What's Bothering You?

[xSuperMario64x]

nothing like telling ppl you struggle bc of autism/ADHD and the best response they can give you is "work harder."

stuff like this is what makes me so frustrated and unhappy with myself and my life. **** just never ends.

I'm content with who I am and I know my limitations, but it pains me to think that so many people, my own family included, will look at what I do and think "this person just isn't working hard enough." it's sad. I know they have good intentions but it most certainly does not come across that way at all.

Post automatically merged: Jan 10, 2023

I really wanted to clean my "room" today but I really don't feel like physically moving all of my stuff around since deep-cleaning is physically exhausting on my weak body trying to move all this heavy stuff around even though I do have the mental energy to clean I don't have the physical energy
It really sucks one of my favorite hobbies(yes I actually love cleaning) is so difficult for me to do and I can only clean for so long before I feel like I'm going to pass out

really feeling this too as of late (though in a slightly different way), I like cleaing but I've been so mentally and emotionally exhausted I can only clean a little bit before I completely wear myself out

 

[xSuperMario64x]

my family sucks fr

 

[-Raven-]

Today theres an art group meetup but I’m skipping it this week because I feel so terrible. The next week will be me trying to be presentable enough to go to the next one. I could just go but I know how I look and I’m not in the mood to draw today.

Got in an argument with a friend last night and he was saying how my current friend circle doesnt seem good for me basically, however its the best one I’ve had and idk where else to go, and it feels like he just expected me to try harder. I’m tired of trying to make friends, I hate looking for servers, I hate Discord. Even here is a cool place and idk if I even made any friends or just acquaintances. Really whenever I am in places I tend to just make acquaintances and idk where my friend expects me to find anything else. Ive had all these horrible experiences and even though they said just put my effort where I want I cant help but feel like I only look like im making excuses.

That also reminded me how lonely I am, so that’s great. And really, I really really do hate Discord as a replacement for forums, but forums are so dead.

 

[Neb]

I keep getting threatened about having all of my forum and social media accounts deleted by tomorrow. No matter how many times I change my password I’m told they can break right through it in five minutes. This is my favorite forum, so I figured I’d share. On top of that they claim they’ll delete every digital game I own and that they’ll steal all of my physical ones too.

I keep apologizing for what I did in high school (because what I did was awful), but they say they’ll never stop bothering me. They claim I deserve this for the rest of my life and that they’ll make sure I’ll never get married or have kids.

I want nothing more but for this to end.

 

[swiftieaddy13]

Spoiler: tw: sexual harrassment, SH, etc.

[/SPOILER today has been rough for me. Like super rough. i just got into a huge fight with my mother and she told me to shut the **** up (she was a little tipsy though, she’s had a hard day at work). i was sexually harassed twice by 2 different guys. I had one ask me to put my elbows together, and the other literally asked if we could hook up in a bathroom. my mother said she’s had so many opportunities to take me out of the current school i go to, but she didn’t because she knew I would be so upset about missing my friends. while i’m glad she did, i also kind of wish she didn’t. i struggle with anxiety, depression, and adhd. this school year it has decided to act up, and i’ve done so many crappy things that i regret; such as harming myself, acting ****ty to my friends because of my mood (which caused one of them to go to the AP to get help.), and other things. mentally 2022 was awful to me and i wish to never go back.]

i like going to my current therapist, it’s just the family therapy that messes me up. i feel so uncomfy going. i don’t know why.

 

[Midoriya]

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I read this earlier and I have nothing else really to say than that those people seriously make me angry. I'm so, so, so, so sorry that you're having to go through this, Benjamin. I'll never understand why some people hold on to grudges for very long amounts of time. I really hope you can get this sorted out. We'll miss you if you leave. I'll miss you.

 

[moonbyu]

i think i have adhd.. problem is, i don't think i can get tested ever cuz im only a minor and my mom wouldn't allow it :/

 

[-Mars-]

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I read your posts in here about what's happening and I always wish I could say something to help but I'm unexperienced and unhelpful with advice
I know I can't fix your problems but I want you to know you never deserved to be treated like this ever, I don't know why the universe is the way it is but this isn't meant to be
you are a wonderful, sweet and caring person Neb and you deserved to be treated properly and with love
I want you to know there are people who all care about you(I care about you) and we will miss you if you aren't here anymore, the forum wouldn't be the same without you.

 

[Mick]

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A bit of reassurance/advice from a techy person:

Spoiler

These are incredibly empty threats. There is simply no way that whoever is saying this has the skills to hack your social media accounts: depending on the platforms you use, they would be up against tech giants like facebook, google and twitter who spend ridiculous money on security. I'd honestly be very surprised if they even managed to break into smaller sites such as forums.

The only realistic way for anyone to actually do something like this would be to gain access to your main email account, request password resets, and then request account deletions/deactivations (which usually aren't even instant).

