What's Bothering You?

I got sick a few days ago after going to the job fair and I'm feeling pretty miserable. My head hurts, I have a sore throat and I'm nauseous. Ugh...

The fact that I'm not getting enough sleep is definitely not helping, either. I pulled an all-nighter during the weekend and I went to bed at 4:30 AM last night. That one's on me, but it's still.
 
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oof trying to figure out a sleeping position that doesn’t aggravate my neck or my tooth I just got a root canal in today (hint it’s none of them) :\
 
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I’m still a bit troubled about Genshin changing my email to a different one without telling me or asking. When I was still trying the game out and rerolling, that was the only time I entered the email in. I realize maybe in the terms of service or something it mentions something about being able to use our personal info, but still, some prompt like would you like to switch emails for your genshin account on hsr would have been nice.

This depression medicine I take when needed makes me so tired and it makes me fall asleep each time.

Today wasn’t terrible but just feel kinda meh and frustrated.
 
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I really, really wish this week would just go already. I'm so tired from work, when all I wanna do is focus and have fun with the event going on, but I just haven't been able to.
I try and do, say the writing activity at work when it's dead but then the motivation isn't there. I know I shouldn't stress over getting these activities done, but I really care about this one, and it's a lot of fun.

Having to wake up 5am, go to work try and get there before 7am because that's when it opens and I can't get anuthing done. Finish at 12pm (if hes here on time), have to go back at work at 3.30 but hald the time inbetween is travelng to and from work and eating lunch.
 
My dog had possible blood in her urine yesterday and the vet said they can't get her in until April. Now I'm sitting in animal urgent care and my dog is freaking out because she doesn't recognize this place, and the appointment is going to be over $1000 😭 this month has been so hard.

Edit: Moxxi is home now and feeling sleepy and a little loopy. She has a bad UTI and is now on antibiotics to treat them, but she's got normal kidney function so that's good. Waiting on test results to see if there are further issues.
 
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I must've jiynxed myself when I told my mum I'll be leaving work on time tomorrow.
My boss said there will be a technician coming tomorrow and o need to stay till he finishes ;_;
 
Getting stressed out because there are so many things wrong. There's been mold in the hallway and I fear for it coming to my room. There's also literally a hole in my bedroom floor, that I have been covering up to prevent myself from having panic attacks when I see it.
I still have health problems which surprisingly aren't even related to the state of the house, but I'm probably feeling worse because of it anyway.
I found wasps inside my window. This is not the first time and I don't know what to do about them since I asked and nothing happened. Oh, it's also really hot today! Thanks climate change.
I forgot to mention we're kinda poor. I am still waiting for healthcare and I don't have any clue what can be done about the house.
That's not even everything, but I don't want to keep talking.
 
My troubles with work are slowly being fixed, but I've still got a continuing problem in regards to my social life and after-work motivation.

It's been well over five months since I've had any form of contact with the real life friends I still had. I've mentioned before that I've been in sort of a "lone wolf" mood, but now I'm beginning to realize how lonely this lifestyle really is. All my daily schedule consists of these days are work, eat, maintain my room and car, and sleep. I could be doing so much more with my life right now, but it's sort of hard to go out and do things if I've got no one to tag along with other than my parents. I frequently spend a ton of days when not working sitting in my room or doing pointless things around the house in general. After a work day, my motivation is even worse as I'm usually incredibly unproductive by browsing the internet or watching TV. I've also gained a ton of weight and lost energy since gaining these routines. This lifestyle sucks and I want it to change.

One of my close friends had a sudden breakup with their long-term girlfriend last year, and he hasn't been the same since. The few times I tried to reach out, he'd usually leave me on read or reply that he's not in the mood. This lasted all summer. When I was able to hang out with him again at a bar, his mentality changed. He became friends with others I didn't like whom I've never met that he brought, and his opinions about sensitive things (to me at least) became stronger. It got to a point where I started to gain a real headache at the end of the night and told him that I had to go home. Since then, we haven't talked, and I believe our friend group in general mutually agreed to part ways shortly after as he quietly left the group chat. Also, we've always had differing political opinions throughout our friendship, but we knew very well to keep such things to ourselves and focus on our interests instead. With this year being election season, it's probably for the best that I don't hear him talk about politics and potentially get me angry.

In regards to other old friends I could potentially reach out to, I don't have logical choices. Many of these high school friends have long since moved on with their lives, and I have to respectfully leave them be. My activity on social media was on a slow downfall anyway, and it's probably for the best that I leave that behind as well. I quit Snapchat at the beginning of the year, as it kept sending annoying company notifications and saw no use in continuing to use it if fewer and fewer people reach out to me. I still occasionally use Instagram, but I only post every three months or so to the few followers I have and never read or like others' posts as some make me jealous. I once had Twitter/X/Whateverthisdarncompanywantstocallthemselves back in high school, but quickly quit after graduation as it's just too cancerous. As for Facebook and TikTok, I've got my personal gripes with both companies, and thus refuse to make accounts unless for a job. In short, I've quit social media almost entirely. Oh, and don't even get me started on the dating apps, as none of them work as advertised.

My social life isn't all a failure, however. For example, I tried out a speed dating event a few weeks ago, and it went pretty well. Despite not matching with anyone in the end, I met some genuinely interesting people and had lots of conversations, both good and awkward. I say awkward as it's timed for each person you meet, and I believe my conversations did not flow as natural as I'd like for some, therefore embarrassing myself by going too fast and choosing my words poorly, which is something I've always had trouble with. I'll definitely give it a go again sometime, as I now know what to improve on.

I do plan on seeing a mental health therapist as everyone I know agrees that I'm on a downward trajectory and need to fix it. It's just so hard to do so when I look at how bad the world around me is these days and lots of people only think about themselves; not to mention me being unable to financially move out at any rate with how pathetic the market is. I'm still getting by, but definitely not as well as I'd like it to be.
 
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