I feel old -- always in pain, nauseous every single lovin' moment of my life, feelings of depression, feeling like I've wasted my life on nonsense.
But other times, I feel young. Like, whenever I play Nintendo games when I'm hypomanic, I feel like a little boy on Christmas. It's such a good feeling.
I’ve just turned 32, but mentally I feel younger 90% of the time, yet physically I feel so much older. It doesn’t help that almost 5 years ago I was told I had 50 year old knees because oth the shape they are in.
I feel younger, maybe like 16 again and much older when it comes to some things..
(I'm almost 29)
To add, I also don't look my age and people who first meet me in real life would think I am in my teens (but that's not the reason why I feel younger).
tbh up until I hit 12 I felt (mentally) my age. But every year since then, I think I've gone back a year. So I'm mentally 5 or 6 now which is fun I guess.
Physically... 5 or 6 I guess as well. Weak but with tons of energy and no clue on what to use that energy on.