What's Bothering You?

Yes, I have absolutely nothing in common with them and it’s been only me supplying them with alcohol. Clearly they’ve never had my best interest in mind and I was gullible to think there was a friendship there. I don’t think there was.

Thank you for replying!
 
i don’t want to sound dramatic or vague, but tonight was genuinely so traumatizing. i really need things to start getting better, because oh my god. this night has been a nightmare.
 
so this girl who used to bully me in middle school is requesting to follow me on instagram. well.. idk how to put it, she usually was nice to me alone and we’d talk sometimes but with her friends she was mean. i also kind of overshared one time about how i may have had a learning disability and she told all that to her friend.

i feel like im being petty, a part of me wants to decline her request but another part of me says that middle school was a very strange time, and she may have changed.

my art account on instagram is public (unlike my private personal account which she is requesting to follow.) so if she really had beef w me she could just go on there but idk im kind of paranoid she’s going to share my personal account with her friends.

also my personal ig is full of cringe LMAO, kind of don’t want her to see that
 
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It’s probably stupid being upset about this now, but my dog Molly passed away a year ago today. I had her for ten years. My biggest regret is not saying goodbye to her. I had no idea she was going to be put down, and I didn’t say anything because I refused to believe she was dying. It doesn’t help that there are flowers popping up that are pink and yellow, the two colors I associated with her.
 
Tomorrow an art club has an open day. I just don’t want to go. Just two weeks ago I would have had great questions.

My emotional baggage is killing me. It got my hobbies, it got my happiness And all my optimism

i hate seeing myself like this but i hate trying to fix it for no returns
 
"I might get a nice first job soon, I have been looking for one for a while and honestly I should be happy but... I'm not. It might be a good position but is for a career that I never truly wanted and I realized it too late now, I just keep thinking in all the other paths that I could have taken if it were not for me not being brave enough to drop out in time. I know this could be good in the end to open new doors to better things and maybe even achieve my dream job one day, but I'm not getting younger (I am young but sometimes I don't feel it at all...) and sometimes it feels like a battle between what I want, what I could've had, and what I'm going to get, I've even started doubting if pursuing my dream is worth at all..."
 
I don't usually have an issue w this but I took my meds this morning without eating first and it made me feel really sick and nauseated 😭

I munched on a snack cake and had some water with it, and I also took a promethazine, so I think im okay now. I'm just worried abt the promethazine making me really tired, bc I want to record my reaction to all the SMB Movie trailers for my channel for Mar10 Day, but if I'm really tired I won't be able to.
 
It"s one of those days when I bump into everything. I hit both my knees, slipped on ice and hurt my elbow, walked in vomit, walked in the pet water bowl, broke a jar less than a minute after buying it, cat peed on my boots and now I need to print something important but forgot to buy paper... I'm a liitle bit annoyed.
 
One of my neighbors has my cat Caramel and we tried getting her back, but my neighbor won't budge... So my dad called the cops and we're gonna prove to them she has Caramel and get my cat back that way. We have proof and everything, but I'm scared it won't work... I'm just so ******* upset about it. My cat was an early Christmas present when I was 11 years old and I love her to death, and my neighbor won't give her back. Why couldn't she just make it easy?

Edit: Quick update, my dad talked to the police, and... We might have to sue my neighbor and go to court to get my cat back. I feel like I should be happy 'cause there's a big possibility of getting Caramel back, but... If my neighbor just gave her back from the start, we wouldn't have to do this. And my parents are arguing 'cause my step-mom is pissed about having to get off of work for this, so that's great...
 
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I feel like I've been gaslighted by this new doctor I just went too. Basically I tried my best to explain the medications I'm taking and trying to explain my past medical history but this new doctor is just becoming too dismissive saying things like "Well we have to do our work here so your medical records won't help because of how outdated it is" I mean what? This doctor doesn't know anything about me and already I am annoyed.

Then as if that wasn't bad she decided to fat shame saying about how much weight I have even though I keep trying to tell her that I've been excercising, cutting down on calories and eating healthy foods, but then she has to give me the same darn boring lecture about how consuming too much junk food is "bad" for you. Like gee as if I haven't heared that 500 times.

