What's Bothering You?
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I got back home to find an email saying I've been shortlisted for a deputy librian role...
And then a few minutes later got a second email stating the first was sent by mistake
Thanks for putting my hopes up. Really. The feeling that one of my applications actually mattered really fell through the floor. It even had my name, not like a typed email those fancy messages, and my application changed to shortlisted.
After the 'error' they should've changed it back but it's still up there as shortlisted.
And then a few minutes later got a second email stating the first was sent by mistake
Thanks for putting my hopes up. Really. The feeling that one of my applications actually mattered really fell through the floor. It even had my name, not like a typed email those fancy messages, and my application changed to shortlisted.
After the 'error' they should've changed it back but it's still up there as shortlisted.
kidney infection is gone
now my doctor wants me to get an ultra sound for kidney stones. he already said NUMEROUS times that it's extremely unlikely i have one, and it's simply for peace of mind- i have no pain, no nausea. really, no nothing. but he's doing it to cover ALL bases. even my nurse sister reassures me that it's totally okay, there's hardly a chance in hell i have a kidney stone, and i'll be fine
BUT THE BRAIN ANXIETY PARASITES ARE CONVINCED IM GOING TO HAVE ONE. it's the worst thing. this last month + some days has been absolutely hell on my psyche with health scare after health scare. i'm tired. so tired.
now my doctor wants me to get an ultra sound for kidney stones. he already said NUMEROUS times that it's extremely unlikely i have one, and it's simply for peace of mind- i have no pain, no nausea. really, no nothing. but he's doing it to cover ALL bases. even my nurse sister reassures me that it's totally okay, there's hardly a chance in hell i have a kidney stone, and i'll be fine
BUT THE BRAIN ANXIETY PARASITES ARE CONVINCED IM GOING TO HAVE ONE. it's the worst thing. this last month + some days has been absolutely hell on my psyche with health scare after health scare. i'm tired. so tired.
ZeldaCrossing64
Sugary Cynic
Woke up with cramps/abdominal pain and a searing need to use the bathroom again. I can't fall back asleep because I'm in too much discomfort; Not even pain, just in a state of physical discomfort. To make matters worse, I barely slept and my brother is making our dog bark and run around. I got mad at him because he wouldn't get out of my room, and he just makes a snarky "What are you so angry about?" comment. Dammit, I'm way too tired and agitated for this.
SIL cancelled plans less than 3hrs before she was due to pick us up. She has a habit of bailing so I should have seen this coming. 
I just find it annoying, but whenever she does this it makes my partner feel as though her sister doesn't want to spend time with her.
I just find it annoying, but whenever she does this it makes my partner feel as though her sister doesn't want to spend time with her.
I've been having a breakdown this morning. I keep crying. From what I can tell, I have this thing called tonsillolith. I've been aware of this since last fall. It got really bad last night and nothing I did worked at all.... And then while I was typing this vent I had a tiny bit of improvement though my crying may have caused it. I'm still suffering, however. I'd really like the rest of it to go away too. I haven't eaten in about 12 hours and I skipped my allergy medication because I cannot stop wanting to gag. I also haven't slept...
Last night I actually had something really nice happen and this lead to most of my crying because I got so worried it would be the last time I get to have such a moment.
I might be improving now, but I don't really know. We will see. I still feel awful.
Almost forgot to mention I don't have health insurance. I had that typed but I erased that entire version of the vent.
Last night I actually had something really nice happen and this lead to most of my crying because I got so worried it would be the last time I get to have such a moment.
I might be improving now, but I don't really know. We will see. I still feel awful.
Almost forgot to mention I don't have health insurance. I had that typed but I erased that entire version of the vent.
spawnpoint
IT'S TV TIME!
im so tired of the mood swings ive been having oh my goddd i just want my cycle to be over so i can get back to normal please
I really hate working three hour shifts. It’s barely worth my time at that point. I know something is better than nothing, but it’s frustrating to do. I’m not sure how these other employees are okay with this?? We all work the same three hour shifts no more than three times a week, and that’s if you are even scheduled.
I might have another job lined up. I’m trying to get into this gas station one of my friends works at. She offered to talk to the manager for me after I told her I applied. They’re looking for overnights desperately and as someone that prefers the overnight, I think I’ll be alright if I can get an interview - which shouldn’t be a problem if my friend talks to the manager.
It’ll be a few days since the manager is conveniently on vacation and won’t be back for another two days. I didn’t want to ask for help, but I really needed to find something else. I don’t even mind between 20-30 hours… I just can’t do 8 hours a week because that’s nothing??
Thankfully my friend just offered to talk to the manager (which I was lowkey hoping she would offer because I didn’t want to directly ask her) so I hope I can secure an interview at this very least. It shouldn’t be that hard considering the job description requires zero experience and I’m willing to work overnights.
I might have another job lined up. I’m trying to get into this gas station one of my friends works at. She offered to talk to the manager for me after I told her I applied. They’re looking for overnights desperately and as someone that prefers the overnight, I think I’ll be alright if I can get an interview - which shouldn’t be a problem if my friend talks to the manager.
It’ll be a few days since the manager is conveniently on vacation and won’t be back for another two days. I didn’t want to ask for help, but I really needed to find something else. I don’t even mind between 20-30 hours… I just can’t do 8 hours a week because that’s nothing??
Thankfully my friend just offered to talk to the manager (which I was lowkey hoping she would offer because I didn’t want to directly ask her) so I hope I can secure an interview at this very least. It shouldn’t be that hard considering the job description requires zero experience and I’m willing to work overnights.
themysterybidder
Bye everyone!
My brother has been quiet all night, then when I head to bed he decides to start laughing loudly. 
