What's Bothering You?

[Violet Witch]

I already cancelled the appointment and I am going to see a specialist. I apperciate you trying to give context but right now I am going back to my old primary care doctor. They at least have my records. While I understand that blood work changes all I wanted them to know was to understand what my medical history was but the new doctor just didn't seem to care. You may not see it that way but the way I see it, it was disrespectful to me.

Again and I cannot stress this enough I don't like it when doctors weight shame me. Why is that whenever I go to the doctor they always tend to lecture me about losing weight. Like I get it and I don't need to hear again. I cannot tell you how many times I explained to them that I trying so hard to lose weight and they keep shaming me as if I am not losing any. Its a very senstive and frustrating topic for me that really affects me mentally.

Forgive me if this is sound a bit rude, but its that I have had a bad experience with doctors and it hasn't always been the best. I will take your advice and get blood work from a specialist because I have to go see an endocrinologist because I've been having problems with my blood sugar latley and then hopefully they will understand my situation better. Its just been rough these past few years.

Doctors aren't out to shame you, they're there to help you get back on track health wise and sometimes that means having the same conversations over and over that you simply don't want to hear. They'll have similar conversations with smokers, drinkers and even drug addicts in order to help them out in the long terms. It's not a pretty conversation to have but if they don't say anything then they're not doing their jobs properly. They're the experts for a reason and know what causes health problems and regardless of what society says about the human body, it's their job to redirect it back to reality. You never know, this doctor could really help you out in the long run, you just have to be willing to give them a chance and not run in the other direction after one appointment. Believe me I've had uncomfortable conversations with my doctor in the past, but I've stuck with them because I know they have my best interests at heart.

 

[-Raven-]

I feel so incompetent. I made it to the open day but there were so many people in the studio I decided I would just leave. Couldnt take it.

The location its in now feels like a trigger for me. It feels like things are turning into triggers. I can’t handle anything.

 

[Clock]

Had the most intrusive dream last night and it was so bad I was anxious when I woke out of it, went back to sleep and it went back until I woke up

 

[VanitasFan26]

Doctors aren't out to shame you, they're there to help you get back on track health wise and sometimes that means having the same conversations over and over that you simply don't want to hear. They'll have similar conversations with smokers, drinkers and even drug addicts in order to help them out in the long terms. It's not a pretty conversation to have but if they don't say anything then they're not doing their jobs properly. They're the experts for a reason and know what causes health problems and regardless of what society says about the human body, it's their job to redirect it back to reality. You never know, this doctor could really help you out in the long run, you just have to be willing to give them a chance and not run in the other direction after one appointment. Believe me I've had uncomfortable conversations with my doctor in the past, but I've stuck with them because I know they have my best interests at heart.

Please understand the last time I listen to a Doctor's advice it didn't go over well. They gave me medications in the past to help control my weight but as a result it didn't work out the way it was suppose too, Therefore. I had more health complications as time went on. It got so bad that I was rushed to the hospital. The doctors and nurses told me that certain medications I was on was the cause of the incident. I only found out about this when I was going through my past medical records and they made a note of that.

Then there was the time I was prescribed a medication that was supposed to help me lower my Cholestrial level and then it causes me to feel symptons of muscle soreness, fatique, and my blood sugar was high. I spoke to a pharamicst at Walgreens (which is my local pharmacy) and then told me to stop taking it. Since then my symtoms faded away.

I know you and others are trying to make me see the good side of doctors and nurses, but here is the thing I know that they are just doing their job. I spoke to my old primaray care doctor about this and she even told me that its "health protocols" they have to follow and she is not a fan of it so much. While I understand doctors need the full story of what is going on with the patient it needs to be said that in the medical records it explains whats going on with my medical history. I will take your advice and try to give them a chance but just understand as someone who is autitsic I am always stressed whenever I see doctors, I already take medications for high blood preassure so its hard for me to remain calm.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

I desperately want to get a new video out on my youtube channel. I need to tone back my, uhhh, not so child friendly speech haha

 

[nightglow]

I just feel so tired today and it annoys me. It's like my body is sleeping without me actually sleeping. I'll probably try taking a nap, but idk if I can sleep.
Also, some world stuff is really bugging me but they are all gonna do what they want. Alway$ have, alway$ will.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

I've been going by my chosen name for almost 2 years now, so when people say my former name it sounds so weird and honestly uncomfortable.

 

[ali.di.magix]

I really don't like how my flatmate takes care and treats his dog. She's been allowed to stay inside and roam around outside in our back yard freely in the past. Now she's tied up outside or stuck in his room all the time. She barks and cries a lot and seems less happy. Not to mention, she's in a desperate need of a bath. Personally I wouldn't do that to a dog who is used to being able to roam freely, it's like a shock to the system when you try to change that. She's a pretty friendly dog and was always so cuddly

 

[ZeldaCrossing64]

I overheard my dad explaining our current situation to my uncle on the phone, and he mentioned something about our neighbor getting our cats operated... He didn't tell me anything about that. Were they neutered, declawed? I don't know. I'm really worried, though...

