Suguri
'tis the season to say "wowzers!"
I'm not in college, but I understand feeling like you're not ready to become an independent adult yet. I'm 16 years old and my parents keep throwing a billion responsibilities at me because of my age. I feel ashamed of myself sometimes because there are still things I can't do on my own without their help (they expect me to know what I'm doing by now) and I still don't have a driver's license.-snip-
If it helps, I'm trying to get myself to take life one step at a time. As in, taking your time with things, because you'll only get more stressed of you rush yourself. But it's not easy when you're my age and/or you still live with your parents.
I also want to add there's lots of things in your post that reminded me of my relationship with perfectionism and my sister's experience with online school. I feel you on that first part. T^T