I am in a red rage right now.
I can't get home because I have to stay at my Dads to get to work. My mother is at home looking after my dog and cat. I asked her and she's like oh yeah no problem. I manage to get home for a few hours today to see them and get some clothes and stuff. First thing, the litter box isn't clean, my cat has proceeded to piss everywhere because of this, his food dish is empty, she's asleep on the couch and hasn't fed or put my dog out yet. So basically I come home to visit for a bit and spend the entire time scrubbing cat piss and cleaning everything (the rest of the house is a ****ing mess, she's disgusting). And of course I've been calling to ask how they are every night, and I get a cheery "Oh yeah, everybody's fine".
If you are incapable of looking after my animals than simply tell me that and I'll take them to a ****ing boarding kennel. But don't you dare tell me you can do it and then proceed to just ignore them. I will not have that, you can live in filth if you want to but they sure as hell aren't.
On top of this my dog is having health issue after health issue lately and I hate to leave her. It's all I can do to get her to her vet appointments, and she's probably going to have to have surgery soon. She's been having allergic reactions for the past month, I've been in and out of the vet with no results. I look at her and I just ****ing cry because there's nothing else I can do and it makes me sick. Between this insanity I'm trying to look for a car so I'm not so completely and utterly ****ed.
If anything during the last few weeks I've learned that none of my friends or family can be depended on for anything. I've been driving them around for months and months (neither of my parents have had vehicles for the last year or so), and yet I've been without a car for a few weeks and am only asking for drives when absolutely necessary to get to work, yet apparently I am just some huge burden to everyone around me. And my mother can not even do me this simplest of favors.
If anyone asks me for anything I swear to god they are getting a punch in the mouth. All I want to do right now is get a car, move out of this ****hole, and get far away from everybody.