 

[Croconaw]

Not me considering getting a game I’m not interested in just because some of my friends are getting it. (Tears of the Kingdom)

I just can’t get a Zelda game to hold my attention. I know it’s popular, I just feel weird because I can’t find appeal like everyone else. I liked Wind Waker, but that’s about it…

 

[VanitasFan26]

Not me considering getting a game I’m not interested in just because some of my friends are getting it. (Tears of the Kingdom)

I just can’t get a Zelda game to hold my attention. I know it’s popular, I just feel weird because I can’t find appeal like everyone else. I liked Wind Waker, but that’s about it…

Thats how I felt after getting Breath of the Wild. I tried it out for like 8 hours and then I just stopped and traded in. I tried to give it a chance but I am just not a huge Zelda fan. I don't like puzzles in general and the game had a lack of direction of what you're suppose to do. I got so lost in that game.

 

[Croconaw]

Thats how I felt after getting Breath of the Wild. I tried it out for like 8 hours and then I just stopped and traded in. I tried to give it a chance but I am just not a huge Zelda fan. I don't like puzzles in general and the game had a lack of direction of what you're suppose to do. I got so lost in that game.

Yeah, I just feel out of place not liking one of the most popular gaming franchises or being able to get into it. It feels like I was trying to force myself with Wind Waker. I need to take more pride in my own interests.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

my anxiety has been pretty bad all evening/night

 

[xSuperMario64x]

someone please enlighten me on how despite the clocks going forward an hour I STILL managed to wake up two hours earlier than normal?? I'm so tired rip

 

[VanitasFan26]

someone please enlighten me on how despite the clocks going forward an hour I STILL managed to wake up two hours earlier than normal?? I'm so tired rip

I can't answer that but a I was woken up by a thunderstorm in my area. It was around 7 AM when I woke up. My sleep has been getting better since I've been doing daily walking. Anyways Daylight Saving Time can be a pain to handle and it messes with your brain.

 

[Disneyfangirl23]

My Uncle died Thursday and no one knows the cause of death yet

 

[Stella-Io]

My parents love going back and forth.

So I've been job searching recently which hasn't gone the best. I did potentially get a job at one place, however it seemed like an under-the-table kind of thing and that it would 1099, which means I would have to pay in all the taxes the employeer wasn't paying. Also a 1099 counts as self employment, which means 20% of what I make is automatically taken. That doesn't include all the other taxes I have to pay.
On top of that, it was a salary job, 80$ a day. When you start doing the math, that means for an 8hr work day I'm not even making min wage. Min wage in my state is at 12$. I was there for 8hrs on a 'test' day when I was told 4-5 AND they didn't even give me a full LEGAL 30 mins break. The place was also a mess and I didn't have a good feeling about it anyway for multiple reasons, which I told my parents.

NOW my parents are gettin on me about driving my car, the same car that has been sitting under the tree for 3yrs untouched. The last time my car was moved was before the pandemic broke out in March. It was driven in Febuary. They want me to get insurance and the full permit, but don't want me to have a job at the same time cause 1 they don't want to drive me anywhere and 2 they don't ever want me to ask for time off so I can get the full permit.

So now I would be paying for the classes, permit and insurance while not having a job, which I told them after I get a job then I will get the insurance cause I don't want to spend money on somethin I'm not using (the car) but now suddenly it's a problem. Suddenly now I need to stop calling places to get a job and get my car situation fixed out. But they also don't want to drive me anywhere.
Also, my Dad said I could have had a job by now so I would have some source of money, the salary one that couldn't even pay me min wage, but then that goes against the 'don't take time off from your job' thing. Like, what do they want me to do? They keep changing their minds. It's been 3yrs they had all this time to help me get situated. I owned the car while working my grocery store job a year before and during the pandemic!!! They could have helped me get a full permit and insurance then!!! That was over 3yrs ago!

Edit: ALSO also! I need new glasses. But I can't make the appointment now since they don't want to drive me anywhere, but I also have a hard time seeing **** cause my prescription is over 5yrs old and I need a new one to see properly, so I can, ya know, DRIVE.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

pms

 

[ali.di.magix]

Having new management on board is cool but frustrating. Like I can see them trying their best, but I can't help but sit here and think that things could be better. One new manager likes to do the bare minimum, not investigate into issues, and also not build relationships with suppliers/clients so far. The old manager was the complete opposite; rearranging his staff constantly to meet everyone's needs and had fantastic relations with clients/suppliers (however not so much with his staff). The other new manager is letting his staff roll over him, which I warned him in advance to not do that. However, I can understand as his staff are ****ing difficult to manage (I know from experience lmao). I've offered to help both of them, but neither of them seem to want it. I can just see how things could be done better, but until they get used to the jobs it's going to take a long time.

Also just realised that my company blocks the TBT shop as it thinks it's a scam LMAO

 

[boring]

me when my bipolar is bipolar-ing: i feel like im going clinically insane