I'm just so tired from not sleeping well last night and most of the week gone by. I just hate feeling like I'm not all here and that I could fall asleep at any minute.
My headphones broke and I get very unhappy and bored when I suddenly can't have music. I also don't like listening to it without headphones because I'm weirdly self-conscious about other people hearing it.
My mom gave me her headphones since mine broke but they heavily smell like mosquito repellent and I don't want to have that around all day. Uggghh.
I think it already got on my hands...
I’m just gonna cut this short because a lot happened today but my grand dad collapsed and idk what else happened after, my mom still isn’t home, this just suddenly happened when I got off my ass to walk, I feel like I can’t even have a small victory like a walk without something going wrong, and it seems pretty bad, I just want to sleep this off, my body is sore and I have a headache because I didn‘t bother getting up and cooking, and my bottom teeth have some stains because i had to rely on mashed potatoes a lot when i was sick n didnt realise how bad theu were and missed brushing a few times, i NEED A BREAK, i MISS DRAWING
edit: he’s okay right now. The other issues are there and my teeth hurt somewhat more.
I had a moment this morning where I wanted to share some exciting news with someone who I knew would be as equally as excited as me about it and then I remembered that they no longer speak to me. That moment I remembered was like being punched in the gut all over again.
My sleep deprivation got the best of me. My moods have been totally wonky and now, i'm considering getting checked out for it. At first, the staying up late was a joke. Now I wake up early for no reason at all. Ugh! Idk if it's insomnia or some other sleep related illness.
My aunt told me she thinks my dad is losing his mind so now me and my sister have to sign all this paperwork adding us to the house deed and bank accounts and idk how to be an adult. My mom & dad think it's a great idea. I'm about to be 30 in 2 months and I feel like ive fallen behind everyone else my age. I guess it's time to step up or something idk.
I’m having some productivity issues. I’m supposed to work on my game, but I was more in a daydreaming mood and slept a couple of times today. I can’t keep wasting days away.