What's Bothering You?

I had parents like that. I was expected to find a job before legal age at most places and pay for my own stuff but it had to be within walking distance because I have to buy my own car and they didn't want me to drive thiers. Then it was changed to ok you can drive our car but you can't work outside of town.
The town I lived in had two small convenient stores and 3 gas stations and like 4 pizza places. Most of the buildings were empty and unfit to be in because they were old empty and not kept. Sometimes spontaneous fires because of the wiring. One of the convenient stores closed. Very worn down town. It wasn't a good place to be in and still isn't.
I also got yelled at for being at home after school or for not being home after school.
They were just unhappy people is how I viewed mine.

Sorry you have to deal with that. It's very frustrating and stupid. Not sure I'd have advice. I just called them out on it at the time and didn't get good results. However they did leave me alone about stuff for a bit.
But your not alone dealing with that kind of stuff.
 
Petty but I need a bottle opener and I don’t have one. I want to drink a soda but I can’t due to not being able to open it. 🙄
 
ate dinner and it was actually pretty good, but I can't even enjoy myself now bc I feel kinda nauseated from eating. I didn't even finish all my food and it's still making me feel sick. hopefully this feeling goes away soon, I'm trying to work on commissions but I'm really tempted to go lie down again.
 
can't sleep and also can't stop talking (to myself and my cats lol) about super mario 64 stuff, normally wouldn't care except my IOP session starts at 8:30 and it's 3:30 rn 🥲
 
My bad allergies came back when I visited someone, I wanted to stay longer there but it was unbearable.
 
I'm beginning to think I sincerely have OCD, like not in the "haha I love to be organized way!" but like in the pathological, "if I think I got myself dirty (usually at work) I cannot stop thinking about the perceived dirtiness until I wash my hands/take off the soiled scrub top/do something else to alleviate it" way. I also frequently have to ask multiple people for reassurance (typically regarding contamination!) before deciding okay I'm probably okay. Thus far I wouldn't say it's caused me actual harm, but I hate that feeling that I just can't let something be without it niggling at my brain until I finally do something to get rid of it. And tbh for that reason since it hasn't given me a full-blown panic attack or anything I'm like well, is it even OCD? Or just some obsessive thoughts around pretty reasonable things. I have a fair amount of coworkers who are pretty lax about safety (a lot will work without lab coats on, and some will even take tops off tubes without gloves on which really grosses me out) that I can't tell if I'm just reasonably safety-conscious or safety-conscious to an extreme

The irony that I have become so extremely germophobic, as someone who studied microbiology extensively in college, is also not lost on me
 
As much as I like the freedom of being an adult, I hate how much more quickly time passes for me. These past three years have both felt like an eternity and very brief. Each day passes by quickly too. I feel like it gets dark not long after I wake up even though I get up at 8 a.m.
 
allainah said:
Today's my cat Teddy's birthday.... sadly he passed 03/31/2021 </3 I can't stop thinking about him and just wanting to hold him one last time
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Sorry to hear about your cat. I lost my kitty Lulu last year and I still think about her sometimes. Sadly she was the one of the three we had that I loved the most. I don't understand why the best people and animals always die first. :/

Hopefully Teddy is in a better place now. 💚

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This week has barely started and I'm already kind of done to be honest. Work being heavy today didn't help, either. 😑
 
I had to get my engagement ring re-sized, and when I got the ring back, the stone wasn't the original stone, and I could immediately tell. So that's a big issue that we're taking up with the jeweler. Not cool. I hope I can get my original back.
 
i really don't want to go on my school's field trip tomorrow. it's a field trip just for the art kids and i unfortunately need to go because my parents don't like it when i don't participate. we're going to watch a highschool production play, and im mostly stressed about where im going to sit on the bus.
 
Everytime I wake up I try to make myself feel happy but then It feels forced. I have days where I just question everything around me and I just feel terrible. Then I have days where I am lonely and no one to talk too (other than my parents since I live with them). These are the statements that just comes to my head:

"Why can't I do more in life?"
"Why is it so hard to get a job?"
"How do I get through these hard times?"
"Am I trying too hard to be happy and act like everything is okay but when in reality its not?"

Its really hard to feel happy when bad stuff is happening around that is out of my control but, there is not much I can do and I just have to accept it for what it is.
 
I don’t even know how I sprained my neck, but I did. Pain goes down that arm. It was worse in the last two days but it made it hard to sleep.

I took painkillers but even though they helped the neck pain they made me nauseous and otherwise didn’t help any pain in my body.

Aside from that I’m extremely bored and not motivated for anything other than spending time with my bf
 
Midoriya said:
Sorry to hear about your cat. I lost my kitty Lulu last year and I still think about her sometimes. Sadly she was the one of the three we had that I loved the most. I don't understand why the best people and animals always die first. :/

Hopefully Teddy is in a better place now. 💚

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This week has barely started and I'm already kind of done to be honest. Work being heavy today didn't help, either. 😑
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Thank you for your kind words <3 Teddy was also my favorite pet : ( I'm so sorry that you can relate to that, it's truly heart breaking. And so true that it seems the best people/animals always have to pass away early on </3 Sending big hugs your way!
 
My mom got covid (on her birthday) and her hip surgery has been canceled as a result, she's so broken up about it.
I was supposed to fly across the country to help her while she recovered, and already bought plane tickets that can't be canceled. So I'll be going now and may not be able to take the time off or afford tickets again when she does get the surgery. What a mess smh
 
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