my surgery is in about two weeks, and while I am excited to finally have it done, I am NOT prepared for the pain and recovery and emotional rollercoaster that will inevitably ensue. I'm mostly upset because I've been working out for a few weeks now, and I feel myself getting stronger every time I go, and I won't be able to do that for a while after my surgery. I also won't be able to play pickleball for a while. I'm also wondering how I'll cope when I'm practically bed ridden for a week, and I don't know how long I have to wait to drive or go to work, and I'm sure I'll have some restrictions for a few weeks or months.
I know this will change my life for the better, but I'm worried I might become depressed from not being able to get up and go like I usually do. I hope I don't become an emotional wreck, and I hope that people don't use those emotions to say "haha I told you so."
oh, and I'm worried about how my dad will react. not because I care, but because I imagine he might start to berate me and tell me it was a bad idea. I dreamed about it last night.

I live with him so I can't avoid it.