It’s very late and I’m absolutely exhausted and so overwhelmed, but I had to come in here to talk about tonight!!
I hung out with my best friend tonight, and we talked about so much. We talked about our almost 7 years of friendship, him being busy on my birthday and how that hurt me, and literally everything else that we’ve needed and wanted to say to each other for so long.
I’ll probably talk about this in more detail after I’ve slept and the events of tonight have sunk in, but I’ve had a crush on my best friend for years now. I have never felt like this about anyone but him. We’ve spent years talking about having a future together, living in an apartment together with our cats, doing the most mundane stuff together etc, but I never knew if it was just talk or if he meant it like I did. I never knew for sure if he felt the same about me or if our back and forth flirting was just joking around, but tonight he told me that he feels the same way about me, and has for years. He told me stuff that I never knew about, like how he wrote about me and his love for me for his final creative writing project years ago. How he talks about how much he loves me to his family, friends and co-workers. How he has a whole playlist of songs that remind him of me.
There’s literally so much more that I want to say, but I’m so tired and I want to get back to him, but he’s no longer just my best friend, he’s also now my boyfriend. Literally none of this has sunk in yet I’m so happy
I’ll come back later to talk about everything else I’m happy about, I just wanted to come in here and gush for a minute!!