What's Bothering You?

[Dunquixote]

On Sunday I have to go to one of my niece’s birthday party; I am behind on an entry and am kinda upset that i just now hear about this. I was planning on spending all day today and tomorrow before the deadline to finish it. My fault for not thinking of this idea sooner, though. Also anxious about leaving the house. I’m getting more worried about not finishing in time; I can’t stay focused for too long on this or really anything even though I really wish I could stay focused.

Jewels kept me awake today again; I slept better today after I took her downstairs and shut my door, but I’m still tired. Part of it is due to this time of the month and another maybe because I’m still stressed about some stuff that happened.

 

[azurill]

Not feeling well and just tired . Hate this time of month and how bad cramps are. I ended up falling asleep earlier even though I tried not to . I was going to try and practice some among us but the cramps were too bad. I really wanted to enjoy my two days off especially since after tomorrow I have to work the next 10 days .

 

[Dim]

Today was just not a good day for me physically. I could barely move my body. On top of that, not only was work busy but short staffed again. Ever since the eagles won the freaking Super Bowl people have been calling out left and right. Enough with the partying already.

 

[Tude]

I grew up in a time where my work is never acknowledged. My efforts are never appreciated. For the longest time I told myself that is simply the way things are.

Took me a very a long time to break away from that mindset after 20 years.

You've been working since you were 9?

 

[Beanz]

Spoiler: illness and mentions of vomit

i feel a lot better because i threw up but earlier (like 20 minutes ago) i literally was accused of faking being sick to get out of doing chores.

 

[chocovelvetcake]

Spoiler: small vent; might delete later

*gone*

 

[VanitasFan26]

You've been working since you were 9?

No I am talking about "stuff" in general.

 

[Seastar]

Spoiler: Weather and somehow, politics

So while I am under a tornado watch, I accidentally found an article talking about the possibility of losing access to extremely important weather information. I'm not very knowledgeable on the topic but yes, it's because of our current president. I just cannot imagine living in a world where you don't get notified about dangerous weather??? I live in a state that gets lots of tornadoes and not even getting a warning about it would be one of the worst things you could do to me. Tornadoes are a huge phobia of mine and I start shaking when I am under a tornado warning (which might happen within the next few hours).
This would also affect information on hurricanes and apparently wildfires. I am really hoping someone prevents it from happening. I don't like knowing this is even a possibility. At this point I think I'd rather live on a different planet.

 

[Beanz]

Spoiler: illness and mentions of vomit

i feel a lot better because i threw up but earlier (like 20 minutes ago) i literally was accused of faking being sick to get out of doing chores.

Spoiler: part 2

i just had one of the worst nights of my life. when i threw up that first time i was just getting started, i have thrown up 20 times by now. i got it every where and my family was trying to help me so i hope they don’t get it. i genuinely thought i had to go to the hospital/or clinic at one point because i threw up every 7 minutes and i was starting to get lightheaded and tingly. catching the stomach flu is not for the weak y’all

i think i had this same virus two years ago when i was in florida. i genuinely do not know how i survived because all this happened on a 12 hour road trip coming back.

 

[Kamzitty]

really bummed the hair stylist I booked with just messaged to reschedule me for the third time!! despite it being a (somewhat) understandable reason, im still irritated that I had to make several adjustments to my work schedule from her previously asking to change my appt day. I can’t keep wasting my time.

at this point I feel like it’s not meant to be and tempted to ask for my deposit back. I hate being that person tho and I already get so anxious about the hair salon, I just wanted to do something nice for myself. I really hate the way my hair looks rn and desperately need to cut off the damaged ends.

kind of a silly thing to complain about I know but I’m just bummed!!! I haven’t even responded yet because i don’t know what to say ugh.

 

[Dunquixote]

I hardly slept if I got any sleep at all. Jewels was naughty again, but it was mostly because I’m anxious about going out today to my niece’s and being able to finish my entry in time. My mom said we won’t be there too long, but she said that last tike and we were there into the evening. I’ll be bringing my tablet to work on my entry there just in case, but not sure how well I’ll do with all the kids and especially my dad.

 

[QueenCobra]

My Shih Tzu has vestibular disease.(inner ear infection) He’s getting better, thankfully, but it’s hard to watch him struggle with his head tilted to one side. I’ve heard this affects his balance, and he feels dizzy. I’ve read about the disease, but I wish pets could tell you how they feel.

 

[Halloqueen]

Not a big bother, but...

