xSuperMario64x
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I'm not planning on being 100% active just yet but I will peek in here sometimes to comment on stuff (and ofc work on my island journal).
just an update on me (ik this might not be the most appropriate place for this but idk where else to post it), I'm strongly leaning towards putting in my two-weeks notice at work. as much as I'll miss some of the lovely kitties I work with, it's just too much for me. it's very overstimulating, which itself can cause me a huge amount of stress. it's very physically demanding, which isn't too much of a problem except when I get home in the afternoon I'm too tired to do anything else (ofc it's mentally draining too). my coworkers are forced to disrespect me bc my boss is a homophobe, and going into work and being misgendered constantly puts a lot of strain on me, I hate pretending to be someone I'm not for others' comfort. not to mention I've seen cats that are really sick of badly injured, (really sensitive stuff)-> just yesterday at work I saw a cat who has tested positive for feline leukemia and it absolutely broke my heart, and I can't even bear to think about the cat who had passed away the morning I got there and was still in its cage. this job is rewarding but it's honestly destroying my mental health. it's turned me into a really depressed/anxious and super impatient person. I like having an income but I don't like feeling like a miserable blob who has no motivation to do anything.
after working with animals for 6 months I have a huge amount of respect for people who do this for a living. it's kinda something that you really really have to enjoy to stick with. I love animals but I never considered working with them. the only reason I took the job I have now is because it was the first thing actually offered to me after an entire year of job hunting with no luck. now I'm finding I have to quit because, just like most other jobs (and just as I feared), my disabilities are making it really difficult for me to be able to keep up with it without going insane. I really hope I can get that library job I applied for, if not I just don't know what to do. even if I do qualify for disability/SSI I'm sure it'll be a few years before that actually happens, so I can't rely on that income. idk I just feel so lost and pathetic when job hunting, wish I didn't have so many limitations.
(and I kinda hate saying that bc people will say stupid **** like "the only limitations you have are those you put on yourself" like are you serious? when I say limitations I mean when I come home after a 4-hour shift at work I'm so stressed out I get angry super easily and I end up lashing out at my family and animals when I don't mean to. a job shouldn't turn someone into a feral creature with no self-control. people who say **** like that really irritate me and they need to shut up. unless they really genuinely understand what I deal with internally and how I feel they have absolutely no right to talk.)
so yeah, it's a whole fiasco. on the bright side, playing Flight Rising has kept me somewhat sane for the last week and a half, so that's nice.
just an update on me (ik this might not be the most appropriate place for this but idk where else to post it), I'm strongly leaning towards putting in my two-weeks notice at work. as much as I'll miss some of the lovely kitties I work with, it's just too much for me. it's very overstimulating, which itself can cause me a huge amount of stress. it's very physically demanding, which isn't too much of a problem except when I get home in the afternoon I'm too tired to do anything else (ofc it's mentally draining too). my coworkers are forced to disrespect me bc my boss is a homophobe, and going into work and being misgendered constantly puts a lot of strain on me, I hate pretending to be someone I'm not for others' comfort. not to mention I've seen cats that are really sick of badly injured, (really sensitive stuff)-> just yesterday at work I saw a cat who has tested positive for feline leukemia and it absolutely broke my heart, and I can't even bear to think about the cat who had passed away the morning I got there and was still in its cage. this job is rewarding but it's honestly destroying my mental health. it's turned me into a really depressed/anxious and super impatient person. I like having an income but I don't like feeling like a miserable blob who has no motivation to do anything.
after working with animals for 6 months I have a huge amount of respect for people who do this for a living. it's kinda something that you really really have to enjoy to stick with. I love animals but I never considered working with them. the only reason I took the job I have now is because it was the first thing actually offered to me after an entire year of job hunting with no luck. now I'm finding I have to quit because, just like most other jobs (and just as I feared), my disabilities are making it really difficult for me to be able to keep up with it without going insane. I really hope I can get that library job I applied for, if not I just don't know what to do. even if I do qualify for disability/SSI I'm sure it'll be a few years before that actually happens, so I can't rely on that income. idk I just feel so lost and pathetic when job hunting, wish I didn't have so many limitations.
(and I kinda hate saying that bc people will say stupid **** like "the only limitations you have are those you put on yourself" like are you serious? when I say limitations I mean when I come home after a 4-hour shift at work I'm so stressed out I get angry super easily and I end up lashing out at my family and animals when I don't mean to. a job shouldn't turn someone into a feral creature with no self-control. people who say **** like that really irritate me and they need to shut up. unless they really genuinely understand what I deal with internally and how I feel they have absolutely no right to talk.)
so yeah, it's a whole fiasco. on the bright side, playing Flight Rising has kept me somewhat sane for the last week and a half, so that's nice.
