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I finally got my dream collectible! But then I accidentally discarded the collectibles in my previous lineup instead of deactivating them T^T
Maybe you can make a post in the "contact the staff board" and explain what happened and perhaps the staff might be able to help you? I don't know if they are guaranteed to be able to help you though, it's just a simple suggestion.
 
Maybe you can make a post in the "contact the staff board" and explain what happened and perhaps the staff might be able to help you? I don't know if they are guaranteed to be able to help you though, it's just a simple suggestion.
Yeah, I’ve heard of them being able to fix that before. @Suguri I’d make a CTS thread as soon as possible, never hurts to try.
 
Maybe you can make a post in the "contact the staff board" and explain what happened and perhaps the staff might be able to help you? I don't know if they are guaranteed to be able to help you though, it's just a simple suggestion.
Yeah, I’ve heard of them being able to fix that before. @Suguri I’d make a CTS thread as soon as possible, never hurts to try.
I just made a thread there, I hope it goes well!
 
I had a good day; right now I feel like my depression is starting to come back and also am feeling a bit crabby and. frustrated for no reason. I’m trying my best to push away the negative thoughts and thoughts about my best friend, and trying not avoid seeing something that has been triggering me a little lately. But it’s really hard with racing thoughts 😔. I’m honestly feeling kinda lonely even though I have people that I’ve been talking to more. I really miss my best friend and telling him the good and bad :/
 
I didn't get fired today; hear me out.
If I was fired, I would've mentioned it in the 'why are you happen today.' (the only disapointment would be that I would be out of a job, and no money.)

So, this morning, I was at work, and one of my coworkers mentioned how my boss wants me to return the keys today. I was like welp. But like my boss came in near 8 ish, but never once said anything to me. So, here I am trying to get on with stuff. She stays up stairs. And when the said coworker comes in, I do make sure, that she indeed message my coworker saying she wants 'me out' and wants the keys, but it didn't happen today??

Like, I was waiting for ages for her to come down, and instead of telling me, when she did eventually come out. She just sat me down, (I ain't explaining everything because wtf nothing much was said that I can explain) and said there will be new changes and a new rota and she will let me know. And then told me to go an hour early then we agreed on.

Where do I keep finding these awful bosses DX
 
minor bother again; I guess I wasn't kidding when I set my Discord status to "sleepy moon loaf", I'm always so sleepy 😭

I mean tbf I've been dealing with a lot lately, and now I have a new complication surfacing with my mum (in that she's def not fully healed but wants to come home anyway, and legally they can't stop her), so I'm just exhausted. even been feeling overstimulated this morning and lying here in silence. I have the day off from work so maybe I'll go get an iced coffee and take a nap for a while. gotta live up to my title hehe. 💙🌙
 
I'm frustrated about a lot of things at the moment: Bad start to my morning (tired and cranky, family wouldn't stop talking to me), my weird exam schedule (4 days of exams in a row and only two next week?!), and my inability to do my schoolwork. I haven't been able to get much work done, and the deadlines are a lot closer than I anticipated. I'm sick of being tired and annoyed and overstimulated all the time, I just want some peace and solitude for one goddamn second.

Also had a dream last night where one of my teachers deadnamed me. I don't know why I felt so much like crap even well after I woke up. :/
 
Uh, pretty sure I just found a carpenter ant queen outside… mom says her minions have gotten in the house ^^; I wish I could’ve successfully killed the queen but she escaped

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I’m so mad at myself, I could’ve made her entire colony obsolete if I had just thought more practically
 
Not me finding a SPIDER in my trousers!!
I had NO idea it was there, it was only that I went toliet, pulled em down and SAW something theree
its made me all jittery now.
Not like a small one either, but not HUGE. Still alive.
I got it out the window, and its still on the window sill pouting probably.

Wish me luck sleeping tonight. My mind is like a hivemind.
 
i got a tooth pulled yesterday and my jaw is so sore 🥲 also have a headache?? idk if the surgery yesterday is causing my headache but whatever it is, it hurts so bad and i already took a painkiller but no help😋
 
My dad apparently has a girlfriend that, I guess she sings? And her stage name is different from her legal name, and he calls her the stage name.

I took the opportunity to ask why he calls her the stage name and not her legal name. He says she prefers it and she doesn't have to go by her legal name if she doesn't want to. But... he refuses to call me by my chosen name?

I told him that he should use her legal name since it's such an issue to use a preferred name.
 
