What's Bothering You?

Don't let someone else's opinions hold you back. If it would make you feel better then you should go ahead.
Oh, you're not wrong at all. What ultimately matters is my own wishes, seeing as it's something that would only affect my body and health. I just struggle to advocate for myself as much of my life has been spent having my opinions downplayed at best, so it's hard for me to put my foot down. It's something I need to work on a lot more.
 
I don't think I am going to get out of this depression. The only thing I am really looking forward to is a video game so obviously that's not going to last. It's not going to change the fact I can't see a doctor, the house is falling apart, and the world is getting more and more frightening. At this rate I am not expecting any of that to get solved before I die.
 
A month ago this most appalling, hateful, hard-to-ignore graffiti appeared on this big metal maintenance box on a busy main road where I live. We submitted multiple online tickets and nothing had been done or said about it until I finally submitted a ticket in the right category yesterday -- only to get a call today about how it's not public property so it's up to the owners to get it removed 🙃

I hate seeing it, it makes me uncomfortable about where I live. Idk why the owners can't just take some paint or even a few laminated pieces of paper to quickly cover it up
 
My memory issues and how no one seems to take them seriously. "Everyone forgets things!" Not like this. "It's probably anxiety!" I'm in therapy and on meds. It's not anxiety. "You must be tired." I'm tired of everyone trying to downplay this.

I suffer memory lapses too. It's unfortunate.

Sometimes people will think you aren't listening to them but that's not the case at all. I can listen but still forget something I was just told. I also forget names and faces. Even familiar names unfortunately.

Messages too. If I get a text or even a message in my inbox on a forum like this, there's a serious chance I'll completely forget and only see it days or weeks later.
 
really sick right now. not sure if it's caused by my new antidepressant (symptoms started within a few hours of me first taking it) or because i stopped the old one sunday night, following my doctor's instructions. or maybe both. i have really violent nausea, hot and cold flashes, shaking. (maybe insomnia, but the flashes could be keeping me awake.) i thought it had passed by this evening, but i just sat by the toilet for ages (it's 3AM) and can't get back to sleep because i still feel queasy. i called in sick today and said i would definitely try to be in tomorrow (well, technically today in five hours) but idk if i actually can 😵‍💫

not looking for medical advice, as per the rules, just venting because i feel like death lol
 
I wish Nintendo made their old games much more accessible. I'm really sad they had to take down free ROMs online and then just. Not make these old games accessible anymore? They don't even reproduce games physically anymore, and digitally these old games are far and few in between. The only legit way to replay most of these games is to buy them secondhand, and even then Nintendo gets none of the cut. I'm not against playing legally (and trust me, I'm not a regular pirate, I support developers as much as I can) but man, give us the choice to do so then. You have a working emulator on the switch, maybe make more of the old games more accessible? Literally the only old Pokemon game I can play on the switch is PMD. I wanna play RSE, or GSC, or FRLG. Come on.

I just wanna play my old DS and GBA games man. 😭
 
I wish Nintendo made their old games much more accessible. I'm really sad they had to take down free ROMs online and then just. Not make these old games accessible anymore? They don't even reproduce games physically anymore, and digitally these old games are far and few in between. The only legit way to replay most of these games is to buy them secondhand, and even then Nintendo gets none of the cut. I'm not against playing legally but man, give us the choice to do so then. You have a working emulator on the switch, maybe make more of the old games more accessible? Literally the only old Pokemon game I can play on the switch is PMD. I wanna play RSE, or GSC, or FRLG. Come on.

I just wanna play my old DS and GBA games man. 😭
I feel you. I’ve been waiting for Nintendo to add Donkey Kong 64 and Diddy Kong Racing to NSO for over three years. By law, they do have the right to go after third-party emulators that pirate their games, but the fact that they refuse to release some older games when they release other older games isn’t a good business practice and is a good way to lose retro gamers as customers.
 
I feel you. I’ve been waiting for Nintendo to add Donkey Kong 64 and Diddy Kong Racing to NSO for over three years. By law, they do have the right to go after third-party emulators that pirate their games, but the fact that they refuse to release some older games when they release other older games isn’t a good business practice and is a good way to lose retro gamers as customers.
Yea, I dunno man. They have every right to take down the old games because of copyright, but it still doesn't make sense why they're so focused on copyrighting and then not doing anything else about these games in their possession. When I first heard about the emulators coming to switch I was so hyped, but seeing the game selections was a real letdown because I was like... that's it?

