What's Bothering You?

[xSuperMario64x]

Spoiler: just ASD things

I'm really struggling with the fact that my social skills suck and my ability to read other people sucks. I just wish I could understand things people say and do better. I cannot read between the lines. I can't understand things from very few words, or actions for that matter. I'm just tired.

my social skills have gotten better since I've been working in customer service for over a year now, but it definitely isn't something that comes naturally to me. there are still little quirks I have that aren't "socially acceptable" as well. part of me is scared that I might get fired from my job one day because I'm not presenting myself the way I'm expected to (though in that case wouldn't it be bad on their part, as they're firing me because of a disability? I dunno).

I say that society is crafted in a way that is catered to, and intuitive to, neurotypical people, but not neurodiverse/disabled people. and then we get punished for not behaving like a neurotypical person. it sucks, but that's the norm apparently.


edit: my phone created a typo hsjfgsjdkavsj

 

[Dunquixote]

Edit: just nervous again about something silly

Depression is really bad right now.

 

[Giddy]

Worry if I can even make it for the Jackbox games or not, the timing isn't perfect.
7PM is around dinner, and my mum can't have it any later due to acid reflux.
Also still really unsure how to really play or if its online for free or nah.

 

[Doo]

Also still really unsure how to really play or if its online for free or nah.

Yeah only the host needs to have the game - there’ll be a code on stream and you just put it into the website on your phone and you can play along for free

 

[Giddy]

Yeah only the host needs to have the game - there’ll be a code on stream and you just put it into the website on your phone and you can play along for free

Thannk youuu! Hopefully I can try and play one time~

 

[oak]

My mom isn't feeling well today and idk it will pass or if I should worry. She had a hard time sitting up in bed and then she was kinda sad while I gave her her shower. She also had a hard time transferring to her wheelchair. I asked her if she feels sick and she said idk. I'll see how she is tomorrow but I told her if she feels anymore sick or becomes dizzy imma have to call 911. I can't put her on her stair lift if she's dizzy, it's too much risk which is why I'd need the ambulance people to help. Hopefully I'm just over thinking.

 

[spawnpoint]

nvm

 

[Shawna]

my PC has been having issues, when I tried to start it up, it keeps freezing. I’m seeing if I can can get it sorted out on my own.

 

[Balverine]

been feeling like I'm an afterthought lately, like my friends only talk to me because I keep pestering them, but they don't really want to, and I feel kinda lonely
I'm sure it's not true, just something I've been struggling with lately

 

[Reginald Fairfield]

Another migraine.

 

[Shawna]

my PC has been having issues, when I tried to start it up, it keeps freezing. I’m seeing if I can can get it sorted out on my own.

so a bit of an update: I unplugged this one cord from my PC for a bit. Then I plugged it back in. Thankfully, this solved ONE (so far) of the freezing issues I was having: the regular one when you’re trying to start up your PC, and one where it is trying to load a factory reset/repair process, it was the latter.

So I’m in the process of doing a factory reset, it sucks how I’m gonna have to do a lot of re-downloading and re-logging into things (if it even works to begin with), but if it solves the issue, so be it. ^^

 

[Soigne]

i miss someone who has moved away

 

[Reginald Fairfield]

The usual crackhead next door is having another fit now. I can hear him from my bedroom while he's inside his house.

He's got such a nice big garage going to waste over there, and sitting empty.

 

[Aniko]

I forgot to submit my guess for Count Inside The Bottle, I thought about it yesterday before going to bed but was too sleepy so I thought I would do it today but got dragged out of the house and came back after the deadline just needed one more ticket...

 

[xSuperMario64x]

this is kinda petty, but there are so many lovely plushies and not enough money to buy them all

 

[mewp0ka]

i feel like i am made to be there for everyone because then they'd "get sad if i wasn't talking to them" even though i'm deep in my head and am ready to give up at any moment. i have the bad habit of tending to everyone's needs before my own because i always think that they're more important. i dunno. crying is NOT helping and i'd love to scream in the middle of the woods, honestly. not sure what to do anymore.

 

[Dunquixote]

Spoiler: depression

I was feeling a little better than I was earlier but I’m just really sad now. Part of me is scared that I’m never going to hear from my best friend again, and the other part of me doesn’t want to hear from him yet since I know I’m just going to cry and get more sad and depressed that things has changed and that he can’t talk to me much anymore. I wish things could go back to s they used to be or I could have been different and someone more likable to him :/.

Sorry for posting again.

 

[themysterybidder]

Spoiler: Telephone calls TW

For the past few weeks, several companies that my Mum had dealt with have been phoning and asking to speak to her. I go silent for a few seconds nearly saying 'Mum, it's for you.' Then it dawns on me. All the important places know, but for instance when the opticians phone to remind her about an eye test, I say 'Sorry, she's not available at the minute. Can I take a message?'. I cannot bear to say those words even over 1 year and 10 months since my heart broke. If I have to, I find it really difficult and recently I can't get the image out of my head of her lying in that hospital bed, especially since I had to attend the same hospital last week for an Ultrasound.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

I'm so cold this morning and I feel a little silly because I have a comforter which I can't comfortably use anymore because I associate it with when I was struggling really bad with depression, but like, it would keep me from being cold at this moment hdjfbsgdjfjdjdv

 

[Holla]

Went to bed with a headache…. Just woke up and it’s still here. I hate this so much.