i know i should feel happy the tories are out in the uk but i just can't bring myself to. labour (imo) have morphed into just another slightly better conservative party thanks to kier starmer (who is happy that the sun is endorsing them?? i mean really....)
on top of that seeing reform do much better than expected just reminds me i'm sharing an island with a bunch of racist transphobes - to think they did better than the green party in my constituency (and many others) just makes me lose faith in humankind, i felt so hopeful for scotland's future only a few years ago and now it's so bleak
I've had a headache every day for a week now and it actually hurts so bad this morning ugh I wish I could go to urgent care but even they require an appointment now, like seriously??? I wonder if my family doctor might have an opening this afternoon.
think there's a good chance i might get let go from my job within the year... had my one month review today and was basically told i seem like i applied for a job i'm not suited to (because i get cold easily and can't lift a sack of potatoes) and that i look miserable, so that was. fun. unexpected too since my two supervisors have been saying i've been doing a good job and do a lot of the work, including more than one of the other employees. ugh.
My mom's stairlift broke and they can't send anyone out to fix it until the 12th. This is the second time it's broken and it's only been installed for a year. My mom was sitting on the stairlift when it broke 2 steps from the top so me and my dad had to dead lift her into her wheelchair. The stupid stairlifts cost 14k and it hasn't worked 100% at any point. It should be reliable and it is not.
The first time I ever noticed something wrong with my aunt was in a theme park. I had a panic attack due to the heat and crowd. She acted disgusted. As if I were at fault for interrupting her while we looked for lunch.
We moved closer to her. I noticed more behaviors. Gaslighting, excessive drinking, talking down on others when they aren't around, abusing and demanding public service workers.
My brother is a licensed psychologist. He says she's a textbook narcissist.
According to my cousins, she's been talking down about me again lately. I try not to let it bother me too much. Knowing how she behaves. Some of what she says is valid. I admit I have my flaws. But some of it is pretty illogical. (apparently scapegoated and blamed me for her kids problems during a cousins therapy session).
And I guess it does get to me. A little. It's just not very nice to do.
Clogged drain, flood, all that sand in our driveway coming from the new neighboor's backyard. My mom giving all the watermelon to my brother... she thinks he's a guest..
The one Aus server I’m on has so many people that get drunk a lot and I just don’t wanna be around it but god I tried makin friends who live here on Discord,
Legit a lot of days I wonder: is this a really unhealthy hate for people doin this or a phase while I work out my boundary on it
Somedays I tell myself I'm too nice and then other days I ask myself if I'm a bad person because of something tiny or something that happened years ago.
Why am I like this?