Finally at the end she tells me to come back in 3 months for blood work just to see how stuff is going with my blood results. I keep trying to tell her to see my past lab results to get a good idea of what is going on with me but she becomes dismissive saying "Well its not going to help because I need to see updated blood results to get a better idea of what treatment to give you". After when my appointment was done I just went home and screamed in frustration. Who would've thought getting a new doctor would be this difficult?
This isn't what you want to hear, but it sounds like your new doctor is doing everything by the book - and that is 100% what they are meant to be doing. If they can't sign off on the fact they did things properly then they could later face legal action if it were to find out they had missed something that was detrimental to your health or, God forbid, mortality.

Anytime you switch doctor or practice, they're going to need to thoroughly assess your health and highly likely give you information you've already heard before. It is a requirement and they don't know for certain that it has been explained to you correctly elsewhere. Instead of getting frustrated, please try to work with them. If you don't understand the need for something then ask them why. The likelihood is that they are obligated to both by their employer and the professional regulatory bodies that audit the practice.

It is also worth noting that blood work can change very rapidly - I had two full blood count tests done very close together a few years ago. I initially thought it was silly they wanted to do another so soon. Well, it wasn't silly. The first showed I was completely fine and healthy (as had all blood tests I had had up until that point) and then the next showed I had developed an autoimmune disease. If your doctor thinks a blood test is necessary, get it done.


I ****ing hate minors lol but I guess it’s my own fault because I let them use me for alcohol in exchange for friendship. I will never be friends with another minor again. I just can’t trust them or my dumbass not to let them use me. They’re so immature and are not good people to be friends with. I can’t do it anymore.

Lol like I said, they will NOT BE TRUSTED. I had another panic attack thanks to one of them.

Befriending minors is tricky, and normally something I would advise against altogether, although if I am remembering correctly these are people you work with so of course it is understandable that you want to get along with them. However, even if you have good intentions it isn't a good idea to treat minors with the same level of familiarity as you would people in your own age group. As the legal adult you should ideally be making an effort to maintain a level of professional distance - for your own safety as well as theirs. What you have described in your post violates the law and puts young people's safety and wellbeing at risk. For that reason we are going to ask that you refrain from talking about this topic further on TBT - and we would strongly advise against engaging in this type of behaviour again.


I'm feeling really conflicted bc a few days ago I sent a family friend (the same person who offered me a job at a local cat rescue) a message to see if she could find a foster home for one of our cats, bc she's been difficult to deal with, but now I feel really conflicted. she's not a bad cat at all, she's just very finicky and she honestly should be in a home with at most 2 other cats, not 5. honestly if I lived on my own and it was just her and my older cat I would be able to handle them. I just have a difficult time handling 6 cats at once.

I feel like I will be in a much better place soon, since I started my bipolar med and I'm working on recovering and unlearned all the stuff I got from having poor mental health. and who knows, once I've taken care of myself maybe I can handle all those cats. but right now it's still super difficult. and I just don't know what to do abt the one cat.

I know this for sure, when I'm on my own I def wouldn't want more than two cats. the older I get the more I lose my patience for them. 6 is too many to deal with.

If you think it would be better for the cat to be rehomed, and it sounds like it is, then the fairest thing to do is to let her go. Six cats would be a lot of work for anyone. You shouldn't feel bad about it if it is genuinely the best decision for both you and the cat.
 
If you think it would be better for the cat to be rehomed, and it sounds like it is, then the fairest thing to do is to let her go. Six cats would be a lot of work for anyone. You shouldn't feel bad about it if it is genuinely the best decision for both you and the cat.
yeah I know its for the best, she's more trouble than it's worth when we have this many cats. I'm hoping she can find a home with maybe only one other cat bc she doesn't like to share a litter box and our other cats will just use whatever box without preference. It'll be sad letting her go though bc in June it will have been two years since we adopted her so I'm pretty attached. but yeah im sure she will have a better life somewhere else.
 
This isn't what you want to hear, but it sounds like your new doctor is doing everything by the book - and that is 100% what they are meant to be doing. If they can't sign off on the fact they did things properly then they could later face legal action if it were to find out they had missed something that was detrimental to your health or, God forbid, mortality.

