What's Bothering You?

[ShawnFuzz]

I'm just really not feeling like I fit into my age range right now. I don't understand adults. I don't want to be an adult. I cannot go back in time, though. It's not the 2000s anymore.

I feel ya, it's not the 80's anymore.

 

[Chris]

My pleco passed away this morning.

I'd had Bae (Behemoth) for 8 years and he wasn't a baby when I got him. At least he lived a long, healthy, and happy life.

 

[matt]

i hate my job!!! every day, i DREAD going back, and i’ve started giving away shifts just to avoid going. i am now SO low on money because i cannot stand going to work, and after 2 years of searching, STILL haven’t found a new job!!!

Why not try a local convenience store or something

 

[nightglow]

Feeling nauseous and can't sleep. :/
I also feel slightly stressed and I shouldn't. Maybe it's fatigue.
We got the giant pile of chips flattened out before the rain came yesterday, and just in general I've been busy with outside work last week in 80F weather. I'll be taking a break from outside stuff for a little bit since the wood chips are taken care of practically now.

 

[matt]

My garden plants have lots of leaves but aren't flowering so sad

 

[xSuperMario64x]

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[Foreverfox]

My cat has cancer. I found out today.

I don't know how to process this aside from crying and snuggling her. I don't know when it is right to... send her on to the next life where I hope to see her again. I am broken at the moment I know the time is coming where I will say goodbye. She is the only thing relevant in my life. I don't know what to do or how to handle this

I am so sorry, I know this pain too well. I lost two cats, who were littermates, to cancer a year apart from each other. One to colon cancer and one to some oral cancer. What I did was grieve diagnosis day, love them fiercely every day after (which was no different than any other day), and watch for rapid or drastic changes in their decline. I’ll put the rest in a spoiler, as it might touch sensitive nerves/be triggering to you or others, feel free to not read it, but it is the changes I saw that let me know it was time.

Spoiler

When my fat man Fry (aka: Beans) was getting worse, we noticed via X-ray that the mass in his colon had doubled in size within a week. It had started pressing on his rectum/anus and he was unable to void and lost the ability to lose his back legs. I never would have let it get to that point, but it happened so quickly that it was like, he could then couldn’t. It was so sudden. He was 14.

When his littermate Burger passed this year, his oral mass didn’t really stop him from eating or drinking at first. He did lose a pound and a half in a month, which was a lot considering that at 15, he was only like 6 pounds anyway. It changed when it all of the sudden was a struggle for him to eat. Because of how much he LOVED wet food, I knew that him not eating it was the sign it had become too much for him.

I also lost a dog only like, a month before Fry. She was 18 and just, falling apart basically, bless her heart. Fry was definitely the hardest for me. He’d been my strength through hell and back. My heart is grieving with you. You will just float through life for a little, but it will hurt a little less each day. There will be times where it will sneak up in a random thing. For me, one of the harder times it snuck up was the first time I used whipped cream on dessert, because both of them LOVED whipped cream.

Please feel free to message me if you want or need someone to talk to.

 

[Seastar]

Kinda feel like I barely belong anywhere. I don't know...

 

[Asarena]

Menstrual cramps... And I've had a few random moments of dizziness today. Everything will just suddenly feel like it's spinning, tilting, and/or moving. Being dizzy is one of the worst feelings for me. I also had a bit of pressure in my head and nose earlier. And my head's just felt heavy and foggy since yesterday. It's like I'm half awake, but I slept fine

 

[AccfSally]

Backache, I don't like you. Please go away.

 

[Chris]

Not allowed to eat/drink for the next 12hrs. And medical anxiety means there probably won't be much sleep in that time either.

 

[Xara]

I hate being alive sometimes LOL

 

[Dunquixote]

I’m not feeling good. I wish there was a huge undo button.

Edit: I had a talk with a friend and it helped a little . Still feeling bad about a lot, but will try to hang in there and do better.

Please no dms or discord messages or anything.

 

[Halloqueen]

A member of one of the Discord communities I'm in passed away unexpectedly at the age of 30. I never really directly interacted with him, but he was a well known and beloved member amongst the community at large. I feel bad for him, as well as his family and friends who have to reckon with this unexpected and tragic event. A lot of people are really shaken up about this.

Tangentially related, with the steep increase in cancer rates for people under 50 in recent years, dying so young doesn't strike me as all that unheard of these days, unfortunately, which is frankly terrifying. This person didn't have cancer, but the reason I mention it is that you never know what's going to happen. Tomorrow is never promised for anyone. It's a reminder to cherish your loved ones and let them know how much they mean to you.

 

[daisyflowers]

my throat feels sort of scratchy? not really feeling sore, have been dry coughing during the night and need to catch up on sleep ;_;

 

[pottercrossing]

I've been feeling sick all weekend and I have a horrible headache right now, which is probably because I haven't slept properly in 2 weeks. Why haven't I slept properly in 2 weeks? Because school is kicking my butt. I have 2 projects due tomorrow, one of which is a drawing project, and if you know me you know that I can't draw to save my life.

My relationships with my friends and boyfriend are slowly but surely going downhill. I don't live near any of my friends, so we didn't see each other all summer. Well, clearly we all changed a lot over that summer because now I feel like everyone's second choice. I'm not the first person the guy who's basically my third brother goes to. I'm always hearing everything from others and never firsthand. I wasn't even part of the original friend group, but I'm a part of it so long as I'm dating my boyfriend. If we broke up I'd lose them all.

Please don't respond to this, I just needed to get everything out.

 

[Giddy]

Had my sister on the phone, feeling extremely hurt about us not coming to see them at Christmas.
And then also dumped a whole lot of family trauma I had no idea about and have to go to work with these feelings swirling around inside of me and I just wanna scream, cry and wanna hurt all the people who have done so many awful things.
What a monday

 

[xSuperMario64x]

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[chocovelvetcake]

Part of me feels like trying to learn new things, but I'm also afraid of failing at said things. Having anxiety and being a perfectionist just makes me feel even less motivated to accomplish anything in life. The only "real" accomplishments I've done so far are graduating high school early and getting my first job. Compared to all the other adults my age, I'm pretty much a bum. Maybe I'm just not cut out to be an independent adult in the real world.

My senior year of high school took place during the COVID-19 pandemic. At first, I was taking online classes and failed miserably. I even considered dropping out of high school because I felt like I was "too stupid for school." Luckily, I managed to stop taking online classes and started going to school in person. During college, I would feel really anxious and worried about failing my assignments in my classes. Needless to say, after taking 2 semesters in college, I decided to take a break from college. Honestly, I don't know when or if I'll ever have the guts to go back to college or if I should just drop out. I felt like I started college too soon, and I only wanted to start going to college right out of high school for the sake of being the first sibling (on my mom's side) to go to college.

I would randomly start to feel worried about my future. I honestly don't know what my life would be like 5 or so years from now, and I'm also afraid about my past regrets negatively affecting my future. As silly as this may sound, I feel like it's too late for me to try and accomplish anything, whether it be something I suck at or something I've never done before. I'm probably gonna wind up wasting my 20s, and by the time I reach 30, I wouldn't have anything to show for it.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

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