VanitasFan26
I'm just a ghost.
I am so sick and tired of being rejected by apartments who keep expecting higher numbers of income just because I'm trying to find a place to stay. This is really annoying 
What's Bothering You?
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A little about myself:
I am a devout animal lover. I regularly seek to learn about them. I keep an eye on conservation statuses. I've always had pets.
When I was rejected on the spot from a job working with animals a few weeks back I cried.
My mother thought I was crying because of the rejection, but that wasn't exactly it. I was crying because it felt like a dream had been shattered.
Life will go forward. I'll hug my dog and cat and love the animals that I have in my life. I'll try not to feel bitter. Eventually maybe life will circle back around and I'll be able to work with animals. Until then maybe I can donate and support specific originazations.
I am a devout animal lover. I regularly seek to learn about them. I keep an eye on conservation statuses. I've always had pets.
When I was rejected on the spot from a job working with animals a few weeks back I cried.
My mother thought I was crying because of the rejection, but that wasn't exactly it. I was crying because it felt like a dream had been shattered.
Life will go forward. I'll hug my dog and cat and love the animals that I have in my life. I'll try not to feel bitter. Eventually maybe life will circle back around and I'll be able to work with animals. Until then maybe I can donate and support specific originazations.
xSuperMario64x
love of my life 💙💜
god I wish I lived alone.
If someone views me as a bad person, it feels weird doing nice things for people... All it feels like is 'me trying to prove them wrong.' Like, are my actions coming from a place of niceness, or do I believe inside that I'm a bad person like others think and I'm trying to convince myself otherwise? Am I... not genuine? That in itself would make me a bad person.
mayor.lauren
Senior Member
i hate my job!!! every day, i DREAD going back, and i’ve started giving away shifts just to avoid going. i am now SO low on money because i cannot stand going to work, and after 2 years of searching, STILL haven’t found a new job!!! 
Tired and drained, and tired of putting up with other people's immature and irresponsible behavior. I need a vacation, lmaoooo
In other news I expect things to be very different by spring of next year, so still looking towards the bright side I guess.
In other news I expect things to be very different by spring of next year, so still looking towards the bright side I guess.
Mimi Cheems
you make me wanna make you fall in love ♡
These nightmares are really starting to get to me. When I’m awake, it’s like I’m constantly fearing the worst based off a dream I had while I was asleep. Having BPD doesn’t make it any better either. I’ve lashed out on a few people today and I feel so guilty. 
I know it’s just because of my nightmares; because they’re only ever about one or two people specifically. I miss my boyfriend.. I ruined it with him *again* after things have been going so good.. TT
He’s still so patient, which makes me feel bad.. I’m so tired of being mentally ill. Despite therapy, despite medication.. nothing seems to work when I’m really in a crisis. Or when I’m in a fit of blackout rage.
I’m not going to let this consume me. I have been doing very good the past month or two. I don’t want to let this ruin my day; but after riding this ceaseless high of anger all day— I’m starting to feel very down; and low.
I know it’s just because of my nightmares; because they’re only ever about one or two people specifically. I miss my boyfriend.. I ruined it with him *again* after things have been going so good.. TT
He’s still so patient, which makes me feel bad.. I’m so tired of being mentally ill. Despite therapy, despite medication.. nothing seems to work when I’m really in a crisis. Or when I’m in a fit of blackout rage.
I’m not going to let this consume me. I have been doing very good the past month or two. I don’t want to let this ruin my day; but after riding this ceaseless high of anger all day— I’m starting to feel very down; and low.
My cat has cancer. I found out today.
I don't know how to process this aside from crying and snuggling her. I don't know when it is right to... send her on to the next life where I hope to see her again. I am broken at the moment I know the time is coming where I will say goodbye. She is the only thing relevant in my life. I don't know what to do or how to handle this
I don't know how to process this aside from crying and snuggling her. I don't know when it is right to... send her on to the next life where I hope to see her again. I am broken at the moment I know the time is coming where I will say goodbye. She is the only thing relevant in my life. I don't know what to do or how to handle this
I feel ya, it's not the 80's anymore.
Why not try a local convenience store or somethingi hate my job!!! every day, i DREAD going back, and i’ve started giving away shifts just to avoid going. i am now SO low on money because i cannot stand going to work, and after 2 years of searching, STILL haven’t found a new job!!!
xSuperMario64x
love of my life 💙💜
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Foreverfox
✨💖glow & shine💖✨
I am so sorry, I know this pain too well. I lost two cats, who were littermates, to cancer a year apart from each other. One to colon cancer and one to some oral cancer. What I did was grieve diagnosis day, love them fiercely every day after (which was no different than any other day), and watch for rapid or drastic changes in their decline. I’ll put the rest in a spoiler, as it might touch sensitive nerves/be triggering to you or others, feel free to not read it, but it is the changes I saw that let me know it was time.
When my fat man Fry (aka: Beans) was getting worse, we noticed via X-ray that the mass in his colon had doubled in size within a week. It had started pressing on his rectum/anus and he was unable to void and lost the ability to lose his back legs. I never would have let it get to that point, but it happened so quickly that it was like, he could then couldn’t. It was so sudden. He was 14.
When his littermate Burger passed this year, his oral mass didn’t really stop him from eating or drinking at first. He did lose a pound and a half in a month, which was a lot considering that at 15, he was only like 6 pounds anyway. It changed when it all of the sudden was a struggle for him to eat. Because of how much he LOVED wet food, I knew that him not eating it was the sign it had become too much for him.
When his littermate Burger passed this year, his oral mass didn’t really stop him from eating or drinking at first. He did lose a pound and a half in a month, which was a lot considering that at 15, he was only like 6 pounds anyway. It changed when it all of the sudden was a struggle for him to eat. Because of how much he LOVED wet food, I knew that him not eating it was the sign it had become too much for him.
I also lost a dog only like, a month before Fry. She was 18 and just, falling apart basically, bless her heart. Fry was definitely the hardest for me. He’d been my strength through hell and back. My heart is grieving with you. You will just float through life for a little, but it will hurt a little less each day. There will be times where it will sneak up in a random thing. For me, one of the harder times it snuck up was the first time I used whipped cream on dessert, because both of them LOVED whipped cream.
Please feel free to message me if you want or need someone to talk to.
Menstrual cramps... And I've had a few random moments of dizziness today. Everything will just suddenly feel like it's spinning, tilting, and/or moving. Being dizzy is one of the worst feelings for me. I also had a bit of pressure in my head and nose earlier. And my head's just felt heavy and foggy since yesterday. It's like I'm half awake, but I slept fine