As I was pretty down to the wire putting together my Aetherial Aesthetics entry, I didn't really have enough time to fill out my written portion and elaborate, only pointing out what the images were...and accidentally missing one when listing them, lmao. Oh well, at least I submitted it on time.

 

[sleepey]

buses running on a holiday schedule today. hope that doesn’t make my commute annoying. just gotta plan ahead

 

[xSuperMario64x]

Spoiler

back home and I don't want to be here. I really don't want to be here. I feel tense and sad and I want to cry honestly.

upset because I kinda made an impulse purchase before I left and I'm now regretting it a little bit. and the seller "forgot" to send the two most expensive items and is subsequently not responding to any of my messages. I'm so frustrated.

still upset that I ended up having to pay so much for parking while in Ontario, I'm dreading looking at my credit card bill.

my whole room is covered in a layer if dust because I was gone for ten days. my bedding needs to be washed before I can lie down. I need to dust the furniture and vacuum my floors.

I dont want to be here. I didn't even notice the "welcome to Ohio" sign on my way home, if thats any indication of how I'm feeling about being here.

now I get to deal with constant stimulation coming from outside my door, because I can hear my parents doing stuff, mostly my mum watching tv. she's watching some conservative complain about "anti-life" and "flags" and "DEI being forced into government".

I don't want to be here. I wish I could've stayed in Ontario. it's not cost effective though, I'm broke. and no matter what, I'd have to come back here anyway, because I'm neither a resident nor citizen of Canada. I'm a citizen of the God forsaken United States of Hell.

I miss my partner. I'm so grateful for the time that we were able to spend together this last week and a half. I will cherish it forever.

I don't even know what I'll eat this evening. I need to go grocery shopping, but I don't want to. I don't want to spend any more money. I'm so tired of spending money. I'm tempted to sell some of my stuff to make money back that I've had to spend recently. I'm so mad that I made an impulse purchase. I need to stop doing that. stupid mania.

I'm just so overstimulated and tired. I'm so tired. I wish I could curl up into a ball and go to sleep. but there's too much stuff to do first.

 

[nightglow]

I still feel like a world war is still on its way sadly. After things are done or said, sometimes there isnt a point of return. You just have a few different paths to choose that have a similar ending. What one is the least damaging? Is there such a path to take?

 

[Croconaw]

Spoiler: long ass ramble

I feel like I’m not a good person, and no, that’s not due to anything that happened here. I know how I’ve acted on this site years ago, and I’ll admit I’m not necessarily proud of it. It’s been four years since it all, but it’s still fresh in my mind.

I’m a selfish person. There was a point I was temporarily staying with my mom, and I wasn’t grateful. She got me the best job I had ever, and I’m saying that as someone who is Bipolar. I’m making the most money I ever made, and a very generous amount of money for the work I have to put in.

My mom is best friends with her upstairs neighbor and she likes to hang out with him. I don’t get along with the guy. He provokes me, asks me to take my shirt off and keeps insisting on calling me my deadname. He tells me I’m beautiful, which is not something I want to hear as a non-binary person. I don’t like him and ask her not to hang out with him when I’m staying there, but I feel like a selfish human being not allowing her to have friends over when I’m staying with her for rent-free.

My grandma blew up at me recently because I didn’t sign my name on her birthday card. She is very homophobic and transphobic, so signing my chosen name on her birthday card wouldn’t be the brightest move. I also can’t bring myself to sign my deadname, so I left it unsigned.

I feel selfish for not being able to sign the name given to me at birth one time just so she can be happy on her birthday.

She’s spent the past few hours asking me why I don’t like her. She knows I’m keeping something from her and asks me why I can’t trust her with that piece of information. She’s already angry with me for being into girls, but little does she know that’s just the tip of the iceberg.

I shouldn’t be on the verge of tears when someone tells me I’m a good person. I want to believe that I’m not as selfish as I think. I want to believe that I’m good.

 

[Wolfsbane]

Because we played together and sent each other gifts there, my current main island reminds me of the person who's heart I broke. I'm trying to not let it make me uncomfortable, but it's been especially hard tonight. I might have to delete it and restart, especially since it's an island where I want to allow myself to be vulnerable/myself.

 

[ShawnFuzz]

I hate that birthdays are a thing. I don't need people to celebrate me getting older.

Birthday celebrations should stop at 21 in my opinion.

 

[Suguri]

I hate that birthdays are a thing. I don't need people to celebrate me getting older.

Birthday celebrations should stop at 21 in my opinion.

I'm so sorry. I didn't realize you were uncomfortable with that.