how are you feeling right now?

Hmm, today wasn’t the worst. Therapy was good today. It didn’t get crazy hot and humid. Overall I would say i’m okay. I think that im getting a little anxious for my weekend, but i think it’s an anxious excited so im trying to work through that and not let my obsessive compulsiveness take me down into a spiral.
 
I’m feeling good? I’m waiting for my paycheck to show up in my bank account. Either tonight or tomorrow. And this should be a big one. I was just paid from Ebay, too.
 
Sleepy. I need to go to bed soon because I have a long day tomorrow. 😭
 
So. Tired. Went to bed at 4 in the morning (!!) and woke up at 7. I fell back asleep because I was obviously tired, but then I woke up two hours later.
I wanna play Wii Sports right now (I had the sudden urge to do so at 3 AM as well), but I don't think I even have the energy for that.
 
I’m going to post again because it’s a whole 360. I woke up to go to the bathroom. I woke up to get a glass of orange juice. I was going to go back to sleep. Coincidentally and ****ing conveniently, my dad had to go to work and couldn’t find any of his work shirts. He asked if I took them. He yelled in an accusatory manner which made me drop the orange juice on the floor and I had to get another glass of juice. He has the nerve to apologize before finally going to work. Oh, and I’m crying trying to go back to sleep. I feel like I cry for dumb reasons while people have legitimate reasons, I really do.
 
Tired, and my stomach hurts. But aside from that, pretty excited about a few things!
 
I’m feeling great right now, mostly thanks to my favorite person. I’m hoping it stays that way for the rest of the day.
 
Frustrated, I'm one point away from PRO level in WSR Basketball Pickup Game. 🥲 It could've been avoided if I wasn't stupid enough to tie the game. I don't wanna play another round but I have to, otherwise my 999 experience points will bother me all day.
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Woke up in the middle of the night, but feel really tired and sleepy.
 
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I’m a little bit sad. Yesterday I saw a chicken on my way home. It was running frantically on the sidewalk right next to a busy street with a bag wrapped around its body. I turned back and tried to catch it to remove the bag, but I was only making it worse. The chicken did not want to be caught and I was honestly afraid that it would run straight into a car trying to run away from me. It looked to be extremely stressed out and possibly dehydrated. She kept breathing in and out and it was during possibly the hottest day ever. I had to leave because I wasn’t doing any good, and I didn’t have equipment to capture it, or water to leave for it.

The reason I’m so upset is because no one was there to help it. I called so many numbers and they each transferred me to different departments and different organizations. I called local pet adoptions, the humane society, local farms, farm sanctuaries, animal industries and division offices, the department of agriculture, and so many more. When I explain there was a chicken that needed rescue, they all stated that they don’t really rescue chickens, and no one really knew who would.
 
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