Deeply missing the closest friend in my life that I lost.
Some days I shoulder it quite well, and on other days not so much.
Some days I shoulder it quite well, and on other days not so much.
What's Bothering You?
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ShadowLelouch97
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My store seems to attract a lot of... bizarre customers. They're all people who are just strange, nuisances, bug us and the customers. And we can't do anything or kick them out. Some of them are clearly...not mentally well which I sympathize with since some of them literally spend all day in the store. But gosh does our store attract some bizarre customers.
My neighbor who's obsessed with is grass was giving me more crap over "being too close to his side walk" like okay, even when I'm not on his lawn or his sidewalk because I'm clearly on the road... it's still a big nono. I'm about to tell this MF to quit growing grass and grow a pair already. I can't stand him.
xSuperMario64x
a very tired Bug 🪲💤
bad tension headache 
Dunquixote
Semi-Hiatus
This is just a kinda minor worry.
My mom just asked me what I wanted from Culver’s since tomorrow she’s going to pick up some since one or more of my nieces are coming over. I’m so excited since I really love Culver’s crispy chicken sandwich and fries and it’s not often I get to have it. At the same time, I can’t help worrying it is on the BDS list. I don’t like a lot of fast food. I’m fine boycotting McDonald’s (my mom still unfortunately gets food for my nieces from their, Domino’s (we don’t get their pizza ever), burger king (I used to get their fries way before this boycott started, back in high school and even then rarely), starbucks (i don’t drink coffee so easy; my mom though still takes my nieces there sometimes or buys my sister a giftcard), pizza hut (never anymore; don’t like their pizza). giving up small pleasures should be no big deal, since it pales to compare to 75 years of ethnic cleansing and genocide. still, is it even possible to boycott every single thing? and still have some small pleasures? I feel guilty for thinking this way; I wish I could do more besides boycott and retweet stuff (right now I’m on another twitter break so I can’t even do that). I think I might want to put the squishmallows I have in boxes since I keep thinking of the genocide when I look at them; I got both before my mom and I knew they were big zionist supporters but it still leaves a bad taste.
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I'm washed the rice for the first time and it didn't go well. My mom refused to help out because "I'm 16" and I guess that means I should know what I'm doing by now even though it's my first time as I said. My dad helped but he was clearly irritated too. I was in need of help and yet they don't understand. The worst part was that I didn't even finish my breakfast before I got dragged into this **** chore. -_-
I observed that my uncle only talks to me when he's drunk. When sober he'll talk with everyone else but won't even give me a 'hello' back.
He's also a very affectionate drunk and will hug onto me like a best friend. It's hard not to reciprocate when he gets forceful.
It's hurtful and makes me a little bitter. I'm very close to calling him out on it next time. I actually vented about this to another family member a couple years ago.
It could also be that I feel bitter and disconnected when my family drinks constantly. But with him in particular I feel like I'm expected to reciprocate fake intimate kindness.
He's also a very affectionate drunk and will hug onto me like a best friend. It's hard not to reciprocate when he gets forceful.
It's hurtful and makes me a little bitter. I'm very close to calling him out on it next time. I actually vented about this to another family member a couple years ago.
It could also be that I feel bitter and disconnected when my family drinks constantly. But with him in particular I feel like I'm expected to reciprocate fake intimate kindness.
may or may not have just consumed sour cream that’s spoiled. it doesn’t expire until the 16th, and it smelled and tasted fine to me, but it apparently smells off to my parents. so now i’m having an anxiety attack LMAO please god please do not let me get food poisoning PLEASE.
I’m going to make this a bit more of a general update than what’s bothering me, lemme get the things bothering me out of the way first.
I don’t have the energy for diversity. I actually am comfortable enough that it doesn’t have to be me being competitive or trying to win or anything but my creative inspiration is fizzled.
How long has it been for? I have so many other issues I’m never able to focus on this.
Anyway, with the update, I was finally able to cry again this week. That guy who hurt me, he was just some guy, but my god this mess bought out some hate I haven’t felt in years, and a level of grief I haven’t had to deal with for two years. I really haven’t felt this bad since the last time he did this. Never again.
Point is I think crying is progress. Now I wish I had more positive goals. I tried bringing a group of people together but… a lot of us are sad about life. I don’t like being the one to lift people up.
I’m so sorry to all my friends here also struggling who I haven’t spoken with in so long. I’ve seen bits. I wish I could do more for you. I haven’t been myself since this guy did all that to me.
I don’t have the energy for diversity. I actually am comfortable enough that it doesn’t have to be me being competitive or trying to win or anything but my creative inspiration is fizzled.
How long has it been for? I have so many other issues I’m never able to focus on this.
Anyway, with the update, I was finally able to cry again this week. That guy who hurt me, he was just some guy, but my god this mess bought out some hate I haven’t felt in years, and a level of grief I haven’t had to deal with for two years. I really haven’t felt this bad since the last time he did this. Never again.
Point is I think crying is progress. Now I wish I had more positive goals. I tried bringing a group of people together but… a lot of us are sad about life. I don’t like being the one to lift people up.
I’m so sorry to all my friends here also struggling who I haven’t spoken with in so long. I’ve seen bits. I wish I could do more for you. I haven’t been myself since this guy did all that to me.
I love being a political activist, its my one true passion! What I hate is how everytime I leave a protest or event I have severe anxiety attacks about not doing good enough or not being good enough for the cause I want to amplify. Like yesterday I had an anxiety attack for 3 hours straight once I got home from an event, but perhaps part of that is because I very embarrassingly fell over in front of hundreds of people and had to laugh it off even tho I did actually get a gnarly cut on my knee. Nonetheless I want to EXPLODE
Dunquixote
Semi-Hiatus
This is minor; I’m just embarrassed and anxious about a few things. I’m worried about what I wrote with my screenshots; I hope it doesn’t come off awkward. I’m starting to think maybe I should’ve explained it more. Maybe I’ll edit it when I get up.
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xSuperMario64x
a very tired Bug 🪲💤
woke up multiple times last night because I kept having dreams that were really distressing 
and I actually just woke up from one too, but thankfully it was my alarm that woke me up, otherwise I may not have been able to come out of it so quickly. it sucks because I was having the same issue yesterday.
and I actually just woke up from one too, but thankfully it was my alarm that woke me up, otherwise I may not have been able to come out of it so quickly. it sucks because I was having the same issue yesterday. 
There's literally no jobs anywhere ;_: I'm avoiding food and coffee, because I just can't handle that stuff anymore. I just can't.
But literally, it's crap trying to find anything! I was going to apply to this sainsburys online assistant, but when it went to their site, it said job not found? Yet the indeed job i found it on was new!! I reported it anyways.
Theres that one editorial assistant job i need to finish, but gawd it is stressful. Not looking forward to Monday.
But literally, it's crap trying to find anything! I was going to apply to this sainsburys online assistant, but when it went to their site, it said job not found? Yet the indeed job i found it on was new!! I reported it anyways.
Theres that one editorial assistant job i need to finish, but gawd it is stressful. Not looking forward to Monday.
FOOD POISONING AVERTED!! we are so back!!
xSuperMario64x
a very tired Bug 🪲💤
yeah this will be the last time I ever ride in my dad's car with him. I am literally so uncomfortable right now that I feel like I'm about to break down in tears.