They'll maybe add more in the future but I dunno. With Switch 2 on the horizon I'm sure the emulators are not on their priority list at all, and I doubt they'll be adding a significant amount of retro games in the future. Really just overall disappointed with their decisions to let their old games slowly rot. Again I would really love to play their old games however I can, but gatekeeping them to the max is just a huge letdown.
 
I just woke up feeling like I hadn't slept at all?
Even though, I did sleep, but I now feel utterly tired and wish I didn;t have to go in, just so I could go back to sleep, dunno if I get a chance to sleep once I get back.
 
I wish Nintendo made their old games much more accessible. I'm really sad they had to take down free ROMs online and then just. Not make these old games accessible anymore? They don't even reproduce games physically anymore, and digitally these old games are far and few in between. The only legit way to replay most of these games is to buy them secondhand, and even then Nintendo gets none of the cut. I'm not against playing legally (and trust me, I'm not a regular pirate, I support developers as much as I can) but man, give us the choice to do so then. You have a working emulator on the switch, maybe make more of the old games more accessible? Literally the only old Pokemon game I can play on the switch is PMD. I wanna play RSE, or GSC, or FRLG. Come on.

I just wanna play my old DS and GBA games man. 😭
Yeah I don't get it. The NSO for the most part is just so underused and crap. I get that it's only $20, but at least when it was free during the Wii and Wii U era they had the virtual shop where you could buy a bunch of the older titles. That list is waaaaay bigger than anything they have on the new NSO virtual app. They literally cherry-picked titles, often obscure ones that one on asked for. Spanky Quest? What even is that? That's what we got one month when Japan got Mother 3 and was eating good with their picks.

That's not even going into how we pay online services to have the privilege to use our own connection to play all of their online games. We're at the mercy over everyone having a good connection or everyone suffers because it's P2P and not real dedicated servers.

I feel you. I’ve been waiting for Nintendo to add Donkey Kong 64 and Diddy Kong Racing to NSO for over three years. By law, they do have the right to go after third-party emulators that pirate their games, but the fact that they refuse to release some older games when they release other older games isn’t a good business practice and is a good way to lose retro gamers as customers.
Oh dang, I thought DK64 was on the NSO? I don't pay for the NSO+ so I didn't know. I remember when it was first introduced that a lot of the titles had terrible frame rate/input lag, incorrect resolution, missing effects ect. They may have fixed them now, but for $40 a year or more they should've done some testing before pushing it on the public.

Hopefully they release it soon or maybe it's coming with Switch 2? I wonder if they're going to carry this all over with Switch 2. Given their track record with online they might do something stupid. I don't like that a lot of their online features are locked behind using phone apps. I don't get why they can't just have a lot of those features already built into the system. It's very gatekeeping. Not everyone is privileged enough to own a decent phone.

I just woke up feeling like I hadn't slept at all?
Even though, I did sleep, but I now feel utterly tired and wish I didn;t have to go in, just so I could go back to sleep, dunno if I get a chance to sleep once I get back.
Ugh I hate that! I hope you're able to get a lot of sleep later tonight or maybe a nap after work or wherever you're going. I remember one day waking up and feeling so exhausted. So I figured I still had a lot of time only to see it was 4am on my clock and I would need to get up in 5 minutes. It's so dreadful. I totally get that, I just wanted to go back to sleep and not deal with work that day.
 
Ugh I hate that! I hope you're able to get a lot of sleep later tonight or maybe a nap after work or wherever you're going. I remember one day waking up and feeling so exhausted. So I figured I still had a lot of time only to see it was 4am on my clock and I would need to get up in 5 minutes. It's so dreadful. I totally get that, I just wanted to go back to sleep and not deal with work that day.
I did just awake from a nap actually, XD gave myself an hour sleep.
I think I am feeling a tiny bit better, just trying to awake up a bit. Maybe it was my body telling me I needed more beforehand.
 
I feel like when you have a family that isn’t afraid to speak their mind about you, it dampens your self-esteem. It sounds like a good thing at first, but not when people treat you like you’re stupid. “Common sense,” they’d always tell me. They think I should know everything by now, but I don’t.

TBF I’ve made plenty of mistakes before, but it’s gotten to a point where my family is getting very tired of me doing that. And I’m just as tired of being constantly let down, even when I end up getting that tiny speck of motivation.
 
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