What's Bothering You?

[spawnpoint]

WHY DO I HAVE TO FEEL LIKE SUCH AN OUTCAST EVERYWHERE I GO (including this forum)

I think ive probably posted about it before maybe but i feel like there's only one place i belong (discord server with close friends) and in anywhere else i feel like the odd one out that everyone thinks is weird and it'd be better if I wasn't there because i just don't fit in UGHHHH

I don't think I ever had this problem before what is wrong with me

 

[ZeldaCrossing64]

Art block. Either I don't know what I want to draw, or I have a ton of ideas and none of them look good in practice. This is pretty bad timing since it's in the midst of my 100-day art challenge, but I think there might be a correlation between the two. Either way, I have a backlog of 4 characters that I have no interest in drawing and I'm feeling discouraged.

My sleep schedule's not getting any better. I feel so tired all the time and sleep in most of my classes, and because of it I don't have time at school to do my work. I know that I should be getting more sleep, but I just can't. This morning I actually woke up early but fell back asleep. What am I going to do.

 

[ali.di.magix]

Submitting tenders are so exhausting you think you're ahead, until you review it with someone else and then you realize how much crap you've actually got to do. It's just as bad as submitting assignments in school.

 

[Croconaw]

Someone has been banging/being very loud outside and it’s so disrespectful.

 

[LuchaSloth]

ROH tag team champion Jay Briscoe died. My heart hurts.

 

[Mimi Cheems]

Kind of in a predicament.

The guy I've been talking to and seeing for almost a year, may have a girlfriend. And I never knew. I had suspicions, but.. I don't know what to do. I talked to her because I've found it so hard to trust him when he told me he wasn't dating her; because of my relationship trauma. She told me she had a boyfriend, but was really vague about it. But they are so close, I just have a really bad feeling. I'm nervous that it might be him and I have to be the girl to tell her he's been cheating; for the second time. It's not easy. I love him. But my morals are much more worth to me.. I've been cheated on once, for two whole years without my knowledge. And when I found out, I told the other girl immediately. I do not like cheaters. I don't like when people refuse to communicate. I feel bad for her, because I love him. And I know she does too.. But I just can't not tell her... but they might not even be dating. So, I don't know.

EDIT: I knew if he found out I was talking to her, he'd be mad. I had to do it through another account, which makes me feel guilty. I don't want to hurt anyone. But I'm confronting him about it now, and he seems to be playing the 'I have no idea what you're talking about' card.. :")

 

[Seastar]

I'm just breaking and finding reasons to hate myself. At first it seemed silly and just me being embarrassed and depressed (and other things) but then I realized how I handle anger irl... I rarely even have anger so I didn't think about it, but it's actually really scary?? Like this is not how anger should be handled, in fact it seems against my personality.

 

[Midoriya]

I've tried very hard not to post here recently, but there is just so much going on that I can't help it. I'm still dealing with a lot of expenses around the holidays, which is fine, I'm able to pay them all, and will recover from it. But it's not just that. Been dealing with family issues and also lack of consistent sleep, with other things piled on top of it. I've done my best to keep going and remain strong, so that I can carry everyone else and myself across the finish line by myself if I have to. But there's only so much I can take. I've cried several times in the past couple days and I think that's a sign that it's really starting to get to me. I'm so tired and worn out. I need a hug from anyone.

 

[Alienfish]

I'm pretty sure you can do mistakes even if you are a good person during certain circumstances and that is okay. Hiding reasons and not telling people why things were handled badly is not, though.

 

[Clock]

I have a migraine and I don't know where it's coming from

 

[Neb]

I finally feel well enough to update about what's happening. So my account is still up. My mental health disintegrated because of the threats I heard and the feeling I could not escape my situation despite my honest attempts at apologizing for my past. I've been in a mental hospital for over a week now. Thankfully there was a PC to borrow, so I can still reach out. The medication I've been taking has stabilized my mood so far and the panic I felt is mostly gone. All that's left is dealing with the paranoia of losing everything once I can return home. It scares me deeply, but I need to go back to the real world eventually.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

****ed up while time traveling in NH and Kyle is no longer in my campsite soooo that's cool

I really really don't want to do this island journal event but I also really want that book collectible. idk I guess I'll just do a little bit every day and write entries for it. it's just that every time I play New Horizons I'm simply reminded that this game is a huuuuuge waste of potential and so incredibly disappointing. it's honestly moved basically to the bottom of my AC game ranking. it's pretty sad when I say I like Wild World more, because that's always been my least favorite AC game, but I'm kinda starting to come to that conclusion. I would really rather be playing the Gamecube or Wii games rn, but bc New Horizons is the "hip new game" I just gotta go with the flow.

 

[Foreverfox]

Not really a bother, but I’m having surgery tomorrow (outpatient) and the recovery time at home before feeling back to normal and being able to lift anything is 3-5 days. Someone please tell me how I’m supposed to go 3-5 days without holding or lifting my sweet boy

 

[Croconaw]

I hate when this guy at my job who is a regular customer says “Hi (my real name).” I know he’s just being friendly but I swear it makes me feel extremely dysphoric because I hate my real name. I’d feel wrong saying anything but hearing my real name from him just frustrates me.

 

[ali.di.magix]

Spoiler: NZ politics things

Jacinda Adern resigning really has me in mixed feelings.

I absolutely backed her in her first term and a half. I can't imagine, and don't want to imagine, any one else handling the Mosque shootings. That day is seriously one of our darkest days and she managed it with such compassion and empathy. Same with the volcanic eruption.

First response to covid in 2020 was perfect. If every other country had implemented the same plan that we did, we could've maybe ended the pandemic then and there.

However handling covid in 2021 and 2022 was...not great. The vaccine rollout was done so much later compared to other countries. We got pretty good vaccination rates, but it really should've been done sooner. We should've laxed our rules much sooner as well.

And it was all downhill from there really. I definitely lost faith in her after that. I don't like any of the other options we have for a PM going forward (read: labour party will not get re elected). It's like picking between the lesser of two (or more) evils.

If the next party in power can at least crack down on our horrific crime rate and invest more into our poor infrastructure, that's all I can hope for.

But I sure am going to miss having such a compassionate, emotionally sensitive leader. We're not going to get one of those for a long time

 

[tbro13]

My senior dog is having trouble sleeping through the night, and I played myself by doing internet research about possible causes for this. 3am now, and I’m just sitting here awake waiting for my vets office to open at 8 so I can call for an appointment to see what they have to say about it

 

[-Raven-]

This is so petty but my underwear keeps self-wedgieing. Idk what changed.

 

[ali.di.magix]

One of my workmates frustrates me so much. I need to learn to deal with how he makes me feel so bad (e.g. makes me feel like it's all my fault). He's always trying to shift the blame. I'm almost sure he has anxiety issues, which just makes my anxiety flare up.

Also my boss taking credit for almost all of my work is frustrating.

My ex-coworker also said he got a call from the GM at the place I applied for - it's exciting but also nerve-racking as I hate (potential) interviews.

 

[Clock]

I feel like a slump right now

 

[xSuperMario64x]

I got a computer monitor at a thrift store and I made sure to test it before buying, and it did turn on and worked fine, so I went ahead and bought it. brought it home and now it absolutely refuses to turn on, even after switching power cables and outlets. this is ridiculous. so much for me having a bigger and nicer monitor.