For this reason, your main email account is the account you want to protect the most. Set a strong password (that you will not forget), and enable two factor authorisation. This way, nobody will be able to gain access to it without having your actual physical phone. Make sure that any potential backup email accounts are protected as well.

You can actually enable two factor authorisation on a lot of platforms these days, even on TBT. I encourage you to look into and do this for all the accounts you are most attached to.

You will absolutely be safe after this is done. Block their messages if you can, or at least stop responding. They do not control you. This too shall pass! <3

I hope this helps. Don't hesitate to reach out if you have any questions or want to discuss it more!

 

[Alienfish]

Tried another hair dye cause the one I usually use I couldn't find. Bad **** lol.

Also wish they'd get Neopets back up, this downtime is like..6 hours overtime downtime... Meh.

Also tried booking time at this place who had ob/gyn people, they don't seem to accept new people for some reason so had to book general consultancy about birth control and stuff. I guess I can go and see what they said and maybe they can help me further and stuff but, yeah.

 

[Beanz]

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[azurill]

I am so over my coworkers not doing anything when I have a day off. Now I have to do yesterday’s work after I finish today’s. I can’t have one day off without coming back to a bunch of things to do that should have been done yesterday. It doesn’t help that the customers are mad about the store changing the aisles. I get it but unfortunately that was a corporate move and not even the store manager had a say in it. All I can do is show them where the product was moved to.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

wow I was just reading through some of my most recent posts in the old WBY thread and basically every post I made was about how stressed I was in school. sometimes it's really hard to read because it takes me back to those years of misery. I was a very unhappy person in college. don't get me wrong, I learned a lot and definitely grew and matured as a person, but it cause me so much mental and emotional (and even physical) distress I sometimes wonder if it was even worth it. to this day, almost two years after I graduated, I still deal with serious mental health issues that were likely exacerbated from my time in college. I know it had to have done something negative to my physical mind. I'm still trying to recover from those years and it's been a very difficult journey for me.

I only pray that someday I can conquer my mental health and actually start living a semi-normal life again.

 

[ali.di.magix]

wow I was just reading through some of my most recent posts in the old WBY thread and basically every post I made was about how stressed I was in school. sometimes it's really hard to read because it takes me back to those years of misery. I was a very unhappy person in college. don't get me wrong, I learned a lot and definitely grew and matured as a person, but it cause me so much mental and emotional (and even physical) distress I sometimes wonder if it was even worth it. to this day, almost two years after I graduated, I still deal with serious mental health issues that were likely exacerbated from my time in college. I know it had to have done something negative to my physical mind. I'm still trying to recover from those years and it's been a very difficult journey for me.

I only pray that someday I can conquer my mental health and actually start living a semi-normal life again.

Omg same here. I came across old posts in the What Are You Happy About thread about how happy I was when assignments were finished. I remember the relief of getting something submitted, but I’ll never forget the mental stress that college imposed on me. Whenever someone asks me if I’ll do a masters or further study I’m like hell no. The stress of doing a degree was too much. I learned a lot, but also learned a lot about myself. I learned that I get very easily burnt out. I learned that under stress I’m bound to have a meltdown eventually. I learned that I’m horrible at sitting exams.

Not only that, but bad coping mechanisms and habits have continued since. Like spending bulk hours of doing something until it’s semi finished without breaks to avoid later stress - this has carried over to my career.

I don’t think a lot of people fully realises how traumatic college can be for some people. Like having nightmares about missing exams, nightmares about missing classes, nightmares about doing something wrong so you can’t graduate years after you know you’ve graduated (in my case at least). And the thought of even being back on campus is terrifying

 

[spawnpoint]

im actually so fed up with feeling so bad from my diet im about to just NOT EAT

 

[ali.di.magix]

I’m so tired…this first week back has been the longest week ever

 

[Bluelady]

I wish that my life went back to the way it was before late December. We were happy, we weren’t financially comfortable but at least we weren’t in medical debt.

 

[spawnpoint]

I am in so much pain right now

 

[-Mars-]

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[xSuperMario64x]

my dad for whatever reason decided that this last time he bought cat food he wanted to buy something different, but you can't just change a cat's food suddenly. so one of my cats has puked up piles of food on my floor at least 4 times in the last two days and I'm getting pretty tired of it now. luckily it's abt time to buy another bag of food so I need to make sure we get the other kind again, even if it's "not as good" as the one my dad got this last time. it's honestly still really decent food so idk what he was thinking.


also I love my cats to death but I often feel like I'm taking care of all 6 of them by myself and I just can't do it. I haven't even scooped my litter box in a few days bc I've been so exhausted, and it requires more than just scooping some litter (also often requires me to change the bag which itself is a tedious process). I just don't know what to do. I don't trust anyone enough to take care of them should they be rehomed, so that's pretty much out of the question. just wish I could actually get more help around here. I can barely take care of myself, much less 6 cats AND a dog.