I don’t know where my brain is today because it is not with me. It’s been hard to focus today and getting distracted easily.
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It’s that time of year where everyone is slowly finding out what they got for their raise. There is always that one person who asks everyone what they got even though management tells everyone not to talk about it.Also I don’t feel comfortable talking to anyone but my bestie about it . Mostly because this person gets mad if you don’t tell them. So how else can you politely tell them you don’t want to answer?
Only got a 3% pay rise this year. I know I should be grateful for anything...but at the same time it's a bummer in comparison to the 9% I got last year lol. Oh well, still better than nothing
horrible day today broskis. I wish I wasn't awake right now, living hurts. I feel like I need someone to talk to for a while but also don't feel like talking at all. plus I just feel a bit burdensome. idk what to do. I'm just at work trying to not sob my eyes out.
called the mental health team number, and for whatever reason they couldn't hear me both times rip. had to go ask my mom to call for me and got ridiculed for bursting into tears from the anxiety/stress. anyway, even after all that, the lady who left the voicemail was apparently on a call, and i was told she would call me back only for her to never do so. (having to wait for her to potentially do so also screwed up my routine.) not sure if i should call again tomorrow and ask what gives or wait and see if she calls back in the coming days, then call myself on friday or something. really just wanted to get this resolved today since it's important, but now i have to keep having anxiety over it </3
I did two screw-ups in a row, but those happened in the forums and not at school.
I'm trying to not think about what happened too much because I have homework and if I did I'd end up becoming anxious. At least the homework's not as bad as earlier.
My mom told me today that when her and my dad we first together, she was only using him for a place to live because she was homeless at the time. Basically giving him ‘favors’ to keep him around, and that’s how I was born. I’m closer with my dad, alway have been. I’m not sure if it sits right with me, and tbh, I’ve been uneasy ever since she admitted this.
I’m not sure how to take the information, especially now since I’m working with my mom. Obviously, this has nothing to do with me, but it still hurts to hear? Idk if I should just keep it to myself, but I wish I didn’t know.
must be that time of the month because I am miserable in this heat today honestly not even sure if I want to do tie-dye stuff, I seriously need to cool off first. but I've been looking forward to this for a few days so I'll probably end up powering through the heat, just need to make sure I stay hydrated.
I'm beginning to think that a Hot Heart Balloon below the date of August 10th, 2024 at 1:23 AM and Aug 9, 2024 at 6:05 PM doesn't exist, as I haven't had any luck of finding one.
But if you know of one with the existing date, let me know.