★ I want to start by saying, thank you so much to everyone who has sent me Christmas Lights. the messages attached are some of the most heartwarming and lovely messages I've gotten this year
I would love to send lights to all my wonderful friends, but as you can see... I'm basically broke. It honestly makes me sad that these lights are temporary, I wish I could give my friends something that will last a lot longer (I suppose... my endless love and support hehehe). but anyways, I'll see if I can get more tbt to send lights to all of you
★ I've struggled to get into the holiday spirit for the last few years, so I decided to change my avatar to something a little more festive so I can hopefully do that. I just took a pic of Scolipede (aka the best buggy pokemon of all time) from the anime and slapped a Santa hat on him. he's probably not particularly amused, but honestly he's chill so it's okay haha
I will miss my other avatar though, that drawing is one of my favourite drawings anyone has made for me.
★ I've had a recipe for red velvet loaf cake that I've been wanting to make for quite a while now, and I think I may actually go get the stuff to make it today. I just feel like baking something sweet and I haven't had red velvet cake in a while, plus this particular cake has cream cheese frosting and I'm very excited about that!
★ along with that, I plan on working on drawings and writing in my journal today. I'm actually feeling a little better and I have the day off, so I'd like to take it easy and just enjoy myself for a while.
★ Yesterday started out kinda bad, wasn't feeling well all morning mentally speaking. Work went well for me, though, it was quite busy and kept me being productive. But I told myself that I would have a good evening, and I honestly really did! I got to hang out with my brother for a few hours, laughing a lot at his funny and chaotic antics (if yall think I'm wack you should see my brother lmaooo), and I also got to spend some time chatting with @/Shellzilla_515 and @/-Mars-!
it was all around a good time, and helped tremendously with my mood. they made me laugh and smile, and they were very kind to me. I'm grateful to have people like that in my life.
★ since I won't see my psychiatrist again til the end of the month and I'm getting frustrated trying to exchange messages through the receptionist, I decided to start taking my old bipolar med again. I was on it for about 9 months, and only just recently stopped taking it as per doctor's recommendation. but even though it didn't help with hypomania, it
did help with depression. taking nothing at all was just making things worse. I'm already starting to feel better, I'm definitely not depressed like I was yesterday. feeling exhausted from mental/emotional turbulence, but I'm okay. I appreciate everyone who has been sending me well messages and helping me get through it, your support means the world to me.
★ happy to live another day to spend with my loved ones (including friends), do things I enjoy, and be grateful for those things.
also need to randomly say that I'm still obsessed w the planet glow wand and it is currently bringing me an immeasurable happiness hehehe