Today just hasn’t been a good day. I’m pretty sure most of my coworkers feel the same. All the trucks were late today then showed up at the same time. Our back room isn’t that big so with so much product there really wasn’t much space to work . So it took longer to get things done The store today was insanely busy and most of us felt we couldn’t keep up. It didn’t help that I didn’t feel that great today.
How I felt most of the day.
themysterybidder
Bye everyone!
Healthcare appointment anxiety. I can't wait until they are over today.
xSuperMario64x
love of my life 💙💜
woke up feeling sleepy and found that my pup had an accident on the floor overnight. apparently she didn't actually go potty when I let her and my golden go outside before bed. guess I need to keep a closer eye on her when I let her out at night.
I didn't punish her though, I know she didn't do it on purpose
she doesn't need punished regardless, but especially not now. I know there are people who punish pets for accidents like this and it upsets me.
I didn't punish her though, I know she didn't do it on purpose
she doesn't need punished regardless, but especially not now. I know there are people who punish pets for accidents like this and it upsets me.Why are job applications so long? And I wish they give you the reference information at the very start.
Why do I have to write ALL this and when it comes to the references, they have specific requirements that I have none, so thats it? Can't apply for this one because I don't have upto two references? Can't use family friends who've known me since I was born, but you gladly would take my old work who weren't paying me right? Who knows what they would say!
I'm sorry I didn't get a job the moment I learnt how to walk, omg.
Also my last admin answers were resubmitted, saying AI content...again.
Do they want professional understandings? Or for me to write like a child? The problem is, if I had time to write out notes like I want, then types and retyped, I could make it sound like me more. But I don't have time. I hope they ask me for a review of the course; I will definitely be letting them know the literal meltdowns I had over the 50 questions because I was trying to make notes and had no reply from my teacher.
I need to do something today to make me feel better. For now though, gonna rewrite that blasted question.
Why do I have to write ALL this and when it comes to the references, they have specific requirements that I have none, so thats it? Can't apply for this one because I don't have upto two references? Can't use family friends who've known me since I was born, but you gladly would take my old work who weren't paying me right? Who knows what they would say!
I'm sorry I didn't get a job the moment I learnt how to walk, omg.
Also my last admin answers were resubmitted, saying AI content...again.
Do they want professional understandings? Or for me to write like a child? The problem is, if I had time to write out notes like I want, then types and retyped, I could make it sound like me more. But I don't have time. I hope they ask me for a review of the course; I will definitely be letting them know the literal meltdowns I had over the 50 questions because I was trying to make notes and had no reply from my teacher.
I need to do something today to make me feel better. For now though, gonna rewrite that blasted question.
I think mental health is a tricky subject because of how easy it is to chastise or dismiss something that isn't physically there. The societal backlash isn't the same. Hence, people get too comfortable with turning something like 'autism' into an insulting phrase.
I was depressed for several years. The days blended together and before I knew it - 3 years had gone by. I went into debt, lost all my closest friends, became numb.
But I'd like to think the progress I've made over the last year triumphs the person I was before this started.
Some things can't be brought back (such as time or friends). However being able to escape the 'cycle' and numb feeling has been an invaluable sweetness. Life for me is like a puzzle being put back together.
However, I hope society as a whole reaches a point of less stigimizatiom and hits a point of better understanding. It would make the world a better place.
I was depressed for several years. The days blended together and before I knew it - 3 years had gone by. I went into debt, lost all my closest friends, became numb.
But I'd like to think the progress I've made over the last year triumphs the person I was before this started.
Some things can't be brought back (such as time or friends). However being able to escape the 'cycle' and numb feeling has been an invaluable sweetness. Life for me is like a puzzle being put back together.
However, I hope society as a whole reaches a point of less stigimizatiom and hits a point of better understanding. It would make the world a better place.
i start my new job on tuesday but i’m so nervous 
the area i live in is predominately spanish speaking, and my spanish is okay? but not fluent. and the new job im going to work at i can tell that mostly everyone there speaks spanish and it makes me so self conscious because i can understand what they tell me, but my brain cannot form a coherent reply to what they say so i fear i just look stupid 
the area i live in is predominately spanish speaking, and my spanish is okay? but not fluent. and the new job im going to work at i can tell that mostly everyone there speaks spanish and it makes me so self conscious because i can understand what they tell me, but my brain cannot form a coherent reply to what they say so i fear i just look stupid I also work in a non-English speaking environment. I typically respond in English (and will ask, "can you say that in English?") or need to ask them to translate documents they've sent me, and everyone's really nice about it. Hopefully they will be in your workplace too. I've enrolled in an evening language class starting in August to increase my confidence in speaking - not sure if that would help you too but figured I'd share how I'm tackling the language barrier.
Good luck with the new job. And if you ever need someone to chat to about just feeling a bit stupid/alien in a non-English speaking workplace feel free to message me!
daringred_
✧ stupid lesbian ✧
been three weeks of trying to get a doctor's appointment with no success 
)) either end up in an obnoxiously long 20+ queue or my call gets disconnected, and the few times i've gotten through, the receptionist either said they "couldn't see" future appointments or told me to fill in their new online questionnaire which isn't even available by the time i look because they reach their daily "appointment threshold". i'm not even looking for a same-day appointment omg, this is a nightmare.
)) either end up in an obnoxiously long 20+ queue or my call gets disconnected, and the few times i've gotten through, the receptionist either said they "couldn't see" future appointments or told me to fill in their new online questionnaire which isn't even available by the time i look because they reach their daily "appointment threshold". i'm not even looking for a same-day appointment omg, this is a nightmare.
