it’s all over the place tbh. i had a really nice sleep schedule when i was younger. i still liked staying up too late and sleeping in all day, and i still had the occasional restless night, but i slept well and deeply, and without the help of any medications. i was so proud of being able to fall asleep and stay asleep on my own, as my parents (especially my mother) were reliant on sleepaids to knock them out. they still are. i’m alike them in so many ways, especially bad ones, that i was happy to be without at least one of their negative traits.
now, my sleep schedule varies night by night. some nights i fall asleep around 8pm, other nights i don’t get to bed until 2-5am. some nights i sleep well, deeply and without too many wakes in-between, other nights i wake up every 30 mins-2 hours covered in sweat and irritable for some reason. i’ve slept pretty well the past 2 days or so. the summer heat is finally upon us, which means i’m been hot, sweaty, and sleepy but overtired in my room a lot, but it finally evaporated a bit this weekend. it’s still insanely hot and hard to fall asleep, but once i get there i’m able to sleep deeply and for a while without waking up. i’m groggy and cranky when i do, though, which sucks lol. i’m also reliant on sleepaids and/or weed to make me tired enough to fall asleep most nights. some nights i’m tired enough to fall asleep on my own, but that’s a luxury now. it’s a shame, since my best sleeps are usually unmedicated.