably seem whiny and stuff, but 8 years seems like a lot to just forget.
I've been kind of crying for like 10 minutes because I realized she's finally completely over me.
Let me start of by giving a slight history on our friendship:
Okay, for the sake of storytelling I'll give her a fake name
Like...
Donna. Yeah
Because I hate her as much as I hate Donna Noble (but she does make me cry occasionally)
Anyways, way back about 8 years ago in Kindergarden she forced me to become her friend. Which, I didn't mind since we ended up getting along pretty well. For the first few years she was kind of physically/verbaly abusive. Donna would push me when she got angry and call me fat and stuff, but I stayed her friend. She outgrew that stuff eventually, and even through all of that we were always best friends. We sat together every day at lunch, we hung out on the weekends, after school, over the summer, and we almost never fought (we would have small disagreements, but we'd get over them pretty fast).
Around 5th grade we actually had a whole group of friends, and things were nice. She wasn't always too keen on me having other friends, so when I was hanging out with other people she'd get jealous. But, these weren't exactly what I'd call 'weekend friends' and we only really hung out at school. In 6th grade she was pretty much done with half of the friend group and wanted me to just stop hanging with them. I didn't, and there was a bit of 'drama', but Donna and I's friendship lasted the rest of the 6th grade school year and the summer.
Over the summer I went to this camp and made a whole group of new friends. We ended up getting pretty close before the school year started, but me and Donna were still hanging out.(Note: All 3 of my new friends are in 8th, while I'm in 7th, and 2 of them don't go to my school, so I don't get to see them as much as I'd like to) On the first day of school, I made a brand new friend, who I'll call Noel. Me, Noel, and Donna were pretty good friends for about a week. After that Donna started getting annoyed with Noel and I since we had pretty similar interests and would talk about things she didn't really like. Even then, some of our old friends would sit with us at lunch when Noel and I talked, so it didn't seem like a huge deal.
One day, Donna brought a new friend to sit with us. (I'll call her Martha since I don't actually know her name) Over the course or just a few days, Donna and I started to drift quite a bit, and one day she didn't sit with Noel and I. She went to a separate table full of Martha's friends.
I was honestly pissed. We had sat together almost every day for 8 years, why was she leaving? After a week or so of this, both Noel and I were fed up. She just kind of up and left.
I had never really liked texting, but it had sort of grown on me because the friends I didn't get to see very much made a group chat, and we talked in there. I gave Noel my number and we also started to text. Donna never texted me unless she wanted information about school.
Anyways, to sum up the next month or two, Donna went to someone who she barely knew's birthday sleepover and made a new friend and I think she ditched Martha (I stopped paying attention to Martha) and made friends with a bunch of girls, who conveniently were some of Noel's group from her elementary school, who started ignoring her. I'll name a few of them, (they don't deserve fake names) Halle, who started all of this and is kind of a *****, Ingrid, who's bland as all hell, Zoe, who was Noel's really really close friend, Avery, who's picture of Donna and her hanging out last night at Donna's house (which was kind of a second home to me) set me off, made me cry, (seeing someone else in my old spot) and inspired me to write this, Chloe and some other girl who used to be on my soccer team, but only acknowledge the fact that Donna was on the team, and I think there's more but they're igsignificant.
So, to really sum up the story, I guess I'm now a no one to Donna and her new best friends, (who are the *****y clique) and it makes me sad because I put up with all of her **** for all these years.
I've always been in her shadow because she's better at EVERYTHING I wanted to call myself good at. She's prettier, smarter, a better actress, more likable, better at singing and playing instruments, and a whole lot more.
As you can see I'm bitter, kind of depressed, and crying.
I know, I probably seem whiny and stuff, but 8 years seems like a lot to just forget.