Anytime you switch doctor or practice, they're going to need to thoroughly assess your health and highly likely give you information you've already heard before. It is a requirement and they don't know for certain that it has been explained to you correctly elsewhere. Instead of getting frustrated, please try to work with them. If you don't understand the need for something then ask them why. The likelihood is that they are obligated to both by their employer and the professional regulatory bodies that audit the practice.

It is also worth noting that blood work can change very rapidly - I had two full blood count tests done very close together a few years ago. I initially thought it was silly they wanted to do another so soon. Well, it wasn't silly. The first showed I was completely fine and healthy (as had all blood tests I had had up until that point) and then the next showed I had developed an autoimmune disease. If your doctor thinks a blood test is necessary, get it done.
I already cancelled the appointment and I am going to see a specialist. I apperciate you trying to give context but right now I am going back to my old primary care doctor. They at least have my records. While I understand that blood work changes all I wanted them to know was to understand what my medical history was but the new doctor just didn't seem to care. You may not see it that way but the way I see it, it was disrespectful to me.

Again and I cannot stress this enough I don't like it when doctors weight shame me. Why is that whenever I go to the doctor they always tend to lecture me about losing weight. Like I get it and I don't need to hear again. I cannot tell you how many times I explained to them that I trying so hard to lose weight and they keep shaming me as if I am not losing any. Its a very senstive and frustrating topic for me that really affects me mentally.

Forgive me if this is sound a bit rude, but its that I have had a bad experience with doctors and it hasn't always been the best. I will take your advice and get blood work from a specialist because I have to go see an endocrinologist because I've been having problems with my blood sugar latley and then hopefully they will understand my situation better. Its just been rough these past few years.
 
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I’ve dropped them completely since writing that post. I’ve been on a much better mood since doing so. I’m going to keep my distance from minors from now on - although the ones I’ve been writing about were 18/19 respectively, still underage.

Thanks for the advice.
 
Again and I cannot stress this enough I don't like it when doctors weight shame me. Why is that whenever I go to the doctor they always tend to lecture me about losing weight. Like I get it and I don't need to hear again. I cannot tell you how many times I explained to them that I trying so hard to lose weight and they keep shaming me as if I am not losing any. Its a very senstive and frustrating topic for me that really affects me mentally.

Forgive me if this is sound a bit rude, but its that I have had a bad experience with doctors and it hasn't always been the best.

Unfortunately doctor visits are generally not a great experience because that's not the goal, people tend to only see them when there are problems. It is exactly a doctor's job to find and point out those problems and their causes. They cannot pretend that all is well because of sensitive topics, or ignore/talk their way around the cause of potentially dangerous health issues because they are there to protect you from those.

I get that it's rough, but professionally confronting people with information they don't want to hear is part of what doctors have to do. Please don't see that as shaming or bullying, because they definitely do not mean it that way. If you're struggling with losing weight, they should be more than happy to share advice if you ask for it. If you're already trying and are on the right track, then you get to proudly tell them that, and you have nothing to be ashamed of. Good luck with the road ahead! I genuinely hope and believe that things will get better for you.
 
i've come to realize that i'm graduating high school in about 100 or so days and i still haven't done a damn thing with myself
 
This is such a lame problem to have, but I literally have too many video games that I want/need to play. And I feel like I'm being pulled in so many directions and don't even know which one I truly WANT to play. I'm playing Pokemon Platinum as part of my Living Dex project. I still need to do some more work in Emerald and Leaf Green for the Dex. I also need to play Pokemon XD: Gale of Darkness. I need to get back to Pokemon Scarlet to catch the two new Pokemon, Walking Wake and Iron Leaves. I've played World of Warcraft for almost 20 years, and their newest update is making me want to play again. I haven't touched Final Fantasy XIV's recent patch and need to catch up on the story. My husband really wants me to play more Hogwarts Legacy with him. I have the itch to play Animal Crossing and thought about doing a a new layout on my island, but that's a ton of work. Grrrr...

I work six days a week, and I'm not the kind of person to skimp out on my self-care (showering/bathing, eating, housework) or sleep for gaming, so I have minimal time to do anything. I wish I could just take a week off to get a few things knocked out.
 
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