My brother showed an ounce of emotional vulnerability, and... It was surreal, to say the least. He told me that he was gonna miss me when I move out and that it was gonna be hard for him; "Thank you for being a great sibling my whole life, but next year is gonna be the first time we'll be apart and I'll actually remember it." Context: We were separated in our childhoods for a brief time, but he doesn't remember.

I broke down when he said that. I always saw my brother as a cold-hearted and uncaring person, but I didn't stop to think that he'd miss me this much. I also feel guilty because I wasn't the nicest with him, I've been rude and distant pretty much the whole time I was in high school. I'm literally crying as I'm typing this. My brother cares about me like crazy and I never noticed till he said it to my face. I guess I'm finally realizing how important familial bonds are.
 
honestly keep thinking about the fact that I might come across as arrogant to some people and I really don't like that. I mean, I'm not upset at them for thinking that way, I'm more so upset at myself for radiating that kind of energy. I want people to feel like they can come to me when they have issues and they need advice or just want someone to listen. I don't want to intimidate people.

now that I think about it, I almost feel like that's a vibe that a lot of autistic people give off. and we obviously don't do it intentionally, that's just how we are. and it's difficult for me to be someone I'm not. I really try not to come across that way, but I think some things slip through the cracks. I guess I just need to be more clear and direct in telling people that I want them to feel comfortable and safe with me, and I'll do what I can to make sure I'm able to do that for them.

and I mean, there will always be people who want to assume that I'm arrogant instead of approaching me about it. I'm grateful for those who have made it clear to me, even if it was done a bit passively. but I suppose if some people are more comfortable assuming that I'm arrogant, rather than giving me a chance to prove otherwise, then there's not much I can do about that.


edit: you know, I just thought about this. I think that people are naturally more intimidated by someone who is very smart. and I do believe that I am very smart. with that, I also don't believe that there is a fine line between arrogance and self-deprecation. I like to think there's a pretty huge grey area there. but when I tell people that I know I'm smart, they might see it as me being arrogant. so it's either that or me going around telling people that I'm really not smart, and I can't win either way.

I think the bottom line is, just don't worry about what people think of you. obviously you don't want to be an insufferable person, but there will always be people who see intelligence as a synonym of arrogance and intimidation, and that's just how it is. and obviously there is such a thing as being too arrogant, but I don't feel like I'm at that point. I think I just tend to intimidate people because I am very smart (I've observed this a lot in my workplace, since many of my coworkers come to me with questions, and I will often try to help them if they really seem to be struggling).

again though, I feel like these are big autism vibes (the intelligence/arrogance AND rambling lol). 😅


edit again: note to self. there is a fine line between confidence and arrogance. don't get them mixed up.
 
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Finally on my way home after the most upsetting visit to my hometown I’ve had in a long long long time. Physically, I will recover… the state of my mental health, however, remains unclear.
 
The A/C is still broken at my work today. It broke yesterday during the hottest day so far this year. It was 27 degrees Celsius (80F for my American friends) INSIDE the office when I got here this morning. It’s only 23 Celsius (73F) outside as today is thankfully a cooler day in comparison. The office is still brutal though. 🥵
 
I just woke up and I feel like crap; my fault for staying up too late again though. Feeling a bit depressed too. I got a whatsapp notification and got some message from someone I don’t know; that really bothers me, but more than that after I closed it saw my best friend did see ny last reply but didn’t reply. Still no happy belated birthday either. I’m so sad. I want my best friend back.
 
So my boss has decided to lessen my hours which is insane.
She's changed the rota for everyone else, and she brought in two other people. I think she's mainly keeping me because no one seems to be able to wake up early enough to open the shop.
Yet when she sat me own once, and said how she thought all the adults working for her are lazier than her one other coworker...

But guys, j-just, she only wants me to work from 7:30AM - 9AM, that's only an hour and a half. Each week day.
I think what's like worse, is that, when I was working at that worse job, I always came over there and chatted and expressed how crappy everything was. So she knows what I've been through, knows they left me redundant without notice, yet thinks it's okay to treat me like this.

I do hope I get a slimmer of SOMETHING from the other job applications I have done. Theres one more I need to do but gawd. I wish it was just a cover letter they wanted.

Ya know what, I'm gonna say it.
If I had a nickel everytime I had an awful boss, I'd have two nickels. Which isn't a lot but it's weird it's happen twice, in a row no less.
 
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