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I have to go to dinner with my grandma and she's going to deadname me the whole time and emphasize feminine pronouns, so fun. Also, last time we had dinner the entire conversation topic was about how trans are gross and she made a joke about the whole thing. It felt almost targeted, like she knew? Fun.
 
So the issues with my bloods continue. I spoke with Rheumatology last week and they said they would probably issue some steroids as those would help with my flare up and increase my bloods. However, there is a GP at my Surgery who keeps phoning and getting other members of staff to phone me on her behalf to find out what’s going on. I have never even met this GP. I’ve had 2 phone calls again today, asking why I didn’t phone to find out about my bloods. Firstly, she never asked me to phone my GP surgery, she said deal with Rheumatology. Secondly, I was to wait until a prescription was issued before anymore bloods were taken. This afternoon, someone from my surgery rang me telling me I had to come back in for more bloods. I tried to explain Rheumatology didn’t request anymore bloods now. I took the appointment but didn’t see the point. A few hours later, this GP was back on the phone to discuss it with me. Eventually, she decided to cancel the blood test. Now, she is emailing my Rheumatology Nurse, even though I have already phoned them! I didn’t mind the GP phoning the very first time as if they don’t know the situation, I usually get a courtesy call to let me know then when I explain I attend Rheumatology they are happy to let them deal with it. I feel as if she is trying to go above their heads, as she knows nothing about my conditions and how they are treated! She even admitted she had never even heard of one of my medications!
 
i failed my driver’s test AGAIN (for the second time)

i know how to drive but i get anxious during tests and when the instructor gets into the car so i make stupid mistakes. embarrassing because im almost 19 and i don’t have an actual drivers license + my learners permit expires in september. i’m going to retest next week on my birthday, keep me in your thoughts ya’ll 😔
 
Beanz said:
i failed my driver’s test AGAIN (for the second time)

i know how to drive but i get anxious during tests and when the instructor gets into the car so i make stupid mistakes. embarrassing because im almost 19 and i don’t have an actual drivers license + my learners permit expires in september. i’m going to retest next week on my birthday, keep me in your thoughts ya’ll 😔
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I didn't get my license until I was 21 because I was not feeling confident at all before then. heck, I was still incredibly nervous taking the test. I know you will be able to do it when the time is right. 💕
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been keeping you in my thoughts Jenny 🫂💜
 
I was helping my uncle move some boxes and gardening stuff.

Either it was too hot outside or I have no cardio anymore. A few years ago I would physically help set up events at the local fairgrounds and could endure for hours. After a few minutes today of helping my uncle I felt like falling over. I needed to go inside his house and grab water twice.

I'm going to take it as a lesson that I need to incorporate some form of exercise back into my life. Dealing with depression made me quite sedentary. (While I am doing better these days), it felt like my body was not functioning.

I'm a little sad about it. But I also know I can better myself and get these things back. hopefully :')
 
My social life, mainly. It doesn't help that I'm socially awkward and anxious, so it's hard to make friends or even talk to some of my colleagues.

Oh, and my job. It's been getting on my nerves, (I work in retail), we keep letting these bizarre customers stay and we get complaints about them, as well as management pushing me to always be the one at the cash register. Their argument is I'm good at getting people signed up for our membership programs, but it takes away my ability to help out on the floor.
 
I got logged out of TV Tropes for no reason at all, even though I've only had the account for 3 months, and I can't reset my password. Now it's no longer my favorite trope-browsing website anymore. I don't feel like even visiting the website without an account, because of this. I just go to a similar, but different enough trope-browsing website instead from now on, called, "All the Tropes", but I'm not making an account, in case it's going to log me out months later, and I forget the password again.

On another note, I'm kind of excited, yet anxious at the same time, as I want to be on camera for the first time while participating my women's group meeting via Zoom, even though it's not required, because I'm camera-shy. Due to this, I have some kind of stage fright, while not being actually on a stage, but I want my friends to see me on camera via Zoom.
I can't attend my usual women's group meeting at a friend's house on Monday nights like I always do, because my mom has a stomach bug.
 
just a minor bother, but I had a dream where I was in high school again (a big high school, much bigger than the one I went to) and I saw a bunch of my old friends again and I was hugging them for such a long time, and my dear was also there in high school with me and we got to spend time together and hug each other for so long. and then I wake up alone. it's just a bittersweet feeling. 🥲
 
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just a minor bother, but I had a dream where I was in high school again (a big high school, much bigger than the one I went to) and I saw a bunch of my old friends again and I was hugging them for such a long time, and my dear was also there in high school with me and we got to spend time together and hug each other for so long. and then I wake up alone. it's just a bittersweet feeling. 🥲
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I have dreams like this a lot myself, except it's nothing but drama and misery for me
 
Seriously, this GP has phoned me again and more conflicting information! I was told before to stop my 2 arthritis medications, now, she said it was only 1, I was to stop! I seriously wish she would keep her nose out and just let Rhuematology deal with any problems. I've spoken to about 5 different people over the past 2 weeks and everyone has given me different 'advice'. She asked me yesterday who my nurse was, I told her. Today she said it couldn't be as she's on annual leave! She didn't ask who I spoke to last week, so obviously it was someone different! Now I've got to go for weekly bloods. I've never experienced this conflicting information before with bloods and meds. I am so fed up of this. 😔
 
Just when I've been feeling depressed again... I suddenly get a call that my therapist is retiring and now I have to find a new one. He was the only one I felt I could speak to unluck the other ones I saw. Now I REALLY don't have anyone to speak to. I'm just so overwhelmed with negative thoughts right now and I can't shake them off.
 
I'm already pretty worried about next winter even though it's several months away. Something is wrong and my cats keep making messes everywhere and the couch I was forced to sleep on in the winter (because of insulation problems in the house) needs to be washed. If this doesn't change (cats haven't stopped yet), I will be dealing with that along with everything else that stresses me out during winter. I cannot stand living here.
 
I don't know why I picked up yet another gacha game (Wuthering Waves). I have to be F2P for the moment as I have no stable income, or any income at all. It's very disheartening to grind for days for something, only to not get it. I had been up for about 20 hours grinding for Jiyan because I had lost my 50/50 at max pity to Calcharo; which was already frustrating within itself. I am extremely used to spending my money to get what I want in these types of games. I finally got Jiyan, but what stinks is I have to grind all this currency to ATTEMPT to achieve his weapon, or just wait until UL 45 to get the 5* weapon selector. I'm about 9 levels behind, so it's like UGHH. I'm just frustrated and having AN extremely low energy and high pain day. I want to lay in bed but I'm running out of time to get Jiyan's weapon lol :") I'll get there eventually I hope. I just want to complain about it for now.
 
I'm in a horrible flare.
My nerves are burning. I'm weak and tired.
I have waves of increased pain that flows over.
My day today is compared to trying to sit comfortably on a cactus.
There is other things to that are bothering me too but eh..
 
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