What's Bothering You?

it's so hard to be saddled with unnecessary feelings.

i've always suppressed that part of me, i've always wanted it to go away, but somehow my subconscious pulls me to you in my dreams. it builds this version of you filled with lies and i take it like a blind follower to a false god. i'm consciously putting effort to distance myself and yet my subconscious is still so drawn to you that it hurts me a lot. it seeps into my every day life and time and time again i have to burn the image of you.

(it never truly burns down. my subconscious always keeps a part of you with it.)
it's been a month, and once again you've visited me in my dreams.
who are you? why do you keep haunting me? i can't shake you off no matter what; somehow when i thought you'd be out of my system, you visit my subconsciousness and suddenly i'm too hung up again. i don't even think about you often, i don't talk about you to anyone, nothing. just how strong of a grip do you have on me, and why won't you let me go?
 
Why is it Sunda - Monday already. Who planned this?
I don't want to deal with my coworkers leftovers* from yesterday, I never get the chance to sit down at work anymore.

*By this, I mean when they leave everything for my to deal with the next day.
 
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