What's Bothering You?

[Croconaw]

My birthday just reminds me of how toxic I am. I took my birthday off all apps that I use just to see how many people care to tell me happy birthday, and not because the app tells them to.

I also don’t expect certain people to, so I’m not disappointed when they don’t. And it’s always weird because it’s the ones you think are most likely to just forget or don’t do it. It’s also just a reminder of how lonely I am. I wish today was over.

 

[ZeldaCrossing64]

My parents told me that one of our neighbors has my cat, Caramel, and that I should go see her and ask for my cat back. I have some concerns, though - What if my neighbor speaks French? I can speak French pretty well I suppose, but I tend to mess up a lot, especially when I'm nervous. What if she doesn't believe me? I have no way of proving that the cat she has is mine. What if my parents are wrong and I just end up embarrassing myself? I don't know what to do.

 

[ali.di.magix]

I have a mosquito bite on my leg next to my shin and it is very swollen right now. Theres a very large bump on my leg and it looks so weird. Too bad I'm sensitive to drowsiness with antihistamines, im going to have to take some before i go to sleep.

 

[Midoriya]

I've been worried lately that I've been focused on myself too much and have kind of forgotten about what makes me myself, which is caring about others. I've kind of felt this way ever since I landed my new job last year, but it just makes me kind of sad. I'm not sure I'm the same person I've always been anymore. : (

 

[-Mars-]

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I still like you the way you've always been, your personality makes you an amazing friend for anyone to have Riley
I think we all have things about ourselves we wish could be different, I learned a lot about myself last year and I'm still not the kind of person I wish I was but there will always be people who love you for who you are

 

[Croconaw]

You know the saying “You are who you hang out with?”

I think that accurately describes me. I mirror myself into who accepts me as a person. I want to fit in with them because I want their acceptance. I don’t have any qualities that make me myself, or at least it seems that way. I’m into Mario games, sports, and traveling, but that’s about it. It seems like those things are just a mere thought around others because I mold myself into the person I think others want me to be. I lack a stable self-image and I need to be more confident in what I like and who I want to be.

My therapist used to tell me to think of things that make me “me.” She said to forget about everyone else around me and think of my interests, and even then, I could think of little things that are me. My interests just seem so out there, like not many people would be into that. I know nobody around me is. I just need to be confident in myself and surround myself with the right people.

 

[Foreverfox]

I've been worried lately that I've been focused on myself too much and have kind of forgotten about what makes me myself, which is caring about others. I've kind of felt this way ever since I landed my new job last year, but it just makes me kind of sad. I'm not sure I'm the same person I've always been anymore. : (

I want to hopefully help you by challenging your thinking. In a sense, you’re right that you aren’t the same person, because a person who learns and grows, and has an open mind to what they put into and get out of the universe - WILL INDEED change. While you may not feel that you’ve been as caring as you’re customarily used to, I can assure you that you still are a caring individual.

Everyone changes as they get older, and sometimes it’s just the finding out how to either accept the changes we see in ourselves, or analyze them and perhaps decide to do something to about them. All that aside, focusing on yourself is never a sin, and anyone who tells you it is likely doesn’t have your best interest in mind.

 

[KittenNoir]

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[Foreverfox]

My birthday just reminds me of how toxic I am. I took my birthday off all apps that I use just to see how many people care to tell me happy birthday, and not because the app tells them to.

I also don’t expect certain people to, so I’m not disappointed when they don’t. And it’s always weird because it’s the ones you think are most likely to just forget or don’t do it. It’s also just a reminder of how lonely I am. I wish today was over.

I know what you mean, that’s a sad feeling. I was surprised that one of my best friends for over 10 years didn’t tell me happy birthday this year and my birthday is the same day as her mom’s. It’s okay to be sad, but I would not say you’re toxic at all. I‘d say it’s more of a case that other people simply can’t be bothered to think outside of themselves.

 

[KittenNoir]

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[Croconaw]

Never mind, deleted.

 

[Violet Witch]

I know what you mean, that’s a sad feeling. I was surprised that one of my best friends for over 10 years didn’t tell me happy birthday this year and my birthday is the same day as her mom’s. It’s okay to be sad, but I would not say you’re toxic at all. I‘d say it’s more of a case that other people simply can’t be bothered to think outside of themselves.

I understand this exactly one of my best friends of 13+ years forgot my bday and didn’t wish me a happy bday either after she was messaging me how thankful she was a few months before for her bday gift I got her

I had the exact same thing happen to me this Christmas. I sent my friend two presents and had nothing in return except a very short thank you message (which is unusual for them). Even though Christmas has now been and gone it still stings every now and then when I think about how much effort I put in and how little I got in return. It'll be interesting to see what happens when my birthday rolls around next month, but I have a feeling I won't get anything from them at all.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

I can't even describe how I feel rn. I guess kinda empty inside. I feel a lot of things and yet nothing at the same time.

I wish I didn't have to work today, though if I didn't I would prob just end up in bed sleeping all day. should prob also add I feel incredibly stressed and dealing w anything today might send me over the edge.

idk what to do, I wish days like today I could just skip and move on to a different day.

 

[Disneyfangirl23]

I get the feeling that some people hate me when I’m really a nice person

 

[oak]

My new meds are working great for ocd but man I feel spacey and like my head is in the clouds. Normally I have a never ending stream of images in my brain but now my thoughts are a lot more empty. I truly love not being painfully anxious but it also takes me longer to think of words & what I wanna say. Everything's just like too chill man, yknow

 

[-Mars-]

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[Croconaw]

My favorite person in the universe has forgiven me for my manipulative behaviors over the past two days and I’m thankful she’s in my life. She’s proven time and time again she does care about me and it’s taken me a while to realize that. I really don’t deserve her.

I was always the problem… testing her loyalty, even though she “passes” every time, without getting angry. She understands why I’m this way and doesn’t make me feel bad for it. The past few days have been a slap in the face, and I’m going to thank her so much tomorrow for being amazing and the best I could ever have and more.

Also, being misgendered kind of sucks especially when it’s from senior staff members, lol. (Not on this site.)

 

[moonbyu]

how do i take care of myself

 

[Mars Adept]

I hate my casually racist family. : )

 

[Beanz]

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